Temporary Insanity- ♥

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2012-01-27T19:21:00.001+08:00

Some random thoughts that have been running through my mind recently :/

Though we've sorted out our differences and quarrels and all it kinda saddens me to know its no longer possible for the four of us to return to how we were before I really regret taking for granted the simplicity the trust the laughter and the closeness we once had when we met up so frequently had inside jokes and just somehow understood each other I really miss waiting for each other where the two of us would watch movies while waiting for your training to end or having dinner after tiring pw sessions and even just walking to the int together and camwhoring but right now it has all come to this where we're no longer speaking as a group but more of one to one and for some not at all though I'm not gonna blame anyone.
If life had a rewind button i wouldnt just rewind it i would freeze the moment in time you all used to be such a big part of my Jc life and I'd give anything to have us back but I guess I have to learn to live with it when things no longer work out

I wonder, where did those 4 go? :/

I said, "Where've you been?"

2012-01-22T01:06:00.005+08:00

Wanted to blog about today but my blogger took so long to upload pics fml. Shall do it some other day when I'm actually free teehee.

Here's 2 pics I managed to upload before it hanged, though!

Anyway, for this post I'm just gonna put my new year resolutions down in black and white :) I know it's kinda late, but hey, its still Jan LOL, and it could be just in time for Chinese New Year too hehhhh.

So, my 12 new year resolutions! (Remember last year I had 11 for 2011? So this year 12 for 2012! Hahaha ok not very funny zz):

1. Get at least 4As for 'A' levels this year! 3 H2s and 1 H1 at the very least. And so, this brings me to my resolutions to stop slacking so much (especially with my new phone haiz), do my homework, ALL OF THEM, and FOCUS.
But I am still last min chionger lol :/

2. Jog weekly besides PE lessons in school. Die die must try. Gonna start working on this immediately after cny with joanne! :)

3. Save at least $1k! Including my pay from TIP and all. I must stop spending money unnecessarily I must stop spending money unnecessarily I must stop spending...... (Ohno but I see so many nice iPhone covers!)

4. Don't care too much for people I know aren't worth it, and then neglect/care less about people who do. Yes my prioritizing kinda sucks, even to friendships haha :/

5. This is kinda linked to #4: stop overreacting in friendships and be chill, forgive and forget and all that haha. Tend to take certain things too seriously :/

6. Regardless of anything, any past conflicts I may have had with them, bad feelings, awkwardness etc, keep as many friendships as I can, especially old ones.

7. Go to the temple more! And at least once without my mum, cos I wanna learn all the traditions involved and all lol. And stop going only when exams come, cos I feel really bad :/

8. Take more care of my hair and skin! This is so random but seriously haha. My hair has been unrebonded for MONTHS cos im too lazy/not free to go to a hairstylist to get it done, and it has also been uncut and I just use normal shampoo and conditioner and hair dry it. TERRIBLE SHAPE NOW, I should start putting time aside to apply hair treatment before I sleep. Same goes for my skin especially my face haha.

9. TRY MORE NEW FOOD :) Last year I was really exposed to lots of new makan places like Old Airport Road, Katong Centre, and such. Gonna make it a point to look out for and try new food places and bbt flavours HAHA.

10. Don't go over my SMS/MMS/Call/Data Access limit on my phone. At all. For the whole year. I will seriously cry if I do hahaha.

11. Don't get into any trouble in school the whole year! I was already late once SIGH. Cannot get RC please! (Read: Detention)

12: This one is a private one that only one person knows HAHAHA. Along with a whole lot of other shitty random stuff about me zzz I might have to kill him if I get attached/engaged one day!

Here's my 12! :D I swear I didnt cheat for the last one haha. It IS there, and I'll tell you if I managed to do it... next year :D hehe. Okay goodnight world New Year's Eve tomorrow/ later woohoo!

Cos I'm feeling invincble ♥

2012-01-20T18:00:00.013+08:00

THE BEST LONG WEEKEND OF THE YEAR IS HEREEEE (:

Okay I shall update backwards lol.

So today was the cny celebrations in TJ :) Before the performances, we actually still had 2 more lessons wtf, one of them being a CHEMISTRY SPA PLANNING TEST :( which I obviously screwed up, haha. I should start to buck up for chemistry if I don't want to drop to H1 after all I went through, sigh. Oh and before the lectures I was nearly late for the second time in 5 years! The first was 1 week ago, and the irony of it was that school started later than usual at 9.45 am. But since my dad didnt drive me and I took the bus, I ended up being super late :( For the very first time in 5 years. Love cally chew for waiting for me at the int though, and ending up being late with me. Sorrrrrrry girl! :( hahah ♥
Anyway, the performances were much better this year than the previous year's, when I was still new in TJ and all. Maybe it was cos the performers were people I actually knew, from my batch, so I felt more enthusiastic and all hehe. Was in high spirits when I left for zhonghua after everything with Ivan, Weijie, Xinhui and Valerie (: Caught a bit of the celebrations in the hall and chatted with a few teachers, before going opposite for lunch :) I'll never get tired of the fried fish bee hoon soup there omfg it is the best and the nicest and the uncle knows me! ^^

Sian idk how to make food look as good as genghao does -.- (I hope he never reads this lol)

SEE HIS! Taken with the same iPhone app too wtf -.-

Anyway, we were talking about how small our group (of zhss-ians turned tjc-ians) had become, haha, but its kinda true in a sad way :/ Nevertheless, I'm never gonna pangseh them in the mornings, and I'll always look for them at our usual spot before school every single morning until we graduate (:

Weijie and bro accompanied me to Nex to walk around and look for iPhone covers (more on that later! ^^) and I confess that I was super indecisive hahaha, so thank youuuu you 2. Got koi with weijie at compass before heading home. And then my sister had to call me just as I reached home to beg me to bring money out for her to buy dinner and pay for her kbox session, so I've to go out again later, tsk!

My Rilakkuma cover! :D I've no idea why I wanted one, it just looks really cute hehe. Oh & it took alot of skill to take this picture so my fingers wont block the rilakkuma k!

I would say today has been a good end to a really hectic and mundane week of school, and the beginning to what I hope would be an awesome cny :D The week has been crazy, with test after test continuing from last week, and we have a new maths tutor who we seen nearly every freaking day ldlasfsfsnkda!! The best part is she is super strict and expects us to prepare our tutorials beforehand, and when she threatened genghao with disciplinary action (Read: calling his parents. Believe me, I know what he means when he said he'd rather do detention than that :/), I got super scared too and completed all my homework :( Sigh. Also, Thursday was a really really looong day, running on Monday's timetable, which means that we had 2 periods of Bio SPA in the afternoon followed by PE zzz. Surprisingly enough, though, I actually found running much easier this time than before, and didnt dread it as much :O
Took the pasir ris route with genghao home after school and was so lazy that I actually hopped onto 87 at my stop even when I could've walked home, hehe.

Okay I'm just gonna blog random events I can remember, too lazy to list all out!

GO GREEN DAY
1 word: Exhausting. We had 7 blocks to cover as a class and there was just so much newspapers and old clothes omfg. At one house, there was a whole stack, and I mean WHOLE, up to my chest level, of newspapers waiting for us and when genghao and I saw it, we just stopped and laughed hysterically. LOL. Was grouped with him, sheryl and a tj chemistry teacher who was really nice anyway :) After the whole thing, we had lunch as a class and mrs chua treated us to bubble tea (Y) Starting not to dread/dislike her so much lol :X okay and then I went home and slept for like 3 hours before tuition. And after tuition I saw this...........

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FREAKING LOVE MY MUM AND SIS FOR ACTUALLY QUEUEING UP TO GET THIS FOR ME!! ♥♥♥ I couldnt go with them cos I had tuition, so I asked if they could help me check if it was here and buy it if the queue wasnt too long. But it was! AND THEY STILL QUEUED. omg touched lol. They pranked me when they got back, leaving the starhub bag at the foot of the stairs and I was trying so hard to hide my disappointment when they came up empty-handed but then my mum made me go to the staircase and look LOL.

So this is what it looks like now (After the Rilakkuma cover and the screen protector I bought today :) )

I am so satisfied and contented hehe.

Ohyes I forgot to blog about the 17/11 class chalet in my last entry ._. Shall just spam pictures ripped from facebook!

On a final note, my classmates and I have been discussing SOPA for the past few days, and I REAAAALLLY HOPE THE LAWMAKERS WHO WANNA PASS THE BILL COME TO THEIR SENSES PLEASE. What is an internet without content sharing?! :(

Haiz okay whatever, gonna enjoy my worry-free, homework-minimal cny! :)
And I'm happy to say that I've cleared all my debts (both monetary and emotional) already :) Had alot of issues over the past 2 months, but I'm glad I took the initiative to clear everything up. Feels alot better having a friend than an enemy! Hope we can take it real slow now and one day we may be able to gain back what we had :/
HAIZ, STILL OWE MY MUM MONEY THOUGH. LOL. AIM TO CLEAR BY SATURDAY :(

K going out to meet my sister now, tsk.

Hearts all over the world tonight ♥

2012-01-06T23:20:00.005+08:00

I just realised something... MY BLOG IS SO MESSY :/ HAHA. Seriously, I think I owe alot of posts/my posts are not really in chronological order. Sigh. But whatever! I shall slowly, sloooooowly, put up my posts about the holiday & my internship at sph. :)

Anyway, this post will be just about today! Heheeee.

So... It was my last day at SPH. :(

What I'll definitely miss:

1. My awesome colleagues ofcourse :( I really never expected to be able to intern in one of the youngest, funnest depts in sph hehe. I enjoyed all the inside jokes and teasing and laughing at contributions :B heh. I will miss all of them esp the webknowledgists so much! Yes, webknowledgist, google that :D

Group shot! :D (In case you noticed, I still daren't say which dept I was in, in case... :X HAHA)
It was too formal, so our editor was like, "OKAY INFORMAL SHOT"

And... Kumar and I failed! :X IKR LOL my face never change, cos Idk what pose/face to make hahahahaha.

2. Free food like everydaaaaay :X Log cakes, ham, pizza, kfc... aaaaah. LOL. I think I put on at least 5kg this holiday zz

3. The Teh Tarik and Milo in the cafeteria!! :( OMG DAMN NICE I SWEAR. I will buy like 1 cup everyday hahaha

4. Keeping up with the news haiz. Now I have to go back to reading newspapers like everyone else :3 LOL

5. Braddell and Toa Payoh. Awesome food there, awesome neighbourhoods. :( Sigh

What I regret not doing today:

1. I told Jonathan (the other intern from tj) that before leaving, I MUST try Molly's bbt and spinelli, cos they're sold in/around sph... and I tried the former yesterday! But didnt get to try spinelli yet HAHA. Wasted siol~

2. Sending my emails fast enough! Cos I kiasu send 2, then my official/formal one never got sent before they deactivated my account SIGH

3. Taking more pics. lololol :B

4. Going out for dinner with my colleagues :( I would have loved to do that, but I already promised xinyee joanne ziyi dinner cos we wanted to celebrate da xiao jie xy's birthday! Really hope I get to do that soon anyway haha

5. TAKING A PICTURE WITH BOYTHUNDER :X:X:X 8 WEEKS, 2 LUNCHES THAT I SAW HIM, BUT I DIDNT SEE HIM TODAY! SAD TO THE MAXIMUMMMMM LAH Y I SO SHY HAIZ

HAHAHAHA. Omg I'm still damn saaaaaaad.
Today was super fun though :) Got a pizza treat from everyone, and then we took group pics (Y) Hehe. But it was bittersweet, I'm really gonna miss working there :/

WELLL... Trained to nex after that to meet joanne ziyi xinyee for Xinyee's birthday dinner treat teehee. Actually we were supposed to buy her present too, but da xiao jie havent decided LOL. Then I had to leave earlier as usual so yeah well. Can't believe we celebrated her 13th birthday like 5 years ago though omg, now we're celebrating her 18th birthday! TIME FLIES LIKE CRAAAAAAAZY.

One shot with the birthday girl! :D Anyway I think this is the only shot I can look at and not feel ashamed cos it was without flash! HAHAHAHAH. I seriously hate flash when its like not close up, cos it makes me look super..... especially if you got perspiration/sweat. And best, ziyi always uses her hugeass professional DSLR, so its like, PHWOAAAAAAR all my pimples come out :((((((
Yes that's why only one pic. Muhahahaha. The rest are on facebook la :(

Yeps, so with my attachment over, I've to go back to school real soon fml -.- And face that horrid bio test, which I'm probably not studying for. LOL. Slacking my night away listening to DJ Earworm's mash-ups of 2008 and 2009 songs now (Y) I'm obsessed with the videos ever since genghao introduced them to me hehehe.

Will update with pics soon as they're uploaded okay? :)

On a last note, I think I'm 99.9% decided. Imma take mass comms after A's, and go back to SPH after I graduate muhahahaha.
Cos no matter what everyone else says,
I love journalism (Y)

Last day of 2011/First day of 2012 post ♥

2011-12-31T23:05:00.012+08:00

It's 31 Dec 2011~

Spent the last day of the year with my families hehe. Met joanne & bro for lunch, and then went to watch The Darkest Hour with my real family at night. :) Btw, illuma sucks nao, cos its currently undergoing construction. Like wtf, I knew it was renovating, but I had no idea it was so bad, the escalators were down, and we had to take the lift which was packed. Tsk.

Ohwell gonna put aside my posts about the holidays & my internship, and chiong this post before the new year! :)

Sorry, it's gonna be another cliche, last-day-of-2011 post. But please bear with me if your name is here especially. Heheee.

So... In no order of merit, thank you:

HI TURTLE BROTHER. Thanks for everything la. Too much to say, yknow what I mean right~ hehe ♥

HI BRO ♥ LOLLL. Thanks so much for everything too, for being like a real brotha. love you ALL the waaaaay! (Sorry lazy do real meme HAHA)

Love you guys like my second family! :D I'm really amazed that we meet up on an average of once weekly. that's alot, considering that we have such different schedules. And msning/fb-ing every single day of the holidays too. Even today during lunch, it was amazing that we could sit there and talk for hours, just talking. Every day we've something to share with each other, and it has been one year guyz, since that fateful library mugging session HAHA ♥ ♥ ♥

OH MY NIANG~ Hahaha HELLO MOTHER I LOVE YOU THANKS FOR SURVIVING ONE YEAR OF PW WITH ME AND MORE! More study sessions tgt okay? nu er ai ni :)

Can I please call you bitch? PLEASE? HAHA. its like your nickname already. sighhhhh~ hey gh, love you like a love song babeh~ thanks for one year of being my awesome listening ear, shopping partner, kboxing partner, camwhore partner & more :D Hehe btw I can only find this pic of us together. SAD RIGHT WTH.

Girls please go grab them HAHAHA. omg advertising these 2 -_-

Thanks guyz, yknow for what hahah. For dinners, OAR, singing birthday songs at midnight, gossipfests and all. You've been one of the best parts of my jc life (:

CALLLLLY I cant wait for our mcwings/mcnuggets mix HAHAHA thanks for all the fun during our boring lessons ^^ btw I cant find a pic of us tgt :(((

MIRAAAA. Thanks for being sucha sweet friend too heeehee. Lets never give up on our quest of making hannah the perfect daughter :D And finding new colors~ hahaha

HELLO DAUGHTER. Thanks for the gossipfests and jokes and all heeeh. Love youuuuuuu. Please find better colors next year, seriously. and omg i said seriously again! hahah

Really hope we never have to change seats in class :( Love you guyz heh, thanks for making me NOT fall asleep during the lessons.

Thank you for all the awesome outings in 2011, kbox, and my surprise picnic etc. LOVEEEEE (;

Crazy whenever we meet hahaha. LOVE YOU 4.

Thanks 17/11 for being sucha awesome class in tjc hehe. OUR FIRST DAY TOGETHER. woah.

THESE 5 PEOPLE, IVE SPENT TOO MUCH TIME WITH LOL. thanks tj081 for all the tears, pain, sweat, screaming, violence, whatever. We survived PW 2011 (:

Though our meet ups have been few, still my bestie of now 5 years. (:

Though our meetups have been few, still my dear of 5 years. HAHA. Eh we should take bus home together more often! :)

:))) LA'S FANS~

Part of the leo bitch club. THANKS FOR MAKING MY PDP IN 2011 SO AWESOME HAHAHA. next year must bitch more. (: (provided Im not kicked out yet lololol)

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AS I WAS TYPING THIS, I HEARD PEOPLE SHOUTING HAPPY NEW YEAR. LE SIGH. so i didnt make it on time. AIYAR lets just make it a its-new-year's-day-lets-thank-everyone-for-being-part-of-2o11 post hahaha.

2011 hasnt exactly been the best or the awesomest year. Had so many ups and downs, and j1 life is TOUGH i tell you :/ but still, i made it through with all these people, and most of all, I made it through with a smile. (:

And for the few groups of people that I show love to everyday, I hope I can continue to do that in 2012 hehehe. Really grateful for all of you. Happy 2012 to all of usssss. (:

Oh and since its a mashup of a looking back at 2011 post... Remember this? My 2011 resolutions LOL:

1. guess i can't really say do well in jc cos idk where i'll end up in till results day so.... DO WELL IN JC/POLY LAH HAHA. if jc must do well for my promos! maybe not necessarily h3 material but you know, GOOD ENOUGH :) and if poly GPA AS CLOSE TO 4.0 AS POSSIBLE (isit 4? idk LOL)
WELL, I CLEARED PROMOS (albeit nearly missed) :/ DOES THAT COUNT? LOLOLOL

2. errr.... spend equal time with my family & friends :)
Guess I got this one, been watching so many movies with my family. (:
3. stop spending so much money >:(
Hmm. Hmmmmmmm. Barely enough to buy my iPhone :(((

4. focus MORE on my studies instead of lame stuff like r/s HAHA. c'mon 2 or 3 years only :l and i guess this ties in with try to forget someone/something? :/
YES I DID IT. I only had like 1 crush this year and c'mon lah it only lasted awhile. Anyway I got over my sec sch stuff lolz.

5. stop being so emo like my emo sec2/sec3 self *slashes past self* and BE HAPPY :) hahaha i hate mah emo blog posts man but i also bu she de delete!
This one too, I guess. Hey what dyou mean like real? Read my blog posts this year!

6. idk if that's possible but... SAVE AT LEAST $300 THIS YEAR
MAN
Nearly didnt manage to, but with my pay from interning, got this one. (:

7. JOG WEEKLY. oh man i need people's help for this. jane, joanne, ivan i'm gonna target y'all k! :D
Gave up after NAPFA. haizzz.

8. try out as many new stuff in jc/poly as possible! clubs/societies/whatever
Well, for the first term I did sign up for alot of stuff. hahaha. And I'm in TIP! So yes I guess? :D

9. erm try to love my next cca LOL or at least not hate it as much as...yeah you know :D
My previous cca still wins award for worst cca hands down so YES. (: anyway i haz bitch club lolz
10. spend less time reading storybooks! and facebook/shows/twitter etc
Haiz FAIL.

11. if can, SLEEP EARLIER & WAKE UP EALIER. and eat more fruits too :D hehe healthy lifestyle ftw
JOKE OF THE YEAR PLEASE. SLEEP? WHAT SLEEP? LOL
7 OUT OF 11 CLEARED. (:

oh well will put up my 2012 resolutions next post I guess lazy think now haha. eh resolutions very serious one leh.

With that Imma off to msn with my famileh and do abit of homework yes sadlife starts now:(

But.. HAPPY 2012 EVERYONE. (: May all past regrets remain in the PAST.

p.s I KEEP EDITING THIS COS I'M TYPING THIS HALF DRUNK LOL. BYE.

p.p.s I will resize the pictures when I'm back from my chalet tomorrow. LOL

You don't know everything,

2011-12-29T21:41:00.002+08:00

Just to set things straight,

1. I'm not freaking angry that you quit tuition. Prease lah Prease (sorry Aaron tan), you were the one who wanted group in the first place not me. You're not SO big that I'm mad that I've to go alone now (actually its better that I have full force of his awesomeness), it was just a lil inconsiderate of you not to tell me don't you think, seeing that it'll affect MY fees?

2. No I'm not angry and I don't hate you. Anger and hate are too passionate emotions.

3. We did ask you out but you were so busy,we guessed we shouldn't bother a second time.

4. The rest of the stuff have all been said and done, throughout this year, and summarized in my earlier post.

I hope this will be the last time in dedicating a post to you seriously -_- haiz.

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Will put up my post about awesome sph and fun outings in between soon! (:

2011-12-17T23:15:00.001+08:00

I really hope, I don't lose the 2 of you too :/
the 2 of you that will really be there for me right now when i need it.

2011-12-06T21:31:00.002+08:00

Gonna write this here 'cos I'm hoping you'll see this one day, though its highly unlikely you will, despite knowing this blog url a month after we met.

I know we made up on the terms that I should never have to care about you again, and that its gonna be a one-sided care on your side. And yes, I later told you its impossible, I'm not some heartless bitch that can turn off my feelings, friendship and all just like that. When I care, its wholeheartedly, its for as long as we're friends. But yes, because you told me I'm not obliged to care, I can't just fucking blow up at you over it anymore. But still, it really pisses me off and hurts me. Have you ever considered that you're treating me how she treats/treated you? You told me all about the people who hurt you/you dont like, for nearly one year. And all I did was listen, I was always on your side. Because of whatever you told me, I must confess, I grew to dislike her alot. For hurting you. And anyone else who did. Protective much? :/ but you should know, seeing how I reacted when another of our friends got verbally attacked. But I kept quiet, 'cos who am I to care anymore? And then now, when you've made up with all of them and fallen back for her and decided to ignore however she'd hurt you last time, you just go back to having fun with them and ignoring me. Yes, we're just friends. I don't expect anything more. But as friends, don't I even deserve that respect? When you're out with us, you spend all your time texting them and antisocialising. When you're out with them, you take forever and ever just to reply a simple text I sent 'cos I was worried. You ask me not to allow you to take up too much space in my life, but do we, in yours...?

I was already mentally prepared that for the next 2 weeks we're gonna be strangers til they come back. But seriously, fuck you still.

And I'm not gonna tell you any of this even if I could, because despite whatever you think of me, I do treasure our friendship too much to let something like that ruin it

And even then, I can't tell you of this because I'm not supposed to care. Sigh. But I must've missed the life lesson on turning off feelings overnight, because I still do. I love you like a friend, like how I love them. And the least you could do, is to pretend you care, even when she's back in your life. Yeah yeah but we're just friends, who am I to ask of so much?

When you're too in love to let it go,

2011-12-03T16:15:00.007+08:00

So its 4.15 pm on a Saturday and I'm home for once LOL. Kinda glad to actually have a whole weekend (or nearly a whole weekend if you dont count lunch and a bit of studying done outside just now (: ) at home to catch up on my homework and more importantly SLEEP. Work has been long hours and though its really an experience I'd not give up, its been tiring and I'm getting to HATE my morning alarms......... :(

However I still have been having a life okay teeheez. Had 2 dinners with the usual groups and both at NEX LOL. Hot Tomato'ed on Thursday night with Sher, genghao & kaiyuan and HK cafe'd on Friday night with the famillllly. (:

♥ ♥♥

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Sian gotta stop re-using old photos cos we keep forgetting to take lololol

OH AND THANKS BRO FOR SHOPPING WITH US ^^

Oh and 4e2 class outing at ECP last sunday lolol. Was super late cos it was so damn far from my house & we regretted not meeting bro to get a lift but yeaaaah. Walked alot and then sat in the new macs and lepak'ed. heeh.

Credits to Sheena's phone ^^

okay I should go and study now sigh :( GP is seriously mindeff-ing. and and genghao & sher are leaving for India tomorrow for almost a week! I'll miss them so badly sigh :(

BON VOYAGEEEEEEEEEEE

I'll sing it one last time for you,

2011-11-26T23:20:00.004+08:00

TGIW (Thank god its the weekend :))

This will be a very short post I guess, hehe.

Work has been quite fun still cos of my fun colleagues, but I don't deny that in THAT particular dept there's nothing much for interns (Well, THIS INTERN) to do so I spend too much time on facebook :X hahaha.

Met the family on thurs for dinner & walked around at Nex. Bro made me laugh so much I couldnt eat properly! But as always, time spent with them flies past without worries :)

Always cannot resist camwhoring with joanne's macbook! ^^ heeh, took this on the rooftop of nex, where bro & I tried to scare joanne, cos it was REALLY DARK, AND DESERTED. HAHAHA.

Ok and I went shopping at orchard with jane & joanne today ^^ Was quite happy with my purchases heh, 2 skirts & a top from new look & forever21! NEW LOOK IS DAMN WEIRD BTW. Exact same shirt, can have 2 different prices wtf? so must go and search for the discounted tag hahahaha #likeatruebluesingaporeanaunty. oh and there was a rack of promo items, 2 for $30 BUT WHEN WE GOT TO THE CASHIER, SHE SAID CANNOT MIX TOP WITH BOTTOM FOR THE PROMO LIKE WTF? luckily joanne jian chi ask the other salesgirl who informed the cashier that we could do that. HAH IN YOUR FACE OK.

Service is damn weird never ever gonna go back to that outlet (at 313@somerset) :(

dinner at ion/taka after that with jane. Retail therapy always works but I'm damn tired now and yet there's 4e2 class outing at 10am tomorrow lolomgwtfbbq.

Kk goodnight peoplez :)

/Random picture found while clearing my desktop! :O

Beginning to think that snow patrol is a damn awesome band :)

那些年错过的爱情 ,

2011-11-18T00:31:00.010+08:00

LALALA I'M BACK (:

Came online to talk to bro & genghao while I do maths homework from school but got distracted by facebook, twitter & blogs haiz #storyofmylife

ANYWAY I decided I better blog everything that has happened up til today before they accumulate and all hahaha. But being lazy, I'm just gonna do a brief one okaaay.

SO.

PW.

IS.

OVER.

:D:D:D

Had our OP on 9Nov and it was okay, up til the part where I forgot one paragraph of my lines & repeated myself thus exceeding the 5min time limit (the only person in the room who did x.x) and when kaiyuan nearly killed our project during Q&A lolol. BUT OVERALL, IT WAS OKAY. I BELIEVE THAT. (:

Hahah when posing for this picture:

Photographer (omg I really forgot who, sorry! :X): Eh interact with the teeth everyone! Especially zhongkai

Zhongkai: Okay I will (pushes Kaiyuan's head into the teeth model even more)

Kaiyuan: FREAK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

LOLOLOLOL

So after that we had macs with TJ083 (I think? Hahaha the group nos always confuse me! :X) which was really really fun and just bullshit and all (: Then went to plazasing to walk around and get scrapbook materials for teachers, before heading to bishan for sakae sushi buffet cos we forgot PS's sakae doesnt have the buffet. AND WE ATE ALOT. I THINK. (But didnt hit the 50 plates limit sue ann set LOL) But yeah and some funny things happened like the mouse dropping and all LOLLLLL. And we actually started watching thor on kaiyuan's laptop halfway through cos we were so full and wanted to just like, digest. HAHA

So that's it for 1 entire year of PW and all the associated drama and shitz. (:

(From here onwards, everything else will be brief (: )

10 NOV

Thought initially I could stay at home & nua but sph called me down for an interview, so it went pretty well & all though I was kinda nervous :/ and I got in (: Met the family at tpy after that for a short h2h & went home with joanne (:

(Okay this wasnt taken that day, it was taken at a more recent dinner with them, cos I realised we didnt take any that day x.x)

11 NOV

11-11-11! Went udders with the class to use our vouchers :D it was pretty fun with lots of camwhoring & all heh. Oh before that had swensen's for lunch with the back row & totally made me go bankrupt -_- And I met jane for dinner at manpuku later. (:

At Swensen's with the back row (: Isit Swensens or Swensons. I always forget x.x

12 NOV

Went back to zh for open house in the morning! (Y) We all spent alot of time in the new AEP room LOLLLL. It was quite nice & all lah walau only open when we graduate tsk tsk. Then went nex for 'You're the apple of my eye' with the family plus weijie (: I really luv sitting in between bro & joanne, their reactions are so contrasting looool.

OH AND I GOT TO EAT MY FAVE FRIED FISH BEE HOON SOUP IN THE WHOLE WORLD ^^

And after that, I met my real family to watch Tower Heist in balestier LOLOL. YEAH 2 MOVIES IN 1 DAY, BOTH AT SHAW -_-

Ben Stiller looks older & older :(

14 NOV

Celebrated Ms Awyong's birthday with the class by surprising her in her house! (Y) it was quite fun & all, and interesting to see her house hehe. I think genghao is in love with its location anyway (:

Lunch'ed at marineparade after that, where we saw a couple of local actors filming including rui en ^^ (Resulting in genghao fanboy-ing madly LOL)

15 NOV

Went to school for 3 seriously torturous hours of chemistry tutorial -_- Well, at least I did my tutorial this time heeh (Y)

After that, macs'ed with sheryl cally genghao teckwee & kaiyuan before we headed to Nex for kbox (Y) and 那些年'ed for the second time LOLLLLL. Similarly, damn entertaining sitting in between 1 who got the jokes (Teckwee) and 1 who totally DIDNT. :D (Sheryl) Hehehe

Poor Cally took the train with us all the way to Nex and then back to school cos she had TIP :(

AND THEN MY INTERNSHIP AT SPH STARTED :) It has been fun and really eye-opening so far, will keep all of you updated on it next time.

I should really get back to my maths now -.-

(SPEAKING OF STUDIES, I FORGOT TO ADD THAT I AM SUCCESSFULLY PROMOTED TO J2 AND HAVE SUCCESSFULLY APPEALED THROUGH TO KEEP ALL MY 4 H2S HAHAHAHA LALALALA.)

And lastly,

Really heart these people, its been an awesome year with them ♥♥♥

/edit

(While looking at this photo,

Me: Eh yknow what, bro actually looks quite hot here

Jo: Ya ikr

Jo: He might actually turn me on

LOLOLOL. KINKY FAMILY)

when the best part of me was always you,

2011-11-06T21:42:00.003+08:00

(This is becoming a daily occurrence LOL. To make up for my lack of updates for this entire year maybe? (: )

Just reached home from pw meeting at sue ann's & just sent her my part of the OP answers, too lazy/tired to do anything but nua now heh.

OHYEAH I AM DOWNLOADING THE VAMPIRE DIARIES NOW FROM VIDXDEN EXCITED

Meanwhile, today was a kinda sian day? Mmm. Woke up in the morning in this really sian/irritated mood, not just cos I woke up to my mum shouting at my sister for nearly an hour, but also cos I realised how little I'm worth to some people, how small a damn you gave about me -.-

Oh well. I lived through this before, I can live through it again. But this time, I believe it will not just be my loss, but yours as well. >:(

My sian-ness was further amplified by few hours of pw, but it got pretty funny when we started messing around with someone's phone, erhem. hahaha.

Anyway, it feels loads better talking to bro. <3 Ok short post goodbye!

almost paradise-

2011-11-05T23:32:00.005+08:00

Nights are so fun to spend slacking (Y)

Today was quite a fun day heh. Woke up late (cos someone woke up late too and I went back to sleep ahah) but still managed to meet to have breakfast at yakun, then kaiyuan came over to have tuition. Group tuition is quite good I realised, cos the stress makes me work better/faster. LOLLL. Maybe I will reconsider. :)

After that we realised we had alot of time left before we had to meet sheryl, so I requested for a movie screening of the sorcerer's apprentice. :D It was cooooolz as always, one show I dont mind rewatching over and over again xD But we ended up late in meeting her haha. Lunch'ed at bedokpoint's mosburger while finishing the show heh, thank goodness for laptops (Y) Then we headed to katong to print! It was freakin boring and everything especially for an IT noob like me who didnt know what was going on, so I borrowed ky's laptop to watch movies again haha. :) Ended about 7 and I was damn sad cos I initially wanted to eat douhua at old airport road but ohwellllllllllllz. Circle line'ed to serangoon to meet xinyee & joanne for dinner at nex. It was fun cos we hadnt had a h2h for quite long, miss themmmmm though I see xinyee like everyday in school heh.

Okay searching for footloose soundtracks on youtube now while talking to bitch heh. Pw meeting tomorrow, I hope I get to eat my douhua. :(

OH and jollibean actually tastes really like mr bean LOLLLLLLL.

kthxbye.

/edit.

and just when I thought I had a fighting chance, you just had to deny it.

As always. Why am I surprised.

When you're happy like a fool, just let it take you over~

2011-11-04T22:59:00.004+08:00

Update 'cos today's the "last day" of school (ignoring OP and all the other special lectures stuffz after that ofcourse). :)

ANYWAAAAY. pretty much alot has been going on. Submitted WR & I&R already, seriously the last lap of the journey left - OP! Hehhh. Cant wait for everything to be over so we can play properly, but I'm also kinda curious to see how things change after pw :/

Ohwell. I shall just update on what I can remember :)

Deepavali - spent it watching movies at kaiyuan's house with him & sheryl while pw-ing :) Watched scott pilgrim vs the world, which was kinda weird/lame but funny, and halfway through burlesque hehhh. Still got many more I wanna catchhhhh :(

Didnt leave til quite late cos we were checking WR til like 8pm LOL

WR Printing - One of the craziest & most memorable nights in my j1 life hehe. Went to katong to print our wr with blogshopping group & met teckwee there, along with a whole bunch of tj people who I knew/didnt know lol. Left school around 6plus cos we kept spotting errors last minute. :( (Even at the shop itself, we spotted huge mind-effing errors and had to leave some as they were omgwtfbbq -.-) so we cabbed there! stayed there till 9pm, it was quite crazy/rush/hectic, but we got to have alot of laughs too, as well as loads of camwhoring hehhhh. After that, had a really late dinner with them at old airport road. (Y) by then I was so sleeeeepy my eyes were closing while I ate lol & I couldnt finish my charkwayteow but we bought the awesomest douhua for dessert & I dont regret it till now! :D its so freakin nice I feel like going back there to eat it again yumz hahaha after that cabbed home with genghao & kaiyuan with the duplicate copy of our precious wr in my bag (Y)

-some random outings which I forgot already hahaha-

Oh I watched the three musketeers with my family the Saturday before A'level chinese HAHAHA. It was quite niceeee & funny.

Orlando bloom is still quite cute but I PREFER LOGAN LERMAAAAAAN :) & his love interest is so pretty too wtf.

I GOOGLED HER she's called gabriella wilde /stalker :)

A' level chinese - Two letters: gg. I think I did worse this time than for my O's hcl LOL. ah well its over. :) class lunch (sort of? heh) at long john's after that then headed to kaiyuan's to do pwwwww. :(

Bitch (genghao)'s birthdaaaay- Sheryl kaiyuan & I were first to wish him! (I hope) hehehe. But the whole backrow ponned school that day, I wasnt feeling well & was too damn tired, so I felt bad, and so cally hannah & I bought him a cake on our way to school for op later in the afternoon. HAHAHA MANAGED TO SURPRISE HIM EVEN WITH SHERYL ASKING WHAT CAKE FLAVOUR HE WANTED (using a bluff I suggested obv xD) ARE WE GOOD OR WHAT LOL. It was fun & the baby of the class turned 17 lalala happy birthday bitch hehe.

Pw'ed til 6plus then went homeee.

"LAST DAY" OF SCHOOL- Submitted I&R, went down to sph for writing assessment & caught footloose with sheryl kaiyuan teckwee & genghao (:

The writing assessment was quite scary haha :X ohwell I just did what I could, whether or not they choose me is up to them now. :)

Footloose was awesomeeeeee (Y) Was initially early then became late cos I went to ion to buy popcorn & happylemon first heh so sorry peoplez. But it was damn nice laaaaaa. I like the outing group. :)

Slacking my youth away now HEH. Have tuition tomorrow morning with kaiyuan before our pw meeting & I was so sian at first cos I thought I had to do my homework to catch up with him but later realised we went through it already HEHEHE. Okay next update after OP maybe? I NEED TO WORK ON MY POSTURE :( Okthxbye.

you found me,

2011-10-08T22:24:00.004+08:00

PROMOS ARE OVERRRRRRR :D

aaaaaaand just a quick update on what I've been doing before I go do my part of the Written Report, lol.

Well, the promos itself was quite screwed. Especially the maths and chem paper. Guess it was partly due to them being the last 2 papers, just didnt have the mood to study for them at all hahah. And of course, it showed when I stared at the first few questions and thought "i am screwed". Shows how gg it was, but whateverrrrr. Really hope I can just pass everything, clear promos and keep my 4 H2s. Sigh :/

4 October - So after chemistry, which was the last paper, went to catch abduction with joanne & bro! (: or this & that, hehe. Saybons for lunch before that, then headed to cathay and bumped into some classmates lol. Abduction was awesomeeeeeee! Taylor lautner was everything I expected & more hehe. Nice plot, goodlooking actor & actress (;

hehe SEE I SO NICE PUT A POSTER IN FOR Y'ALL TO DROOL OVER :D

Had dinner opp. zhonghua after that cos bro and I missed the coffeeshop food. It was awesomez. Miss zhonghua so much haha. Chatted & caught up with each other, walked around abit with joanne at nex after bro left, then went home (: Seriously love each and every outing with the family hehe.

5-7 October - Hmm. Next 3 days were spent on PW, PW and more PW -.- and sports carnival which we didnt participate in at all LOLLLL :/

7 October - Yesterday after pw and sports carnival, cally amira and I went to play some pasar malam games at bedok central LOLLL. it was super funny heh. And we returned the prizes cos they were kinda lame. Told the uncle we were just playing for fun (:

After that, went home and slept for 15 hours hahaha. Initially wanted to just take a nap, but ended up sleeping all the way til this morning (8 October), then woke up to meet sheryl & kaiyuan for breakfast (: Went to watch Inception and pw'ed after that heh. Quite fun, though I was very tired. IKR weird :/ I think I have sleeping syndrome haiz. Quite the opposite of insomnia? :/ LOLLL

9 October - Was woken up really early by kaiyuan's call at 645 am in the morning zzz! LOL, we were supposed to meet sheryl at marineparade at 8plus am for breakfast at yakunz and then head to sheryl's to bake (: Initially, genghao was supposed to join us but he couldnt make it due to pw so... yeah. :( HAHA

IT WAS FUN ANYWAY :) made brownies from pre-mix and butter cookies from scratch! :D *accomplished* okay actually, I was more of the Dj that day, choosing songs to blast heh while the other 2 were mixing and baking :D ohwellz, our brownies were damn nice! had them with vanilla icecream for lunch, simply sinful (Y) had to leave really quickly after that though, before our cookies were fully baked cos I had tuition :(

THANKS SHERYL FOR HOSTING US ANYWAY ^^

Shall stop here cos the rest of the days are a mundane whirl of getting back my terrible and simply horrendous results (like a freaking U for chemistry :( ), pw pw and more pw, and boring lessons.

Anyway, if you're wondering why the dates are so weird, that's because I started this post on 8 October but am only publishing it on the 13th hehe. I know its kinda a bore to read with all the words and no pictures, but I'm simply too lazy/have no time to go source for pictures. Will upload them next time!

Meanwhile, why this random day to blog? :D No I was not inspired by genghao's update HAHA (okay maybe a 'lil :D) but I felt today was super eventful which I will elaborate on another time :/

Today has really been a mixture of emotions :l

nevermind, i'll find someone like you (:

2011-08-26T22:34:00.005+08:00

LONG WEEKEND IS HEREEE :D :D

K alot has been going on as usual. School's getting to be more of a bitch, but I'm slowly catching up on tutorials yay. :)

Anyway, this post is just to thank everyone for celebrating my seventeeeeeeenth birthday! :D hehe. photos are in random order and koped from facebook ktb :)

THANK YOU VERY MUCH TO:

cally & bitch <3

zy jo xy for the bag and dinnerrrrr (;

love this girl to the max man. she sent me 17 msges wishing me in 17 different languages!

for the awesome surprise picnic, kite-flying and cake! :D :D

okay it was supposed to be just bro hehe

amiraaaaa (;

and jane, hannah and pearlyn whose photos with me I couldnt find! :(

and ofc my AWESOME FAMILY,

THANK YOU ALL FOR THE PRESENTS, CELEBRATIONS AND WISHES. love you all very muchhhhhh :D this birthday has been awesome laaa :)

lalala, i'm SEVENTEEN (Y)

as I get older, I do find that the number of great friends I have increases. I'm really blessed for you guys. :)

also, happy belated birthday to CALLY, TECKWEE, SHERYL, WEI LIANG, KRYSTAL, REBECCA, SHARON :D

kbye gotta mug really hard til promos now sigh. must cut down less on the outings, michelle! :(

OH YA and thank you for my productive study partner hehe. i really hope i'll stop being so pissed off with you so often :/ lol! anywaaaaay. im glad i didnt go too far and we made up (Y)

it'll never be enough 'cos it was not said to you,

2011-07-01T22:21:00.008+08:00

/BLOG REVIVAL!

TEEHEEZ MY BLOG IS REALLY DEAD (Y)

So many things accumulating in life, and though I'm feeling quite lazy about blogging them all, I know I'll regret next time, so I shall just blog what I remember (in point form) :D :D

1. SO, my june holidays was unproductive but busy and fun k :D

2. 31 May & 1 June - Pre-u semmmm! I kinda regret going as an SPF, cos it was superrrrrrr boring for us :( We were kinda clueless as to what to do, and all we did were to just accompany our groups around the campus to film the video. LOL. Okay, but I managed to gossip alot with genghao and the other SPFs, so it wasnt that baaaad :)

3. 2 June - I think I went to catch X men! It was damn random and unplanned but quite funneh :) oh and the movie was awesome of course

4. 3 June - went to celebrate ziyi's birthday with yuvin and krystal by surprising her with a cake at NP! :) Heehee, she was so surprised (Y) I got to eat 2 cakes for her, cos I celebrated it with xinyee & joanne too, muhahaha.

celebration with xinyee & joanne at Nex! :)

credits to ziyi's facebook

celebration with yuvin & krystal at NP! the toilets quite nice to camwhore hehe.

cake we bought for her, chosen by krystaaaaal. the heart-shaped strawberries nice right?! :D

trying to pretend imma NP mass comm student (my original dream :( ) that's joanne's boom mike anyway, without the mike. :D

credits to krystal's facebook! (;

5. 4 June - HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIYI LOL! oh, & went to a flea market with jane (; so happy, bought lots of cheap stuff and a new wallet, which looks awesome but it doesnt have a transparent compartment for neoprints, sighhh :/

6. 8 June - Went out with cally & amira (:

credits to cally's facebook :D

Supposed to be back row outing but faaaaaailed, cos hannah and genghao couldnt make it :( and our kbox damn fail cos kbox didnt have the $6 promotion anymore, gaaaaaaah! Hate that place manz x( Then we went to ehub to try to catch a movie, but failed too cos no suitable ones haiz. Finally decided to bowl & meet genghao for dinner lol

7. 14 June - FAMILY OUTING with Joanne & Ivan at playnation, fun fun fun (: love them man hehe. We forgot to take photos though, saaaaad :(

8. 15 June - Met weiliang for a movie. STUPID ASS FORCED ME TO WATCH LADDALAND :((( and then went to bugis for dinnerrr teehee

9. K THAT'S ALL THE OUTINGS I REMEMBER. OF COURSE, IN BETWEEN THEM WERE MANY MANY PW MEETINGS TSKKKK. Those without our dearest zk were FUN FUN FUN :) camwhored, gossiped etc. (;

Studying at tj's field after pw meeting! :D damn windy & nice there manz

National libraaaary (; the lift there is super fun teehee. We purposely took it to the top & all the way down lots of times, like a free rollercoaster! 8D

koped from kaiyuan's facebook but Sheryl & I uploaded one ok! muhaha

10. JCTS CAME AND WENT HEHE (Y)

11. I regret studying for JCTs only 1 week from the exams :/ All those late nights aaaaah

12. OUR GPP HAS BEEN CONDITIONALLY APPROVED OMGOMGOMG WE'RE AWESOME :D! /this is starting to get random LOL

13. I've an awesome studying buddy who thinks I'm awesome too! Muhahahaha /random too

14. After the last paper (maths), Monte Carlo'ed with amira and cally! :)

selena gomez is so prettaaaye here :/

Would've liked a clique outing but hannah had training and genghao pangseh'ed us ._. Still, it was niceee. Cute guys! :D

15. Went all the way to bedok for pw meeting today which lasted for only half an hour LOLLL. (This reminds me, I've yet to do minutes :/ sighhh. )

16. Popeye's-ed with sue ann & kaiyuan for lunch, it was hilariousssss! We all did our survey thingys on ipod/laptop/iphone straight after finishing our meals, and went to claim our 1 pc free chicken. LOL! Best part is that they put "poor service" for the survey. EVIL MUCH? :D

17. Met jane at bugis after that! While walking to the library (we're book lovers k!), pearlyn called me using her friend's phone HAHA. luckily I didnt feel like sticking to my ignore-unknown-numbers rule today, or she'll be damn sad :/ teeheez. She wanted to meet us so we went to kinokuniya and waited for that da xiao jie for almost an hour -_- TSK. National library, then Nex was dinner (;

18. GONNA SLEEP IN TOMORROW LIKE FINALLY PLEASE. :) awesome to have 4 days of holiday maaaan.

YEPS that's all I can remember, hehe. and if you're wondering why I can remember the dates and all, I KEEP TRACK WITH MY IPOD :) hahahahaha

19. I want an iphone badly but I'm forcing myself to wait for iphone 5 :(((((((

20. In case you havent noticed, I've stopped expressing my feelings here lol

21. Too tired and confused to think.

22. Goodnight world! :)

dedication to the birthday girl (;

2011-06-04T23:04:00.001+08:00

today was an awesomeeeeee day! Retail therapy with jane, worked really well. :)

however, I'm here today not to talk about my day but to post a dedication to my beloved hehe

LYEZEE!

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAR <3
5TH YEAR POSTING THIS I THINK, WOAAAAAH. TIME FLIES SO FAST SOMETIMES I CANT BELIEVE IT MYSELF. BUT OUR FRIENDSHIP REMAINS THE SAME AFTER SO LONG. SO GLAD WE HAD 4 YEARS OF MSP TOGETHER, SO GLAD WE HAD 4 YEARS OF BEING CLASSMATES TOGETHER, SO GLAD WE HAD 4 YEARS OF SKITTLES, OF TPY STALKINGS, OF MOSBURGER, OF MUGGING, OF PLAYING, OF AUDITION, OF GOING EACH OTHER'S HOUSES, OF HEART-TO-HEART TALKS, OF LAUGHTER, OF TEARS, OF AWESOMENESS AND LOVEEEE.
WE MAY BE IN DIFFERENT SCHOOLS NOW, LIKE AT THE 2 ENDS OF THE GREEN LINE, BUT WE'LL ALWAYS CELEBRATE OUR BIRTHDAYS TWICE A YEAR TOGETHER, LIKE YOU SAID RIGHT? :D
HEHE, THIS WILL BE MY 7TH MSG TO YOU. SAYA CINTA KAMU!

(and i will blog about my awesome and very busy holiday another time :D )

deja vu, all over again.

2011-05-27T21:08:00.002+08:00

HI WORLD. :D

omg, long time since I blogged, I know. hehhhhhh.

school has been mad hectic. I never knew life could be so busy until now... Okay fine, I'm in a club & society cca, but that doesnt make me any less busy D; PW, Tests, Lectures, Tutorials, Homework are all eating up my time like there's no tomorrow.

BUT

I'm not abandoning this blog yet okaaaaaay. hehe.

I'm blogging now cos I've some stuff to let out :/

In sec 3 & 4, after the first 2 or 3 failed tests, I somehow got used to it and could just laugh it off when I failed subsequently. lol. Its like I could somehow remind myself that, the school was just trying to demoralize us, and I wouldnt ever let myself get demoralized.

But here, I feel like an idiot whenever I fail yet ANOTHER test. :(

Everyone around me is doing way better, everyone seems to understand at least what's going on. BUT I'M NOT. :( I'm so afraid for my jcts, so afraid I'm going to fail everything, at the rate of going. When I got back my bio test, it was like the last straw. I failed econs, failed maths, failed gp (okay fine Idk the marks yet, but c'mon I only got like 1.5 marks for summary ;x), even failed my freaking napfa 5 items (sbj, expected). And its like now bio, my favorite subject? I studied really hard for this test cos I told myself that I was sick of failing, and yet I STILL failed.

At that point, I turned to cally and said, "I think I should really drop to a poly."

AND I REALLY MEANT IT.

In the past, I was all prepared to go to a poly and pursue mass comm/pharmaceutical science. I persuaded my parents and everything. Even when eventually I changed my mind and decided to try for a jc, I was planning to go MJC or something. Yet with my olevel results, I put TJC as my 1st choice (discounting NJC which I'd never have gotten into anyway), and got in, knowing that it would be a tough journey.

Right now, I don't think I'm suitable to be in this school anymore.

Right now, I don't think I have the brains and ability to be in this school anymore.

Its expecting so much of me. Grades, Napfa, everything. And I keep failing, I keep falling from all these expectations. And it really hits me hard each time, like what am I doing here??

The people are awesome, really. I love the back row. I have made so many awesome friends here.

But every single time I fall from yet another expectation, I feel even more unworthy of being in this school.

I want an escape. I need a breather. I'm so tired. :/

and I don't know what to feel/think about you.

Most complicated feeling I ever experienced -.-

take a bite of my heart tonight~

2011-03-19T19:36:00.006+08:00

This week has been craaaaaazy lol

Koped from beryln's, ziyi's & yours truly's fb (;

From latest to oldest;

4e2 class lunch! THE GUYS' FACES=EPIC LOL

awesomesauceeeeeee (;

Orchard with ziyi & joanne! Rly sad xinyee couldnt join us, next time must rest well & come k! :D

Outside ION. Damn pretty structures there :)

we were walking out of ion to cineleisure for our movie & got stopped by this woman asking if we wanna learn to make paper flowers to put in the fake garden lol!

Sleepover @ Xinyee's houseeeee (;

thanks ziyi for braiding my hair LOL

Kbox with jane & Joanne :D

WE SANG JMJMJH 3 TIMES TEEHEE. in case you dk, its what we call ji mo ji mo jiu hao :)

I also:

quarelled with a friend and made up. LOL
Went to some boring as shit facil camp :/ but I had fun with christine joie & geng hao (Y)
Got my mind corrupted by lester & kai yuan during gp project discussion wth -_-
PLAYED AUDITION! THANKS ZIYI ^^
WATCHED THE ADJUSTMENT BUREAU WITH JOANNE :D It was awesome! I love the part where they open door then can go into a totally different place ^^ & somehow watching movies with joanne is damn awesome cos we ttl get it when 1 of us compares it to reality teehee.

Cant think of any alrdy hahaha! Anyway, school's starting in less than 2 days! *inserts sad face* Pw task coming out and all... I didnt even have time to rest well & "recharge" this holiday. I'm gonna dai babeh :(

BUT THIS WEEK WAS AWESOME LAH OKAAAAAAAY! 8D

The best part is that I got to resolve everything by the end of the week, so I can start school without holding anymore grudges.

Imma happy girl now. :)

that's life?

2011-03-18T21:09:00.001+08:00

Even if something were to happen and I were to die at home, would it make life any more meaningful? I would be fucking hiding like a coward at home and still die. How stupid would that make me?

And NO, I'm not contemplating suicide.

Crazy people pushing their stupid conspiracy theories onto others. -.-

feeling nothing.

2011-03-11T22:09:00.006+08:00

I'M DRAINED/EXHAUSTED/ZOMBIE-LIKE/DEAD.

Was looking forward to a relaxed week-long break but noooooo the school just had to dump so much homework and projects on us :( FMLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

ok i should not complain some people are going back everyday for like morning til evening teehee 8D Again, I'mgladIquitbandsowhatifmyportfolionotsonicestfu xD

(random: some sort of party going on downstairs & they played misery & gee! makes me miss 4e2 tgif last year so much! D: )

Well, I don't really know what to say.

Some part of it has just fractured beyond repair.

I want to trust you but I can't anymore.

TGIF. like for real.

its okay, you're really nothing that special.

2011-03-07T21:12:00.007+08:00

Contemplated for awhile if I should post this here or on my tumblr (HAH DONT WANT TELL YOU LINK LEH xD)
but screw it I really want you to see this.

I know I was wrong to read the convo. It was invading privacy and I'm sorry. But yeah, I was curious. And yeah, I expected what I would see but it somehow still hurts.
Seriously you're one fucking complicated guy.
If you don't like to do something don't put on a happy face, do it and then go home and bottle up the resentment you felt to be used as a future weapon against me.
What's the point I ask you.
Yeah I know I'm pushy and irritating and everything. But I rather you tell me to stfu than use that fucked up patronizing tone on me. I may call you my dad, but so what you have no fucking right to use that stupid patronizing tone on me. I'm not the type who wants to domineer nor be domineered in anything, including friendship. But you treat me as an equal and I'll treat you as one. I'm not interested in a power struggle with you like you have with your girlf. But when you try to use some stupid tone on me like I'm really your freaking kid (btw if i was i'd have ran away from home -.-) my back really goes up and i just feel like making sure you get screwed in out up down left right k.

Yes, today I was really a lil over the line and irritating. But think of it from our point, we're like already in YOUR area, and we thought you had to go out and eat anyway. When you still didnt want to meet us, its like you just wanted to go out of your way to avoid us.

And btw, calling outings with us 'social interactions that exhaust you' is seriously offensive.

I think I can confidently say we know your flaws and everything. Yet you still feel like you have to put up a good front for us? To entertain us in sucha way its tiring? So you cant be yourself with us?

I seriously dk what to say -.- If you cant even be comfortable with us, who are we to call us your friends?

And to actually count the no. of times you go out with us to be used as some kinda argument against me?

Whats the fucking point?!

True friendship is supposed to be effortless. You feel like you have to put in so much effort with us? That everytime you go out is like, a freaking big favor TO US?

Friendship isnt just about spending time -.- It isnt like, you put in 100 hours of friendship hours, woaaaaaaah, maximum friendship points to you.

Its about seriously enjoying the time with us.

I can just ask her out when I feel like it and she'll do her best to meet me.

And btw? I still dont get why there must be secrets among the 3 of us. Yeah you insult her okay lah. You insult me okay lah. We all insult each other, we all know about it. Don't be stupid. You think we dont talk? We share everything. Idk if I could say the same about you.

Yeah I know when you read this, you might prolly say "fuck yeah I can finally be rid of you" and we'll never talk again. But I really don't care. I'm damn tired of giving in. I actually do care about you as a good friend. In fact in this school now you're like the friend I spend most time with.But I'm human and I wanna be appreciated too ok?!

Thanks for fucking ruining my day.

Other than that, my Monday was awesome. School ended at 9.30-10 cos of the awesome A'level results obtained by the J3s. Thanks J3s! (: After settling all the school stuff went to meet joanne for lunch and a movie.

I made joanne buy the tix and amused myself by seeing her get stressed out and repeat to herself "its I am NUMBER 4." several times before she went to the counter :D

It was awesomeeeeee! C: Even more awesome to watch it with joanne aka sarah (inside joke heehee). I think we laughed the most in the cinema although it wasnt really supposed to be funny, LOL! We made so many comparisons, it was so funny. She's sarah and I'm no. 6! :D Yay, I have cool powers. Seriously the special effects were damn nice. Go watch go watch :)

Then went home, got pissed off, and here I am now. Sigh.

Last week of term 1. KEEP GOING, MICHELLE!

/but i'm just so tired of caring so much for certain people and not getting appreciated at all.

pretty pretty please, don't you ever think you're less than fucking perfect,

2011-03-04T22:53:00.004+08:00

HAI PEOPLE.

It has been like 298528492910 years since I blogged man LOL. Everyday I reach home bathe eat chiong homework sleep. And then on saturday I gowent for cca (oh sorry I mean pdp) then I go home and do homework and on sunday I wake up do homework have tuition do homework sleep. OMG WHERE IS MY LIFE ;_;

sigh okay lah I shall just do a short update to revive this:

Yeah so anyway school has been crazy hahaha. You get the idea from the above paragraph.
I dropped band after like a week and joined leo cos I buay tahan band alrdy :x So, yepps! At least I have a lil more space to breathe I guess :) And there's sue ann, nobie, lena, zhong kai in leo! So many of my classmates (Y)
YES 17/11 IS AWESOME LAH. really really. :) sorry I cant elaborate cos I'm too tired lol and there's too much to say so you just have to take my word for it! :D
DOUGLAS MY CRAZY P3/P4 CLASSMATE IS IN TJC OMGOMGOMG AND I DIDNT KNOW TIL LAST WEEKEND AND I CANT RECOGNIZE HIM ANYMORE LOOOOL!
sometimes i feel like i'm drifting between 2 groups though, but... well. never mind :)

I think I applied for so many things in tjc, I cant keep track. teeheez. Hope I get into most of them!
I went for cheerleading trials but was rejected :( but oh well, i guess the practice will be too hectic for me lol. OPTIMISM (Y)
A'LEVEL RESULTS WERE OUT TODAY. And omg my school's top scorer scored 9 As. wtfomgbbqttm right.
Pleaseeeeee dont be so sad! you know I care :> I'm sure you'll be a scholar too hahaha! *believes* See that title up there? Its for you HAHA
I can't believe I still fucking care though. lol. but yes I do ._.
Today dad told me, "Dont laugh, but I want to get an A for chinese. Will love it if I have to" WAHAHAHA. guess he was inspired by the seniors today :D I WANT A TOO DAD! (Y)
And again, school has been/is crazy and mad hectic, but I'm thankful for my awesome cg.
And I'm superduper thankful for my sec school friends in tjc, esp dad weijie and xinyee. :) I never regret coming to tjc with you guys heeheez. *heart*
okay I'm running out of things to say LOL
I really can't believe I still care but I do.
so, please cheer up! :> ~~and reply my text and say thanks and realise i'm here for you and give me some funny and cute response can?? :C~~ lol please just reply :)

okay i'm still typing the long post on orientation lol. shall post it during holidays or something.

GDNIGHT WORLD

OMGYAYIDONTHAVEBANDTMRWFYEAHFINALLY

the l-o-v-e day!

2011-02-14T19:34:00.005+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

(hahaha okay actually it was an ordinary day except we were 'officially welcomed into the tjc family' O.O)

I REALLY WANT TO PUT UP A POST WITH PICTURES SO AS THEY ALWAYS SAY, CONSTRUCTION IN PROGRESS. PLEASE WAIT PATIENTLY :D

Meanwhile, here's something to leave you with. I'm in CG 17/11 with WONGSUEANN :D! So far my CG has been awesomeeeeeeee & damn fun and thank goodness I have someone I know inside. Heehee.

K BYE. NEEDA GO DO MATHS :(

btw you really are a freaking jerk. tsk.

we can always party on our own,

2011-02-06T23:02:00.004+08:00

LAST DAY OF CNY BREAK!

~~SIAN LAH THERE'S SCHOOL TOMORROW :(~~

Anyway, yst was the fun-nest day of cny :) Went to nex to sing kbox & watch shaolin with my family LOL. Okay lah, the shaolin part not so fun, cos the movie was so boring my sister & I almost fell asleep -.- My parents loveeeeee historical films, then I told them its not interesting cos "we'll always know what happens next"! hahaha I WIN :D But the kbox was super awesome & I surprised my parents by singing chinese songs mwhahaha. thanks Jane & Joanne :)

Ahwell. Hopefully tmrw's mass dance will be awesome ^ 138930102919381! (although so far I still damn blur during all the mass dances :l) 8) Long day so I better get some sleep ahaha. GOODNIGHT EVERYBODY & HAPPY CHU SI (I think) :)

FYI MY LONG OVERDUE LAST-2-WEEKS-OF-HOLIDAYS POST IS UP ^^

flashback,

2011-02-04T19:22:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHU ER!

Went to pray again today & watch its a big big world or whatever its called LOL. Sg shows always the same lah I guess :/ Joanne's going to watch it later! (Y) I told her we always seem to watch the same shows on new year omg. And my parents wanna go watch the green hornet tmrw? LOL JAY CHOU SPEAKING ENGLISH = EPIC CUTE & HILARIOUS :D
ok lah I don't so bad wahaha.

I'm super bored right now. My whole family's sleeping (Y) My mum wanted to go nex but in the end she said she was too lazy to go out. Nobody's online & someone is entertaining! sad max. Shall go watch shows or something lol. OH AND I JUST HAD A FLASH OF THE PAST. or whatever you call it. haiz some people will always remain desperate :) How many times have you decided she's the one? lol okay i was highly entertained for all about 5 minutes. now I have to go find some other thing to entertain myself with. :(

BTW MY INTERNET BROWSER IS NOW GOOGLE CHROME & I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENED WTF. :O

when you're wrong in all the right ways,

2011-02-03T22:16:00.011+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODYYYYY (Y)

Okay I'll backtrack a little. So orientation really got more & more fun since I posted (just like what shannen kept assuring me teehee)! Like during the onite prep (grease lightning group damn LOL! (Y) ), amazing race, mass games, hamper wrapping! :D The amazing race was so funny & we kept running everywhere cos got so many groups assigned our route wtf. In the end we completed everything half an hour before the reporting time & went to dabao macs! We were so hungry we went up to the upper deck to eat, but a bus captain suddenly came upstairs like out of the blue LOL! HILARIOUS OMG he gave us a -_- face but luckily we didnt kena fined. :/

K THEN YST WAS CNY CELEBRATION~ after hamper-wrapping blahblah there was a super short concert. like 3 items only? Imisszh'sperformance:( ended at 10am lmao, then dad's dad (LOL) drove me, xinyee & weijie to zh! We were damn high upon reaching & seeing everyone hahaha! teased all the teachers, including calling mr chong "desmond!" & cheering for them (Y) I MISS ZHONGHUA SO BAAAAAAAADLY! :( Ohya and we were asking him about the amosyee thing LOL. Sad lah never see that little boy boy tsk.
Left the school about 11 cos all the teachers zhao'ed so early :( & kfc for lunch with weijie! :)
I'M GETTING ABIT SICK OF MELTZ AH.
Then my ~~cockeyed~~ cute di called & asked where i was, and he walked into kfc like twice BUT WE DIDNT SEE EACH OTHER :( Haiz really either we pajiao or no fate lol.

Anyway, then went to shop abit around nex & compass point with weijie & joanne after lunch. KEPT BUYING HAIR ACCESSORIES D: I CAN'T HELP IT, THEIR FAULTS LOL! Then rushed home before they could tempt me into buying anymore hahaha. Slept for like an hour before going out for reunion dinner at sakura international buffet, at admiralty park or something!

THE RESTAURANT IS FUNNY, ITS BELOW THE GROUND. Or basement level lah. whatever you call it hahahaha. (Sorry I took some photos but nightshot quality failed hahah) THE VARIETY WAS GOOD, STANDARD NOT BAD. only thing is NOT ENOUGH TIME :( 2 hours only eat what! Me & my sist chiong eat all the expensive stuff hahaha. Very sad cos we couldnt find chawanmushi. they stopped serving it after only an hour can? Awwww :(
Aiyar but overall, dinner was still awesome :) then went home & decided to camwhore with my awesomefantasticfantabulouswonderful $2 dress (which I bought at the flea market lah LOL!) & the superuberextremelyawesomely cute tjc bear from my tjc opack! :D

LOOK AT IT SO CUTE LAH OMG. its wearing a mini tjc orientation tee btw. sorry i'm just so biased towards bears :D but this one's reallyreally cute!

the jellies we ~~stole~~ koped from the restaurant! teehee. snuck them into our bags~

was trying to show off my lipstick but..... fail pout lah happeh?? LOL

"CUTE ENOUGH TO EAT!"

slept around 2+ am x.x cos was talking to a veryyyyyyy uncute (:B) guy called czq ahahahaha. he is an idiot who tried to scare me when i was in the living room alone, at about 1am -.- "Eh dont look behind you" WTF MAN I TOTALLY HAD GOOSEBUMPS.

TODAY WAS QUITE SLACK. Went to macs for breakfast & then went to pray. Oh yeah and then dad drove us to bedok to recee the area hahaha.

I'm tired now & shall sleep sooooooon :) oh oh & I HAVE NEW CLOTHES (Y) my mum dont want and gave me some, and then I gave my aunt some I can't wear LOL. We're like a recycling factory in this house :O

okay gdnight everyone happy chu yi! :)

we're just not meant to happen,

2011-01-30T15:36:00.003+08:00

ITS SUNDAY!~

I can finally sleep in :D Okay lah was supposed to go jogging this morning but it was still raining from last night so I went back to sleep til 12! LOL & I lost the bet with someone who said I'm a pig but whatever~

Yesterday was 3rd day of orientation lol. Ok I still feel my OG not that bonded/high :/// Lol we dont have like og lunch or whateverrrrr then nobody cheers much. Felt so sian taking bus alone yst :x Yalah I'm an insecure girl! Lol! Well just really hope we can become closer & all (:

Anyway, after school met jane & joanne to get my stuff. Was supposed to get everything at hg mall then go plaza sing to get shorts but the shoe shop in hg didnt sell the shoes I wnted! :( So train'ed to nex in the end lol, but also didnt get what I wanted. Idk why recently it always happens like this, the place we meet at becomes just the place we eat at & we don't do anything else there -.- just like last monday hahaha. I guess we're just suay. OHWELL thanks guys for accompanying me :D Dinner'ed at subway with joanne! Gossipfest again & made her laugh like mad (: reminded me so much of our dinner there a year or two ago. ah no i miss my upper sec life alrdy :(

Oh well, I'm off to watch my tvd ^^ season 2 ep 12 is finally out! ♥♥♥
AND YEAH I CHANGED MY BS OUT OF BOREDOM LOL.

to you: i may give a million & one second chances to people i care about, & i thought i cared about you as a good friend. but it seems you're gonna take me for granted, and that, i had enough of. so screw yourself & dont look for me when you're all alone cos i, dont really need friends like you. :)

to you: hi i hope i'm not falling for you LOL. okay i'm just kidding cos i can't. roar.

you turn up again & again unexpectedly,

2011-01-28T22:47:00.004+08:00

HI I KNOW ITS BEEN AWHILE~

still writing the long overdue last-week-of-holiday post LOL! I know, school has alrdy started omg time flies~ *cliche* I'll prob'ly post it over new year or something.

so anyway, at first i thought this orientation would be scary & confusing for me cos i WAS an appeal kidz LOL, but then i gave up my appeal to njc (long story), & i'm kinda glad for that, cos now i can like fully start to make friends blahblah & focus on orientation. I'm glad weijie's staying in tjc with me too, with lots of other 4e2 people! And for those who're still appealing *cough* dad and xinyee *cough* erm good luck but obviously i secretly wish we'll be in tjc tgt :D heehee. DAD CHEER UP & STOP UN-SOCIALISING TSK

ohwell, i'm glad i remained in tjc :D although there aren't any 4e2 people in my OG and only 2 other zh guys and thus i feel abit shy LOL i still think its kinda fun overall & i love meeting up with the e2 people every break~ and i love the freedom of jc life muhaha its like phones can be used like water omg so different from zh -.- *suaku* OH & our orientation damn long lah LOL hopefully it gets more fun & high :O

sian but the bus ride to & fro is freaking long and me & weijie were almost late tdy -_- AND I FEEL VERY TIRED EVERYTIME I COME BACK FROM SCHOOL IDK WHY :( slept for like 5 hours after coming home tdy hahaha.

yeps that's about it lah lol though i still miss sr'goon & sad now cos cannot meet some people in nex (cough!) but still it has been okay hope it'll get better & awesome-r & whatever :D

btw i look like army kidz in the uniform ._. & the tie. awesome much. $7.20 for sucha lovely accessory. I feel kinda cheated :/

shall post when cny's nearer & i have more time! :D tmrw needa go back to school tsk! I NEED MORE SLEEP.

So dance like its the last night of your life (:

2011-01-18T13:31:00.006+08:00

LONG OVERDUE LAST-2-WEEKS-OF-HOLIDAYS POST

MONDAY 17 JAN

finally got to watch the tourist yst! :) thanks ivan pedodad & joanne brother for watching it with me.

okay, i think johnny depp and angelina jolie aren't very compatible. i mean seriously! their "romancing" is so boring lol. i only like the police chase parts i think they were hilarious! hahaha. okay though i knew at the end there was gna be a twist about the real conman's identity (and i sort of guessed it thanks to reading pearlyn's blog -.- note to self: when you see a movie poster you wanna watch badly on pearlyn's blog, DON'T CONTINUE READING. tsk) it was still not that bad lah. anyway i was wondering if dad fell asleep beside me cos he was so damn quiet throughout but when angelina jolie started to *erhem* strip he was like "ha ha!" -.-

after the movie walked to plazasing for lunch. we ended up eating the same thing (sort of heehee). and then trained to bugis to introduce dad to... .NEOPRINTS

wahahaha it was so hilarious this time we sort of knew what to press but the machine can fail can?! timer fail background fail (never cover the real background properly lol) AND BEST OF ALL YOU KNOW WHEN YOU DECORATE THE PRINTS THE TIMER WILL PAUSE HALFWAY SO YOU HAVE LIKE 10 MIN TO DECORATE OR SOMETHING? WELL WE HAD LESS THAN 5 MIN COS OURS DIDNT PAUSE WTFFF. super pekchek cos we didnt finish decorating but luckily our backgrds quite nice heehee. i loveeeeee them! although very fail but still look very nice ^^ and dad was hilarious lah when we walked into the booth he went "OMG ITS GREEN!" excitedly and then kept "what to do now?!" hahaha then obviously no time to explain so just push him down and pose muhaha.

after that walked to illuma for dessert. hk cafe again :) and then went to the so-called garden. erm wanted to take jumpshots but then the security guard came and chased us away o.o idk why. chi bao mei shi zuo :( so went home lor. as you can see our activities were quite random LOL. that's why i like to go out with the family :) its like we just on-the-spot decide what to do. fun! :D

ohyar & saw 2 guys playing jubeat at the arcade & THOUGHTS OF AUDITION CAME FLYING BACK INTO MY MIND OHMAN :(((

TUES/WED 18/19 JAN

I think I met jane & weijie to go bishan library but I forgot when! :O LOL

THURS 20 JAN

Okay can't remember much LOL. Erm met weijie jane joanne dad xavier at bugis to check out thieves' market. we kinda walked one big round & almost got lost but luckily xavier brought a map LOLOLOL i've no idea why! anyway we found it and walked through it damn fast lah only weijie interested in buying weird stuff :O

after that we girls went to bugis to shop. erm the guys tried to be brave and accompanied us but within 15 min we chased them away & they went to watch a movie muhahaha. I bought 2 tops for $25! ^^ Joanne went mad & bought the most wahaha.

SATURDAY 22 JAN

Met jane in the morning to go bugis again! :D cos we wanted to go thisfashion. Erm bought some printed tees cos I realised I lack them hahaha (to be regretted cos I spent $7 for each tee & later there were tees for $3-$5 D: ). After that met joanne & went to the flea market at titanium (esplanade mall). woah at first we took damn long to find it, and when we finally did, we realised it was a CLUB. the stupid age limit sign on the door misled us & we thought we couldnt go in ==" so we walked off. then just as we were nearing the mrt, krystal called & was like "EH I SAW YOU WHY YOU NEVER GO IN" then I went "HUHWTFBBQ CAN GO IN?!" So we walked all the way back. wahlauehwinalrdylor. LOL anyway, I LOVE LOVE LOVE FLEA MARKETS ^^ THEY'RE FULL OF BARGAINS OMG. Paradise for poor girls like us. Went abit mad and bought 4 or 5 tops. I GOT A DAMN CHIO DRESS FOR $2 OK!!! NEARLY FAINTED WHEN I TRIED ON AT HOME & IT FIT PERFECTLY. At first I thought still have to alter cos it looked a lil too big, then I almost didnt buy it, but jane was like "ITS 2 FREAKING BUCKS YOU BUY LAH GO HOME ALTER!" Hahaha! thanks girl! ♥

Stayed all the way til it closed at 7, by then all the prices slashed like mad ^^ then everyone was snatching clothes. lol dinner'ed at plaza sing & played the lyrics game with joanne. I think she fell in love with it cos the answers so awesome :)

anyway, hope I have time to go fleas again :D loveeeeeeee them! if only they weren't on weird days, then needa track them and fit them around jc hectic schedule. sigh.

MONDAY 24 JAN

Met joanne dad tek xavier at plaza sing :) had lunch, then okay, we were supposed to go mindcafe that day, BUT after walking so much to finally find it at some ulu place called prinsep place we found out they were having some freaking company function & weren't opened wth! On the very day we decided to go can! We must be freaking suay lah :( then it started raining. so we went back to the mrt station & finally decided to go kbox at kallang instead hahaha. BTW NOW KBOX HAVING PROMOTION $6 FOR 3 HOURS :) initially tek & dad didnt wnt to sing lor, but tek still sang in the end so i dont have to pay for him wahaha. meanwhile dad paid $6 just to eat, drink, laugh at people's singing & make weird sounds while we're singing. FAIL TO THE MAXIMUM TSK. Hahaha it was fun anyway, but the room was superduper cold lah! Me & tek shiver like mad inside but dad seemed fine, must be too much blubber tsk! WELLLLL HOPE WE CAN GO OUT AGAIN SOON 8)

WEDNESDAY 26 JAN

When I woke up to check my phone for the posting results, I alrdy knew I got into TJC LMAO. ~~Thanks to dad's bypassing of the moe system the night before!~~ (No lah he didnt bypass it seriously lol) So the night before, weijie, dad & I had alrdy agreed to meet up to go to njc. APPEAL APPEAL APPEAAAAAAL. LOL amanda toh & valerie joined us, and after we submitted the stuff, the art teacher offered weijie a chance to take some art selection test. Being the kind people we are we decided to stay & wait for her :) The test is freaking long & cheem can LOL. Dad & I were trying to entertain ourselves by using their internet, talking on msn although we were like a seat away from each other (-.-) etc and coming up with sick jokes to distract weijie muhahaha. And when we finally left the school for bishan around 6, the band teacher called me & asked if i wanted to go down to the school STRAIGHTAWAY for an audition. LIKE WTFBBQ I WAS THERE FOR SO LONG & THEY JUST HAD TO CALL ME WHEN I ALRDY LEFT :O Rejected them twice anyway lol! Once cos it was too late to go down again, second time was after I reached home, I thought about it and decided to stay in tjc. In the end, weijie also rejected them cos she decided aep wasnt for her LOL! ~~So yeah, in short we just went to appeal to waste their time mwhahaha.~~ Nah just kidding LOL njc dont want us jiu dont want lor hehe.

OKAY AFTER THAT SCHOOL STARTED ORIENTATION STARTED BLAHBLAH. I'M REALLY GLAD AGAIN THAT ALMOST EVERYONE EXCEPT IANYIP STAYED IN TJC WITH ME, WHETHER WILLINGLY OR UNWILLINGLY 8D 2 YEARS WITH YOU GUYS ♥

end of long post. FINALLY :)

Oh & I initially wanted to post some pics esp of our awesome neoprints but joanne too lazy scan to me so go find her not me :D heehee. Yeah so this post is pretty luo suo & boring you don't have to read it lol.

lastly, I really love this mad family :) Ok lah I love alot of people but the last week of hols spent with them was awesomeeeeee ♥

so this is me swallowing my pride,

2011-01-16T21:46:00.004+08:00

HAI I'M BLOGGING COS I'M VERYVERYVERRRRRRY BORED.
YES TODAY HAS BEEN BORING :( ALTHOUGH I HAD SOME FUN (IF YOUR SENSE OF FUN IS AS TWISTED AS ME :D) DEBATING WITH PEDODAD AS USUAL. OH AND TEXTING JOANNE & JANE TOO.
OHYES JANE IS BACK FROM EUROPE BUT SHE'S ILL :( GET WELL SOON! WE HAVE ALOT OF OUTINGS WAITING! :D

HMM I REALISED I'VE BEEN PANGSEHING ALOT OF PEOPLE RECENTLY, LIKE THE SECTION & JOANNE. I'M SO SORRY GUYS :( I'LL MAKE IT UP TO ALL OF YOU ESP THE SECTION. I KNOW I AM A FAIL SL HEEHEE BUT I LOVE YOU ALL YOU KNOW. I'M SO SORRY FOR PS-ING YOU ALL OVER & OVER AGAIN! I'LL TRY AGAIN NEXT TIME :)

ANYWAY YST WENT TO CATCH THE SEASON OF THE WITCH WITH MY FAMILY AT NEX. I LIKE THE CINEMA! :) THE SEATS ARE AWESOME. USUALLY THE SEATS WILL BE SHORT FOR ME AND I'LL HURT MY NECK, BUT THEIR SEATS HAVE LIKE HEADRESTS?? <3>
WELL THEN WENT SHOPPING WITH AUNT WHILE THE REST OF THEM HEADED HOME. HEEHEEZ. I FOUND MY IDEAL SHOPPING PARTNER COS WE CAN SHARE CLOTHES (L) THIS MEANS WE CAN BUY MORE! HAHA. FELL IN LOVE WITH A FEW DRESSES FROM ROXZ(BESIDE COTTON ON) BUT #1. CANNOT TRY THEM ON #2. THE DRESS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE CINCHED AT THE WAISTLINE BUT FOR ME IT WAS CINCHED AT THE BUSTLINE. WTF I HATE BEING TALL SOMETIMES OMG :(
SO WE GAVE UP & WENT COTTON ON BUT THAT FAILED TOO COS IT WAS CLOSING. AUNT PROMISED TO GO WITH ME AGAIN NEXT TIME ;)

OKAY THAT'S MY BORING LIFE HAH. OH & MY DI ACTUALLY LIKES TO LISTEN TO TAYLOR SWIFT :O *AMAZED* ITS FREAKING RARE FOR A GUY TO LIKE HER SONGS HAHAHA! SO, GIRLS GO JIO HIM COS HE'LL BE A GREAT BOYF TO YOU! MUHAHAHA.

CATCHING A MOVIE WITH THE 'FAMILY' TMRW :) HOPE IT'LL BE FUN & YEAH SHALL UPDATE THEN.

(Y) I HOPE I DON'T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES I MADE IN 2010 LOL. SERIOUSLY, ITS TIME TO MUG FOR 2 YEARS STRAIGHT :O

//PS TYPED THIS IN CAPS COS I WAS BORED HAVE FUN READING 8)

/edit

anyway i realised i really miss serangoon macs, the numerous bbt shops, the int, the mrt, the 7-11 opp school, the coffeeshop which still sells the bestest fried fish bee hoon soup to me, the opportunity to study practically beside nex, the cc, AND ZHONGHUA.
I MISS SERANGOON AWW. :(

(should've put nyjc as 1st choice LOLOL.
nah i'm kidding. i want national :x)

how do I say I'm sorry when the word's just never gonna come out,

2011-01-14T12:56:00.009+08:00

HELLO HELLO I'M BACK :D

this week has been like crazy hectic man omg. after getting results back went school-hunting (read: open houses) almost everyday lol. abit lazy to elaborate so i shall just give a summary on each school :)

TUESDAY-TEMASEKJC

erm, zhonghua #3 LOL (you'll know whats #2 later :D)
the campus is big but kinda old? thanks weijie for influencing me ah -,- "it looks like a factory!"
I SAW SHANNEN :) -waves-
saw alot of zh people there! lol like a mini zh/4e2 gathering. anyway initially i was there with dad and bro, then xavier joined us, then weijie etc :D
walked around the whole school pretty fast :/ heehee. then left with bro and dad, initially wanted to watch the tourist but the earliest showing was alrdy damn late so went to *erhem* tpy to slack, yes again! and drink koi LOL

WEDNESDAY- ACJC, AJC, MJC :D

ACJC:

I LOVE THE CAMPUS OMGGG. its like 3/4 fully-airconditioned, and i saw LIFTS. AAAAAH IT LOOKS MORE LIKE A MALL~
SWIMMING POOL AND A HUGE GYM (biggest of all the jcs). NEED I SAY ANYMORE?
seems damn angmo-ish, so i knew my parents wouldnt let me go lol. so yeah, end of my dream sigh~

AJC:

okay we went in for all about 10 mins only LMAO. saw a few zh people there, the e3 people :D
ZHONGHUA #2 LOL. i shall not repeat what weijie said here cos its damn bad but seriously. ahaha

MJC:

the campus is quite nice! :D i think the paradesquare is huge, or maybe its just cos alot of people were there massdancing lol. the school spirit is like, woah!
considered it for awhile but kinda apprehensive cos of the COE

THURSDAY- NATIONALJC

Weijie's fave school! or rather, her obsession ._. when we walked in she was practically hyperventilating -,-
freaking far hahaha! but expected.
the campus is not bad :) quite big and etc.
we were quite bad to the 'tour guide' cos we kept disappearing and making him wait. lmao! in the end we decided to 'ditch' him and hire darius as our tourguide instead
oh and when we went home we followed him so njc is like 45 mins away from my house~
it's quite... erm hardworking LOL. okay i shall talk about it if and after i get in :p BUT WELL I SHALL CHOOSE IT SO THAT IT WILL FORCE ME TO WORK HARD. PHARMACY YOU KNOW :(

SO ANYWAY, last night i finally submitted the jae thing :D
at first my internet crashed or something, then i was like thinking "surely not so suay ba" but luckily it came back :)

LOL LOOK AT MY LAST 5 CHOICES.
aaaaah i hope i can get into njc :( although alot of hwachong raffles & victoria rejects are applying there too. 4POINTERS & BELOW BETTER GO VJC OR ELSE! 8(

well anyway that's that :)

since i'm uploding pics now i shall just dump some randoom & overdue pics here to liven up the blog heehee

KBOX WITH THE GIRLS

ANWAY. choose partyworldktv not the other one (dontwant to mention names but its the more *erhem* popular one lol.) that one wanted to cheat our money okay?! partyworldktv is not bad & way cheaper! :D

Prawning/New Year's countdown!

Some HK Cafe (sorry I really dk the name lol!) after getting our results!

anyway i realised we (the 4 of us) keep eating at hk cafes nowadays heehee. first it was at the xinwang hk cafe in changi airport to celebrate xinyee's birthday, & now this. :O

JOANNE'S ICED YUANYANG. looks freaking yummy got icecream somemore :O

xinyee's drink. is it lemon tea? :D i can't remember.

MY HOT YUANYANG~ omg i love this drink hehe. jane intro'ed it to me and i LOVE it since then. maybe tht's why i keep eating at hk cafes nowadays heehee. JUST TO DRINK THIS :/

my dumpling porridge~

heehee my multi-coloured nails.

chio right THE NAILS, not the hand :)

okay pic quality failed :/

done! and i'm damn tired now after sucha long & erm stressful week (all week i was like tjc or njc tjc or njc leh!) but meeting pearlyn later in the evening to go to the band's bbq! :( IT HAD BETTER STOP RAINING BY THEN OR ELSE!

but then again if its raining how to bbq huh :O

lol okay done with long update good the bye i think i shall sleep awhile before meeting her! its raining after all 8)

and i think some people who throw tantrums at like my age are damn lol. stop it okay please tyvm. i care for you alot as a friend but i have my limits. not that i'm bottling it up but what's the use of talking to you if i keep getting pissed off :O maybe i should wait till everything's over & your grudge disappear. otherwise, this unreasonable rivalry is gonna hurt everyone ok? ._.

lastly, THANK YOU TO SOMEONE :) who has been giving me alot of awesome advice teehee. and your lame but funny joke. okay its not a joke :O its super mean but still damn lol! :D

(i just wish you didnt feel that strongly against some things. its not my fault i had to meet you through it :( )

k lah bye 8) BUSY 2 WEEKS AHEAD. I'm determined to play extra hard before school reopens 8D

SINGLE DIGIT,

2011-01-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

HI PEOPLE. YEAH AS THE TITLE SAYS, I HAS A SINGLE DIGIT~

9 (- 4 = 5 OH YEAH)

kinda in the middle of nowhere though :/ LOL
quite happy except for 2 things:

#1. MY AMATHS NEVER GET A1 WTHFKDKSNDLSHEMWL!!!
#2. I NEVER BEAT __ WTHDSLDHJALWK!!! (even with my hcl and my ~~awesome~~ languages)

but i was super surprised by:

#1. MY PHYSICS A2 I STUDIED TO PASS CAN? LOL
#2. HCL B3 SAME STUDIED TO PASS :)

the rest were like... expected so YAY I HIT MOST OF MY TARGETS!
except amaths -_-

and now, just like most of the other 5-pointers i'm like:

TJC OR NJC?!

RESULTS DAY TOMORROW~

2011-01-09T21:21:00.004+08:00

beginning to be scared now but i'm determined to play hard tonight 8D!
can't wait to see everyone in school tmrw before the results! gonna stalk teachers & collect my souvenir from dad. ohyay souvenirs! :D hahaha anyway WELCOME BACK LAH NOOB DAD ;)

hmm, long post of overdue pics if my mood is good tmrw LOL. otherwise I'll prob'ly hiatus from blogger cos no face jian everybody HAHA

aiyo this feels like last year before i collected my chinese o's results but WORSE. yes i'm gonna pray tonight too, just like i said last year, i don't care if the results are fixed alrdy I AM STILL GONNA PRAY HARD AND SO ARE YOU SO YES :)

k lah no mood blog alrdy LOL shall end with this:

told weijie i hope i can sing this tmrw :D HAHA. K BYE AND ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE TAKING THE RESULTS TMRW~

first day of school

2011-01-04T22:18:00.005+08:00

for the kids! :D teehee. god I feel so old now. :(

rotting at home now & so bored that when my sister complained/ranted "you know the good thing about psle year/olevel year/alevel year is that you dont have homework to chiong at the end of the year" i almost shouted "but i rather do homework than this! :(" but i will seem quite psycho if i do that right hehe.

AIYO WHY IS EVERYONE WORKING/OVERSEAS DAMNIT

feeling this way cos i 'finished' my vampire diaries alrdy! and by finished i meant i'm at season 2 ep 11 -,- cos for some reason the producers decided to let the show take a 'winterbreak' and the next ep's only up on...27th jan? wtf can i no need to watch alrdy maaaaaan.

k lah i shall end here with a small pic spam to rant my frustrations (and make this otherwise boring post interesting)-

LOL SMOLDERHALDER? PAUL WESLEY IS SO FUNNY LOVE HIM :)

I HEART THAT GUY UP THERE. IAN SOMERHALDER ♥

oh sorry, i meant tvd spam :)

thinking if i should get a tumblr :O

first post of 2011!

2011-01-01T18:10:00.006+08:00

prawning ytd was so damnnnnn fun & awesome! :)
prawned for like 3 hours? till 2 am lol. caught about 10 prawns in all, of which 2 caught by me! hahaha. okay lah i know i fail at prawning -_- must wait for people to tell me "eh your bait moving!" then i tug one hahaha. but still got 2 okay! tsk. anyway when it turned 12 everyone cheered then shout happy new year! and pop the party thingy/pop balloons/scream/sing along with the bep on radio hahaha. got this group that brought those spray can things and started spraying everywhere and this guy got his whole head plastered with streamers lol. luckily we weren't anywhere near there. well it was damn fun laaaaaa can't wait to go again :)

and so, 2011! it sounds so fun alrdy, gonna be a year full of anticipation, promise & you know, new stuff :) hope its a good year. luv joanne's text the most last night- "the year where every date you write contains an "11""LOL

okay lah and so i shall post my 2011 resolutions up here :

1. guess i can't really say do well in jc cos idk where i'll end up in till results day so.... DO WELL IN JC/POLY LAH HAHA. if jc must do well for my promos! maybe not necessarily h3 material but you know, GOOD ENOUGH :) and if poly GPA AS CLOSE TO 4.0 AS POSSIBLE (isit 4? idk LOL)
2. errr.... spend equal time with my family & friends :)
3. stop spending so much money >:(
4. focus MORE on my studies instead of lame stuff like r/s HAHA. c'mon 2 or 3 years only :l and i guess this ties in with try to forget someone/something? :/
5. stop being so emo like my emo sec2/sec3 self *slashes past self* and BE HAPPY :) hahaha i hate mah emo blog posts man but i also bu she de delete!
6. idk if that's possible but... SAVE AT LEAST $300 THIS YEAR
MAN
7. JOG WEEKLY. oh man i need people's help for this. jane, joanne, ivan i'm gonna target y'all k! :D
8. try out as many new stuff in jc/poly as possible! clubs/societies/whatever
9. erm try to love my next cca LOL or at least not hate it as much as...yeah you know :D
10. spend less time reading storybooks! and facebook/shows/twitter etc
11. if can, SLEEP EARLIER & WAKE UP EALIER. and eat more fruits too :D hehe healthy lifestyle ftw

as you can see i tried to come up with 11 resolutions! hahaha how ambitious of me i know but i made them really simple alrdy so i hope i can do them hehe.

okay lah back to mah damon & stefan salvatore!

oh & i can't believe i'm not going back to school on the 3rd! :D teehee. but i miss zh alrdy ohman.

last-day-of-2010 post,

2010-12-31T17:39:00.006+08:00

ohey. yes im waiting for vdiaries to load again teehee. be grateful im updating you at all, blog!

well, its the last day of 2010 alrdy! :O time flies seriously.

this year has been a hectic & crazy year for everyone. hahaha obviously right, with o's & everything. for like the thousandth time, i still can't believe i'm over & done with it (even with results day coming up in about a week! *panics*). like a part of me still wonders if i'll wake up & find that i still haven't gotten through those 4 crazy weeks hahaha.

anyway, academics aside. this year has been a year for... broken friendships/relationships & goodbyes too i guess? lol inevitably since its graduating year right. -_- but still, i guess i lost a few people in my life even w/o the graduation thing haha. and yet, i'm glad i did forge some 'last-min' friendships ie. getting close to a few people only this year :O

and finally 2010's a year for nc16 movies! muhahaha kidding lah. but omg i'm 16 -.- ~~tsk can't believe it and i'm also the same age as you now heehee~~

which brings me to... 2010 being the 3rd year that i still feel this way LOL stupid maaaaaaaan

yeps that's it i guess, for my last-day-of-2010 post. 2 more years & i'll be (m)18, able to drive, done with A's (hopefully :xxx) & yalah you get my idea hahaha.

prob'ly going prawning with aunt & sist tnight to 'countdown' LOL! when i asked my aunt if she wanna countdown with her *ahem* friend instead she went "countdown what, to sleep ah?" LOL lah damn funny!

okay has been spending most of the last week of 2010 at home, other than the kbox on tues which i'll prob'ly blog about another time (with pictures maybe? so stay tuned ahah). BUT I'VE BEEN WATCHING VAMPIRE DIARIES DAMNIT! so ya i still have a life okay, albeit a 'lil pathetic :D

sorry but i just have to do this small picture spam :)
I AM SORRY STEFAN :( But i just love damon & elena tgt looooool! like seriously! halfway through season 2 and i'm like a full convert.

arghczcxzczxz just look at them sweeter than sugar ♥

alright 1 pict for team stefan 8D

luckily i'm not elena *cough cough* HOW TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THEM AH YOU TELL ME!

okay that's about it. oh & i bet jane landed in europe (london?) alrdy! & dad's in melbourne now (i think?) ; ziyi's in genting! I'M ENVIOUS. AND I MISS THEM ALL TOO. Come back soon lah all of you! heehee.

k enough said. wanted to rant about someone(s) & something(s) but ohwelllllll.... enough said :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE COS I DON'T THINK I'LL BE HOME IN TIME TO POST :)

Call it blind faith,

2010-12-27T21:54:00.004+08:00

Short (and boring!) update here cos I'm going mad waiting for v.diaries to load :@:@:@
spent boxing day mahjong-ing with Krystal yuvin ziyi & Joanne. Haha in case you were wondering we sorta took turns. Anyway i haven't played for 2 years alrdy so felt like a noob all over again but thanks krystal for teaching me and I won like thrice! Hehe but too bad never play money :/
tmrw gonna Kbox with Jane & Joanne. I feel like i'm trying to squeeze 2months worth of outings into 1 or 2 weeks LOL. And hopefully gna buy a new school bag whoo! <3
Oh and me & Joanne are like thinking about what dad is doing in Aussie now and feeling so darn jealous djsjhdsksjxnzargh
soon jane's gonna fly off too! gonna miss her like mad esp cos i won't be able to see her on results day! :<
anyway she's getting pekchek with me cos tmrw we have to meet at bugis & as usual i've no idea how to get there by train despite going alot of times alrdy. LOL!

okay that's it imma back to my show

i wish you could stay right there, in my memories.

all I want for christmas,

2010-12-24T21:15:00.003+08:00

keep singing/humming this song after hearing it on the radio so many times :D I love mariah carey's voice! Hahahaha anyway I kept telling dad "All I want for Christmas is YOUR NEIGHBOUR" to which he replied "yeah that old uncle" LOL. And when I tell joanne the same thing she'll reply "All I want for Christmas is leaves" so I'm gonna get her a nice leaf for her x'mas gift :)

well, after all these, for the 3rd year, all i want for x'mas is still YOU. HAHA SO CLICHE BUT WELL. :)

ANYWAY. X'mas is a pretty much normal day for me lol but I'm gonna have to spend tdy & tmr doing stuff which I should have done a long time ago *guilty look* but can't say what here yet :) And of course, watching my awesome vampire diaries!

As you can see I edited the previous post & is eating my words now because damon is so awesome! LOL i like his smile/smirk and aiyar he is almost as handsome as stefan. (lazy use their real names LOL) well imma halfway through season 1 and the eps are getting more & more awesome lah. scary but exciting.

shall stop here soon but since there's alot of stuff to do this weekend & next week ( and alot of outings :D) i doubt i'll have time to blog soon again so,

BONVOYAGE ZIYI, JANE & IVAN PEDODAD!

two of them are going to my two dream destinations: europe & australia! :((( *insane jealousy* they owe me souveneirs. LOTS.

okay imma stop here. idk why everyone says merry x'mas. i mean, why cannot say happy or jolly or what?! so imma say,

HAPPY JOLLY GAY EXUBERANT AWESOME CHRISTMAS! (;

little left to say,

2010-12-21T14:13:00.010+08:00

haven't been updating recently, i know!
heehee i shall blame it on my cold >8( which was no doubt caused by the stupid weather in our country tsk. rain alternating with heat y'know! and when it rains, the temp doesnt really drop at all.Not being a plant, i'm NOT interested in tropical weather :(

alright enough rants, pics from orchard road! camera wasnt that great so pic quality might suck much, hehe.
(photos not really in order)

self-explanatory yeah? the deco for tangs was quite... girly? hahaha, hearts & stuff.

OH and dad went & tagged the word TANGS as royo(mr +an9) in fb -,-

dad trying to point at a pic of a girl LOL
i know the pic quality failed, alot of people were walking past & dad was rushing me cos he felt 'paiseh' ._.

brother trying to dissuade dad from taking pic with the girl :O

fail jump shot :(
(poor quality again i know, anyone wants to sponsor a new cam for me? :D)

okay I must apologize cos the next few will be a pic spam of teddy bears 8D teddy bears you know! hahaha damn cute i just have to post them!

the quote says 'live, laugh, love' (; my fave quote somemore lol

taka is the besttttttttttt

went in and there was this huge display of teddybear-xmas trees. everyone was crowding around trying to take pics (we managed to take a group pic but not in my cam! :( ) so we snuck off and found a small neglected tree by the side. perfect for camwhoring! mwhaha.

brother

um family pic? lol

xinyee & ziyi why y'all touch the bears! :(

hahaha unglam lah i know! but i loveeeeee the bears so much had to take with them :D

makan'ed at taka's food court around 9. we got bored waiting for joanne to finish (as usual) so the guys did this

lol hi5 lovers

on the way to the mrt, we saw 2 elaborately-dressed people/statues. REALLY LOOK LIKE STATUES DAMNIT COS THEY WERE SUPER STILL. then they suddenly moved their hands and we were like "O:! THEY CAN MOVE!" LOL these people are awesome. how do they stand so still?! :O

more pics on fb cos i'm too lazy to post more here hehe and too ashamed of my unglam pics too. realised those tek hsuen took of me all quite unglam :l teehee kidding.

btw i've sort of given up watching gossipgirl cos #1. super hard to find season 2 episodes online idk why :((( those i found are very lag and all. tsk and #2. the episodes are abit repititive and getting abit boring lol

so... i'm watching:

ITS REALLY DAMN NICE AND AWESOME OMG. Love it after only 2 eps hahaha. Esp Paul Wesley(guy on left) & Nina Dobrev, they are both super handsome & pretty respectively lol! (at this point dad went "chey you watch shows only look at looks one..." or smth like that -.- NO LOR NOT ONLY LOOKS) ~~idk why everyone keeps saying Ian Somerhalder is hot (guy on right) O: he isnt really lah. Idk lol but Paul Wesley is more my type.~~ HOT! :D:D:D

[edit] IAN SOMERHALDER AND PAUL WESLEY ARE BOTH EQUALLY HOT :D and nina dobrev is so damn pretty too. period. [/edit]
okay x'mas is this week! time really flies. don't really want to go back to school :( lots of things undone but kinda lazy heehee.
well shall stop here. think this post quite boring except the 2 hot pictures at the end :D hahaha kk bye!

just watch me,

2010-12-14T17:51:00.004+08:00

-Picture spam-

Blair Waldorf/Leighton Meester

Serena van der Woodsen/Blake Lively

Jessica Szohr/ Vanessa Abrams

Connor Paolo/Eric van der Woodsen

They're all just so darn pretty/handsome! *envioustothemax*

And of course,

MY CHUCK BASS/ ED WESTWICK ♥♥♥

Don't they look so darn gorgeous tgt? heehee. I love blair-chuck :D

Last pict:

WHITE. *melts* HOTTESTTTTTTTT

-video spam-

Day 03 – A song that makes you happy

alot of songs make me happy heehee, but i guess this one makes me happiest(?)
Its so...... what-the-heck-lets-just-enjoy-life :D AND THE GUYS IN 3OH!3 ARE CUTE MWHAHA

Day 04 – A song that makes you sad

this, i guess. the lyrics are freaking sad yet true lol.

alright not in the mood for many words hahaha shall blog about sunday another day but it was awesomeeeeee ;) can't wait to go marina bay with them hehe

gotta be worth something,

2010-12-12T13:31:00.002+08:00

Day 02 – Your least favorite song

Marry Me/ 今天你要嫁给我- David Tao

should be this song. i think the bhg knows why ._.
don't ask :D

-letters spam-

Day 13- Someone you wish you could forgive.

(can't think of any haha. those that I was pissed with but I wanna stay as friends, I'd have forgiven them. those that I am still pissed with and don't wanna stay as friends I won't wish to forgive them 8D)

Day 14- Someone you’ve drifted away from.

(see my post for day9/day10 :D)

Day 15- The person you miss the most.

(see my post for day 9/day10 :D)

Day 16- Someone that’s not in your state/country.

errrrr, my so-called mom aka ivan's wife which I wrote to alrdy? :D Hi mom, did you know dad fell in love for your sister and refused to take you back? LOL! who asked you to run off with ___ (according to dad) oh well i tried to plead on your behalf but to no avail. sad :(

Day 17- Someone from your childhood.

(hahaha oh man idk. okay shall write to my pri school friend the retarded weiliang :D)

Dear weiliang,

hey you! :D thanks for being my bestfriend esp during p5 & 6 LOL. till now you're like the pri sch friend I keep most in touch with. you're a retard that's super mah fan and make me pekchek whenever you ask me to do stuff for you LOL. But yeah you've still been a good friend and korkor (4 days older only actually, so dont think you very big :D). k lah can't wait to meet up and talk to you properly soon hehe. got lots of things to catch up on eh. stop caring so much about earning money lah HAHA. k shall end here. meet up soon k <3

shall stop here cos imma meeting jo xy zy dad & tek soon heehee. will try to take pics to liven up this blog (;
& btw joanne=pedogay is getting famous on fb soon 8D LOL

kk bye

gonna keep this short,

2010-12-10T21:48:00.005+08:00

Day 01 – Your favorite song

I gotta say, any song from boyslikegirls is awesomeeeeeee (: but if you asked me to choose my fave, it'll be five minutes to midnight (Y) that song just makes me happy & makes me feel like singing along no matter what mood i'm in. heehee.

Day 12: The person you hate most/caused you alot of pain

Dear ex-bestfriend of mine,

I wouldnt say I hate you, cos that's too strong a word & y'know I'm not one to have violent tendencies :) but well. You have caused alot of pain, and im not sure if i can ever or want to forgive you for screwing with my personal life & basically ruining any opportunities i might have with __ to be friends, at least.
you've no idea how much trouble you caused when you decided to tell someone you weren't even very close to everything i told you, friend to friend.
not to mention your (petty) jealousy & how you treated J, who could probably be your only friend. lol.
ah well idk i guess you got what you deserved now cos we've all drifted apart from you but we (the 3 of us) are still going on pretty well.
so well, enjoy your solitary life yeah? (:

i must say, i regret telling you everything, and treating you as a very close friend.
i regret even letting you into my life.

30 day song challenge :)

2010-12-10T18:28:00.002+08:00

feeling extremely bored now cos my gossipgirl is loading sloooowly as usual & everyone's not online :( well anyway, randomly searched google for somemore challenges cos the letter one is getting abit.... um tedious. LOL & I found this!

The 30 Day Song Challenge

Day 01 – Your favorite song
Day 02 – Your least favorite song
Day 03 – A song that makes you happy
Day 04 – A song that makes you sad
Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 – A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 – A song that describes you
Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 – A song from your favorite album
Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 – A song from your childhood
Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year

sounds interesting so imma start tnight :)
yeahyeah I'll still be doing the letters. hehe

just a little too not over you :>

2010-12-09T21:35:00.007+08:00

hi world i had a pretty enjoyable 2 days teehee.

shopping trip at bugis yst with jane & pearlyn :D
bugis village>illuma>bugis junction
managed to buy 5 tops within my budget LOL
anyway, wnted to take photos but my camera ran outta batt. wtf.
well, nex'ed again tdy with dad & brother. pretty hilarious hahaha. keep 'fail' and 'prove it' -_-
ohyeah i'm sad cos the arcade doesnt have the dancing thing which i really love to watch (other ppl of course, teehee) :((((( WHY THEY DON'T HAVE??~ and we didnt see any neoprints too or we would have taken a family pict hehe.
before going home showed dad *cough* our class hahaha. kept seeing E2 yst & tdy. O: LOL

alright, gonna spam letters tdy so I can finish the thing in time! 8)

Day 5- Your dreams.

Dear dreams,

why do you always involve me being chased?! LOL seriously. I really wanna know why hahahaha. In some way or other, I always end up being chased by people/things -,- Oh and why do you sometimes feature random guys that I never meet before? Hahahaha! Am I supposed to spend my whole life looking for them? O: Oh oh oh and one last thing, why do I always know when I'm dreaming? Its quite nice to be able to have lucid dreams but I'm curious. AND WHY DID YOU STRIP ME OF MY POWER TO CONTROL MY DREAMS :<
kthxbye dreams.

Day 6- A stranger.

Dear stranger,

hi I don't know you at all so Idk why I'm writing a letter to you. LOL. Oh you want to be friends? Okay, we can be friends cos I'm so friendly :D hahaha but fyi if you're some weird person who came across me on facebook/friendser(although wth who still uses friendster?!)/whatever social networking site and have formed some weird opinion of me before even talking to me alrdy....... gtg bye! *runs away*
hahaha kidding. hi stranger. don't think you know me alrdy just because you saw my pic or i talked to you online. i dont think you do. (:

Day 7- Your EX-Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Love/Crush.

Dear EX,

I have nothing much to say to you actually ._. hah.
except, it was a mistake so far back in the past i can't even remember? :D yeah. so, bye & have a nice life (:

Day 8- Your favorite internet friend.

(can't think of any. seriously. lol cos all my 'favorite internet friend's become real life sms buddies or even real life friends so yeah, shall skip this :D)

Day 9- Someone you wish you could meet/Day 10- Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to.

Dear ___,

hi. well idk why but we really don't talk much now. hmm even after whatever you said tht day, in the end, things are still the same, but not the same as before. i kinda miss talking to you late at night on the phone, texting like all the time, random topics and how you can always make me laugh just as a friend. and how when im sad i can just tell you and you come up with theories that make me smile hahaha.
well. lol actually it was you who wanted to meet and then after that you didnt want to. fail :D but anyway, i guess we won't be meeting anytime soon cos you've obviously other stuff to do in your time like studying and stuff. i wouldnt know cos you dont tell me anymore :O well, thanks for the support during my o's, but guess i'm not sucha close friend to you anymore and i can't do anything so okay have a nice life (:
yeah i miss you still. but its okay :D

Day 11- A deceased person you wish you could talk to.

(Again, I seriously can't think of any :l Maybe my paternal grandparents, but I was still a baby then so I really don't know them at all. Well, I just wish I could've met them & have some memories but I guess since I don't really have any Idk how to write this letter :l so yeah, skipping. lol.)

k shall stop here since 11's a nice number. (: teehee. gonna watch mah gossipgirl gdnight!

//edit.

OH & BTW I EDITED MY POST ON LETTERS TO MY PARENTS AND SIBLING(S) LOL. after a msn convo with pedodad & chimless brother which made me think about writing to them too. so yeah, GO SEE YOU TWO (;

letters to mah family(ies) (;

2010-12-07T18:19:00.002+08:00

Waiting for gossipgirl to load now so I shall continue doing the letters! (; LOL.

K doing 2 in one day and they'll be quite short cos they're to my family members which y'all alrdy know I love alot & I dont really know how to describe it in words LOL so yeah.

Dear (real) mum & dad,

thanks for bringing me up these 16 years & counting LOL. I know it hasnt been easy cos I had my fair share of 'phases' and once I was very rebellious and all but though you all are quite strict parents you've still been reasonable and our bond is still strong :D Really appreciate this cos I know not many families in Sg are as tight-knit as us & like go out together weekly etc. Also, I can tell you guys anything & everything including my crushes (LOL), problems in school/with friends etc and we can have a h2h chat w/o you guys judging me or whatever so yeah thank you for that (: though I always wished I had more freedom I understand that you all are just concerned for me & don't impose curfews just to force me to study, but simply for my safety so yeah, thanks for always looking out for me & being great parents and for all the little things that I may seem to take for granted but really appreciate. You two are the two people in my life I love most :D

Dear pedodad (Ivan),
hahaha editing this letter for you and mom (your ex-wife) ok! lol cos if not no chance to write to you & brother. well i only got to know you well recently, like around end of this year hahaha, but we managed to forge this super crazy family tgt with bro & your one thousand & one wives hehe. thanks for all the jokes & crapping about sick stuff on msn and/or through sms, and our so-called family outings with bro. hmmm though you have alot of flaws such as being fat, fail, noob, psychotic & self-delusional(mwhaha) you've been a great dad to me & bro hehe. so yeah. shall keep this short. lastly, STOP. SAYING. PROVE. IT. :)

Dear gerontomom (as learnt from your ex-husband whom you don't even know you married),
actually why am I writing this to you? you don't even know the existence of this family. hahaha! you're just a poor girl who dad um fooled around with and conceived me. so yeah have a nice life. dad doesnt want you anymore he wants your 'sister'. sad :( kthxbye

Dear sister,

thanks for all the h2h talks we always have, inside jokes, inside nicknames, inside games whatever lol. although you can drive me crazy sometimes (most of the time actually LOL) when we're not arguing you've been my longest confidant hahahaha. study hard & don't be complacent! :B and I wish you'd forget about __ LOL but nevermind. oh ya and we might have different views on many things but I guess you've opened my eyes to other aspects of whatever we'll debate about at that given time and so yeah you've made me more openminded. Love you too :D

Dear brother (joanne),

hehe writing this to you under this title. well, nothing much to say cos I said everything I wnted to in the autograph book alrdy but yeah, though we only knew each other for 2 years, we've become great friends to each other :D we've alot in common & always got lots to crap about hahaha. okay well, 1 thing NOT in common only, and that's our taste in guys -,- or rather in your case, girls :p stop committing incest k. later our family the genes all mutated :O and stop laughing so scarily esp at night when we talk on the phone haha. ehhh lemme think, thanks for introducing me to new songs & viceversa, you belong with me, party in the usa, perfect, im yours & with you always have special meaning to me now LOL. thanks for making me laugh whenever we talk/gossip. yeah you're a nice bro though you have no chim :p (stop sharing 1 with mom & get your own) I hope I helped made you less innocent & more *erhem* mature after these 2 years :P ok that sounds super wrong. lastly, leaf is NOT worth you. trust me. you can find millions of leaves in the world being stepped on by people & then decomposing & ya, you get my idea :D but only a few VANS. and one besar. hehe kidding luv you bro.

gotta keep moving~

2010-12-06T20:51:00.002+08:00

Okay shall blog a short one while waiting for my gossipgirl to load.
the alternatetv one cannot watch wtfhjsdkasldjfsk so have to go another website and its loading really sloooooooowly arghsczx *bangs computer*
anyway went to jog at punggolpark yst with dad & brother (ivan & joanne lol)
quite funny cos we only ran like maybe 1 plus round :B
ok and mostly it was my fault cos I got erhem low stamina~ :( but still they were quite nice cos they paced themselves with me hahahaha. & me and dad played a trick on brother who failed LOL
after running went to the playgrd to have a swing competition haha! & chitchat there etc. tried to get dad to go nex/hg mall with us but he refused. -_- so only me & brother went hg mall for macs & gossipfest. (Y)
k lah life's so boring can't wait to go shopping with jane & pearlyn later this week & then movie marathon at jane's house AND I WANT TO WATCH RAPUNZEL LOL.

lol k lah end of short post bye 8)

/ps. I SUDDENLY MISS THE GROUP WHO STAYED UP THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT DURING 4E2'S CHALET :B

sorry i keep trying to make things better,

2010-12-04T19:01:00.003+08:00

hi just a short update for anyone (which is nobody, actually lol) reading.
what i've been doing:

MESSY BUT OH-SO-RIVETING. I watched 7 episodes in one day :l LOL and I like the dan-serena & blair-chuck pairings! :( wished they wouldnt change it zz.

and I really gotta say this: CHUCK BASS IS ADORABLE.

Hahahaha he's my new crush ♥ My heart broke when blair broke his. awwww :(

and while waiting for the shows to load,

HAHAHA YES. back to neopets xD
started when one fine day I told dad I'm bored and he went "go play neopets!" LOL. oh and I learnt about trading from him. Hahaha!

ok the alrdy-low probability of me finding a job has gone lower cos my mum said she'll give me some money for clothes-shopping :D teehee. so yeah, flea market and/or bugis with the girls soon then i'll update again!

meanwhile imma off to indulge in my 2 current indulgences now so GDBYE 8)

Y'know, what's in the past always seem better.

2010-11-26T22:11:00.004+08:00

Short update.
Went to amk hub with sist tdy to help my mum do something. lol i got to say its been a super long time since i went there. tsk.
K got alot to say but i'm not sure how to say them so.... yeah.
bad headache. :(

anyway I wnted to ask my dad (ivan) something just now.
me: eh I want to ask you smth. but Idk how to phrase it...
I: just ask lah. =.=
me: wait let me think of how to ask it...
*customer comes so I gotta serve them, takes a long time*
meanwhile,
I: ask lah.
I: just.ask.
I: =.=
I: 1 more min...

LOLOLOL HE THOUGHT I WAS STILL THINKING. hahahahaha noob :p
okay lah but the noob dad helped me out haha so thanks.

anyway, forgot to say,
BONVOYAGE TO PEARLYN & JOANNE. 1 go malaysia, 1 go taiwan LOL. rich kids maaaaaaaan *envious* joanne better get me ruanjintian's autograph. Or else I help dad murder your tortoises. :D

k short update done gdnight.

Day 2: Your Crush

2010-11-25T22:06:00.003+08:00

HI I'M MSN-ING, BLOGGING, TEXTING & READING MY (AWESOME) IN DEATH SERIES NOW :D hahahah multitasking ftw.

lets see, so caught a movie with ziyi & weijie in the morning at bishan. forced to settle for gv (expensive manz wtf :( ) 'cos cathay was like fully booked lol.

yes watched hp finally! LOL. At first before I watched di kept saying it was *quote* boring shit *unquote* but I didnt believe him cos I had faith in mah ron & hermione but after watching me & weijie concluded tht it was quite a waste of money D: Not much action, only lots of talking & scenery. Sad lol. But got scared by the snake TWICE. ZZZ. Anyway there was a bunch of kids running in & out of the cinema -.- & then, halfway into the movie, they climbed over the seats (they initially sat beside us) & sat at the seats behind, cos the cinema was pretty empty i think -.- wtf lah noisy much?

WELL ANYWAY, I REALLY HAVE TO SAY THIS.

SHE IS SO PRETTYYYYYYYY. EMMA WATSON (Y) loooool I'm damn envious.
Me: If I'm a guy I'll so marry emma watson D:
Weijie: -.-

HAHAHAHA WELL IMMA STRAIGHT LAAAAAAA LOL BUT SHE'S SERIOUSLY PRETTY AAAAAH. I like her in the red dress during the wedding lol.

after the show went to makan & then ziyi went home, while we met jane & headed to bras basah. Wnted to buy books but they all became so darn expensive! Roar. The bookpoint ones were like almost the same prices as those in popular, & THEY ARE FREAKING SECONDHAND FOR PETE'S SAKE ._. so disappointing. So decided to head over to the national library hahaha. In total I bought 3 books & borrowed 9, 8 of which being the in death series by nora roberts writing as JD Robb LOL. I HEART THAT SERIES SO MUCH. Thinking of collecting it hehe. But I need money, as always. Sigh.

Well since Imma too lazy to find a job I should stop complaining & feel blessed for the vast collection of books in sg library, yeah? :D

Anyway I'm happy now cos I got books to entertain me LOL.
Crapping with dad as usual lol.

Ok I shall do the letter. (:

Dear Crush,

hahahaha ok, actually I seriously dk if I can still call you a crush :/ things ~~are~~were so complicated & now I think I'm starting to get over you LOL but nevermind, lets just call you my crush for this letter's sake :l

Well, its been 2 years plus alrdy lol :/ And you even know how I feel alrdy, so I don't really know what to say anymore haha. (lolwtfyoujustsignedin) Well all I can say is, if I had a chance to turn back time, I'd definitely choose for you not to know at that time, before I was even sure of myself, before I wnted to tell you anything. I regret letting this get outta hand, and now I've missed the chance to at least ren shi ni as a friend. I also regret that after everything you'd done I kinda re more mah fan for you. So I wanna say, I'm really sorry, I came and complicated your simple life (LOL). I kinda understand everything better now, and I realised how immature I must've seemed to you then, hahaha, well I don't blame you. And yeah, I think I'll probably give you up finally, but I wish you knew, somewhere deep down I'll still wish for us to be really good friends cos you're seriously one of the nicestttttttt guys I know/knew, and the girl you end up with next time, is seriously a lucky girl. :D

Ok now you've graduated & Imma gonna follow suit soon, so I hope once I'm out of zh & far from all the memories I'll give you up properly :D hahaha but I guess you're a pretty special one still so imma sorry if it takes a while. Guess you won't even see this but, goodbye & imma still wish you all the best in everything you do (just like when you were in zh ._. LOL I seriously always wish you manzx). And I think I'll still wish you on your bday for manymanymany years to come hahahaha. This sounds so cliche but, i think i'll still care if you're sad/angry/stressed so, be & stay happy! (:

thanks again for introducing __ into my life though I initially hated it like mad haha. & thanks for being sucha nice & great guy. :D

OK i'm tired lol. Gdnight crush & gdnight world! 8D

not sure why we bother with second chances,

2010-11-24T21:27:00.004+08:00

Okay wanted to do the letter for day 2 initially but got caught up with other stuff and now I'm too tired, lol~ shall do it tmrw! (:

Another day spent at home, my life is so boring its awesome :O cleared up the random worksheets in my room so now my room is officially cleared for my new life (LOL) whoohoo! And then cleared up my itunes too, hehe. IMMA IN LOVE WITH THE KILLERS \m/ and Kings of Leon's Sex on Fire is quite cool too :O

Yeps, so spent the day like that! :D Msn-ing with ziyi, weijie & my dad (ivan) but weijie just left. My dad damn fail but he just dont want to admit HAHAHA. Mutual suan-ing & I'm laughing like mad now lol.

WELL IMMA FINALLY GOING OUT TMRW so shall blog more then, see you! :D

OH & I HAVEN'T WATCHED MY SHOW FOR 2 DAYS ALRDY :(

ADORABLEEEEEEEEE MUCH? :D MY RUAN JING TIAN/ETHAN RUAN!

and dad (not on purpose) reminded me about THE FAMILY GUY.
Sian lah, I wanna watch. :( But it eats up my ipod batt like no tmrw lol.

ok gdnight busy day ahead!

Day 1: Your bestfriend

2010-11-23T23:17:00.002+08:00

Ok I'm really angry with my laptop now cos it cannot recognize my dvd so I can't watch my show now :(

Well, decided to start on the letters thing then!

Presently, I'm not very sure if I've a 'best friend' cos I always end up telling my secrets and doing stuff with like alot alot of people LOL. But well, I realised throughout my secondary school life, there are a few people I can truly count as my friends, so I shall dedicate this post to them. (:

Dear bestfriends,

During these 4 years, which I think, made up some of the best memories in my 16 years of life, you all have been sticking with me through thick & thin and seriously I think that's no mean feat lol. I know I may not be the perfect friend, esp during my 'crazy' period in sec2 and sec3, I know I prob'ly bored you all out & definitely drove you all mad with my rantings and 'wugui talk' etc, hahaha, but yet, you all still stuck with me. you all complained & stuff but, when the push came to the shove, when I most needed someone to talk to or sometimes cry to, I know I need not hesitate to text any of you, and then come out of it smiling, if not laughing. And yet, you guys never lied to me, just to make me feel better. You guys kept me grounded (I know I was a dreamer~ hahaha!) and were my reality checks so to speak. So yeah, thank you guys. So far, in my entire phonebook, I can only memorize 4 nos, 3 of which being you guys' :D thanks 967*******, *****558*****, 9225**** :D Hahaha! I managed to memorize it cos I will msg these nos so much, I just type those few nos into the phone & they will auto give me your nos alrdy.

Oh well, I dont really know what else to say cos our friendship, my friendships with you guys, have been indescribable 8) thanks for everything, I mean it. Hahaha I may not be your bestfr cos Idk why but in sec sch we like dont really go ard proclaiming who's our bestfr and all lol! But yeah, though I may not be, you guys are.

Thanks Ziyi, Pearlyn, Jane. Love you guys lots! ♥

I think I've exhausted my store of miracles,

2010-11-23T18:48:00.009+08:00

Stayed at home tdy cos I had to work for my mum in the morning so I..... cleared my books! :D

BEFORE:

AFTER:

HEHE. MY CUPBOARD IS SO EMPTY NOW. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2 YEARS I THINK. :O

Alllllll the books, worksheets, files, everything, are packed into 3 boxes :D

Hahaha ok it looks like I dumped them outside my house or something, but I swear its just the lighting. They're still in my house, waiting to torture my sist. 8) No way am I just gonna throw my painstakingly-handwritten notes ok!

But anyway,
OH YAY FREEDOOOOOOOM.

Anyway, been seeing this a few times while bloghopping & I guess I'll do it when I have the time, like now :D

Letters to:
Day 1- Your bestfriend.
Day 2- Your crush.
Day 3- Your parents.
Day 4- Your sibling (or closest relative).
Day 5- Your dreams.
Day 6- A stranger.
Day 7- Your EX-Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Love/Crush.
Day 8- Your favorite internet friend.
Day 9- Someone you wish you could meet.
Day 10- Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to.
Day 11- A deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Day 12- The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.
Day 13- Someone you wish you could forgive.
Day 14- Someone you’ve drifted away from.
Day 15- The person you miss the most.
Day 16- Someone that’s not in your state/country.
Day 17- Someone from your childhood.
Day 18- The person that you wish you could be.
Day 19- Someone that pesters your mind— good or bad.
Day 20- The one that broke your heart the hardest.
Day 21- Someone you judged by their first impression.
Day 22- Someone you want to give a second chance to.
Day 23- The last person you kissed.
Day 24- The person that gave you your favorite memory.
Day 25- The person you know that is going through the worst times.
Day 26- The last person you made a pinky promise to.
Day 27- The friendliest person you knew for only one day.
Day 28- Someone that changed your life.
Day 29- The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to.
Day 30- Your reflection in the mirror.

Might be clumping some of them tgt if they're to the same person/thing :D
Ok lah, shall start tmrw. Or later tnight. lol.

oh & the pics aren't rotated, I know, sorry! :( Idk why my laptop's acting so weirdly tdy.

I'M BORED & I WANT TO GO OUT.

Y'know everytime I thought you'd given up on this, & then you text...
I feel like I'm setting myself up for another hit.

little girl, don't believe everything you hear. The world isn't that transparent. (:

2010-11-22T22:16:00.006+08:00

Hi world! :D

Went out with jane & pearlyn tdy, 2 idiots who don't like taking photos. :(

Bowling at serangoon gardens country club > 313 @ somerset > orchard cineleisure to buy movie tix > taka for lunch & jane wanted to go kino to buy books > ion for popcorn (I HEART THE POPCORN FROM THAT STORE. I THINK ITS CALLED CORNERY OR SOMETHING :O I used to hate popcorn cos many stores, esp those cinema snackbars, will cheat money cos some popcorn will be sweetened while some are not and those plain & soft ones are super disgusting but the popcorn from this store is GOOD. all are flavoured & crunchy. LOVE IT 8D) and happy lemon (another must-drink yay!) > orchard cineleisure to watch DUE DATE :D which was super gross but hilarious hehe. felt so shuang when the tix lady asked us for our ics " 'cos its an nc16 show y'know" 8D hey what can I say? I waited 16 years! Whoo! Although I watched quite a few nc16 mvies alrdy (other ppl like my parents paid lol), its the first time I was asked for my ic. HAHA. > 313 @ somerset to walk around > home.

We originally wnted to go to the airport but were too lazy to travel allllll the way from s'goon gardens hahaha. shall go again another day :D

okay imma too lazy to blog properly, shall just dump the few photos I took :D ps, too lazy to switch the order too hehe.

took this lion thing for joanne. but I think the bear is so much cuter :D

ADORABLEEEEEEEE \m/

Hahahaha unglam -.- pearlyn was the photographer :p and anyway, I was trying to roll the bowl, so I bent down :D

OUR........... BALLS :D 7 FTW

Our score for the 2nd game. not very clear but... as you can see I was the most noob hahaha. 20 points wtf. AND THEN THAT IDIOT PEARLYN, FIRST TIME PLAYING, GOT 2 STRIKES AND 1 SPARE ALRDY. IN A SINGLE GAME. WTF. SHE GOT 80+ POINTS FOR 1 GAME. D: TYCOOOOOOOOO

Jane, my shifu for bowling :D but after she taught me and I started to score she started gutter ball-ing HAHAHA :X

Pearlyn the pro :D She stood so tall cos she use throwing. nice.

Our score for the 1st game. Damn it just look at pearlyn(HAHA)'s score -.-

Ohkay but anyway, by the 3rd game, I was scoring above 30. WHOO! Thanks to my shifu jane :D

AND I KNOW MY PHOTOS ARE QUITE POOR QUALITY 'COS I HAVE A NOOOOOOB CAMERA D: lol. I want a new one. after I get a new phone. ANYONE CAN RECOMMEND ME A GOOD, RELATIVELY INEXPENSIVE CAMERA? :D OH AND EARPIECE?

speaking of which, PEARLYN HAS AN IPHONE NOOOOOOOW ZZZ I STILL DONT KNOW FOR WHAT -.- NOW SHE'S GOING AROUND TAKING PHOTOS WITH IT & STUFF. ZZZ.
life is unfair.

OKAY GDNIGHT IMMA WATCH MY 败犬女王 ALREADY :D i really love this show hahahaha, almost cried yst, when the senior came back to find wushuang. AWW MY POOR LUCAS D:

well, I tried my best to salvage our friendship.
you know what? I really do miss our easy friendship, being able to randomly talk about everything tgt, our late night chats, our phone calls, our motivating each other, our caring for each other.
I really miss having you as a brother and confidant.
Damn it, I know we'll meet new people all the time, but why must people always leave our lives in return?

I guess in the end, I'm gonna walk away from all these too.

2010-11-14T11:45:00.008+08:00

OKAY O'LEVELS ARE FINALLY OVER FOR EVERYONE OMG (Y)(Y)(Y)

SATURDAY;
met Joanne & Ivan to study at bishan library 8)
okay i cant really remember exact details but it was superrrrrr hilarious lol! ivan just went there to distract us lor tsk.
Some funny things that happened:

1) Joanne actually believed us when we said a branch of cambridge was woodbrige.

2) I: (to a guy he suspect was his pri sch friend) hey ___!
Guy: eh hi, guang liang right?
I: er no, it's Ivan........

3) I: you're a guy lah Joanne
J: NO I'm a girl!
I: prove it.

LOLOL. Me and Joanne concluded that we cld have studied much more if he wasn't there but still it was pretty hilarious 8)
had lunch at subway with joanne aft he arrived(we made him look after our stuff since he alrdy ate, teehee). SO SATISFIED. I HAD A CRAVING FOR SUBWAY FOR WEEKS LOL. And I missed the honey mustard sauce so much, I was like "mmmmm" when I ate it. SHUANG (L)

then dinner'ed in tpy with joanne. ivan went to eat with his family. after that he came to look for us again LOL cos we randomly decided to meet for 'supper' before that. ended up at mosburger talking & playing truth or dare on his android. damn dirtyyyyyyyyy. My parents met me at ard 9 after that and drove me home. (Y)

SUNDAY;
uh nothing much. studied at home -_-

MONDAY;
Msp was okay i guess. memorised 3 non-pictorial essays which all didnt come out! But luckily robbery came out for the picture again and I read through my previous essay the night before. WHOO! I was quite happy teehee. spent 45 min checking the dictionary. everyone finished within 45 min max I think, and it was a 1hr45min paper. paper 2 anyhow whack lol. then bio was okay too 8)

me and joanne went to meet jane at bishan after that. had sakae sushi again LOL. but i think the food/variety/service like getting worse... idk :l train'ed to bugis after that to shop and take neoprints. omg we were like noobs all over again LOL. didnt take for so long. we anyhow click and pose HAHAHA. damn funny lah in the end the pic no space cos we didnt know it'll take so many times. kept laughing while editing. super hilarious la lol.

then before tht, we saw that david archuleta was gna be at bugis at 7pm. me and joanne were lik 'WOAH REALLY AH' at first. so we said we'll go down and look see after our neoprints session. in the end we nearly forgot til it was like... 7.40? then we suddenly "EH YA WHAT ABOUT DAVID ARCHULETA" so we chiong to level 1 and YESOMGWTF HE WAS THEREEEEEE SIGNING AUTOGRAPHS. LOL. started to try and take photos but it was so difficult cos there were too many people and all his managers D: in the end i almost took a successful one of him with joanne's cam BUT BEFORE I COULD CLICK HE JUMPED OFF THE STAGE AND DISAPPEARED. ARGHSLGFHJLGFJ. I INSTINCTIVELY TOOK THE CAMERA AND RAN AFTER HIM ALONG WITH OTHER FANGIRLS LOLOLOL but he alrdy ran away. damn sad D: in conclusion stalking stars is tiring and rather futile lol.

went to bugis st after that, walked abit before going home, hahaha.

TUESDAY/WEDNESDAY;
msp listening compre! anyhow whack lol! didnt really catch much :l when the person said "now, you may flip open the booklet" I seriously didnt get it until i saw everyone ard me flip open. HAHAHA. fail lah zomg.

after that went macs to eat breakfast with the msp people. love them so much :D it was hilarious hehehe. talk and played truth or dare til aiying came then we watched her eat before going home. MSP OUTING SOON PLEASE :D

went home to pack & everything before going out to meet the sengkang people+sudar at joanne's house to go to the chalet tgt :D AND OMG IT STARTED TO RAIN JUST AS XINYEE CAME ZZZ. btw we waited for her til the movie we were watching, secret, alrdy ended. LOL. had to carry all our bags and stuff in the rain -.- and then the shuttle bus have to wait like 55min? so we had to walk to the chalet too. TSK. was soaked by the time we reached hahaha, and they were having the bbq alrdy. helped out awhile and ate. i think i ate quite alot :l whoops. but there was still lots and lots of leftovers! LOL.

then abt 9plus or 10, went upstairs and played truth or dare with jo xy zy anh ivan xavier zhongxun angelita. YES WE PLAYED IVAN'S ANDROID AGAIN HAHAHAHA. got alot of funny dares & the most epic was when ivan used my phone to call dexter (who was just downstairs) and asked if he wanted 'service' in a super female voice! best part was when dexter ran upstairs cos downstairs was too noisy and yet he didnt knw what was going on despite ivan being just 1 metre away from him HAHAHA. the roger damn epic (inside joke :D) so played till about 12 plus, then they wnted to watch movie.

We watched the exorcism of emily rose ://// it was freaking scaryyyyyy. Not a outright scare you kinda way but it just creeps you out y'know? Even hardcore people like weijie screamed at some parts hahaha. Y'all know I dont usually watch horror movies right lol, but this time decided to 'watch' (with my eyes half closed) cos I was feeling sleepy & I was determined not to sleep! IT WORKED VERY WELL LOL. Was so freaked out, halfway I gave up & went upstairs to find ziyi jo xy and baoyi.

After the movie ended, some people wnted to sleep so we were kinda chased out of the room hahaha. then those who didnt wnt to sleep had tht uh-what-to-do-now feel. Decided eventually to go to the pool area to chat & watch stars (ivan's idea, lol). Uhhh, initially there were me jo xy ziyi karen weijie huiqin baoyi valerie amandatoh ivan xavier yongxiang yongen andre, and we were lying beside the pool. then suddenly ivan went "IS THAT A COCKROACH" and everyone ran LOLOLOL. sat on the sofas in the shelter beside the pool area and chatted about alot of serious topics woah. like really cheem & everything, but damn cool :D & everytime someone steered the topic towards some... supernatural stuff me & joanne will be like "eh, wahlau, sshhh!" hahaha! funny. oh but huiqin & weijie gave up & went back lol.

talked till about.....5 am? then some guys from other chalet suddenly came & slept on the sofas. then we were kinda "er...." like y'know, dont really wnt to continue talking hahaha. so ivan suggested going to the beach then since the sun was gna rise soon. walked a long way there, on the way started to feel sleepy zomg. the guys blasted songs & we started singing loudly to stay awake, teehee. in the end, the stupid sunrise was blocked by the trees D:D:D:! we were quite sian, but ohwell, comforted ourselves by saying tht we actually survived the night! hahaha. took some photos before we walked back. oh & right, on the way we saw some tadpoles in the puddles along the roads :O and andre went 'Ooooh tadpoles, lets play!' *takes stick & poke* until someone suddenly went "EH WHAT IF THE MOTHER FROG JUMPS OUT?!" hahahaha. then we all wtf & run.

went back to chalet, bathed & slept. at 7am \m/ I had to sleep on the floor, but once I hit the sleeping bag i ttl fell asleep lol. till about 10 am, got woken up by people playing the guitar. 4 of us decided to go ehub with huien & karen for breakfast, & then meet up with the rest for bowling later.

FIRST TIME BOWLING LMAO, and my score was like shitxzxzxzxz. Raaaaaaahr. Felt so noooob hahaha. but its okay, had fun (: alot of pros among us zomg, like sheena, keith, ian, kenan, beryln etc. hehe.

then, dabao'ed lunch, went back to chalet & watched big stan while eating. funny lol! but kinda dirty hmmm. after it ended zy jo xy wnted to go cycling but I was too tired so I went to sleep hahaha. told them to wake me up to fly kites.

around 5plus? or 6? :D I like the big kiteeeeee! But no wind LOL. they had to run veryvery fast.

built some sandcastles, or rather, I watched them build cos I was too lazy to touch the sand :p hehehe.

left around 7plus with xy jo and zy. thaaaaaanks ziyi for taking 88 with me! (L) hahahaha I got off a stop later and had to walk all the way back. Along the way, I had to walk past punggol park which was damn dark. :/ so I started to randomly text people! hahahaha.

reached home & slept for 14 hours \m/

ALRIGHT IMMA FINALLY DONE WITH MY LENGTHY & MUCH OVERDUE POST HAHAHA. You can see the date I started typing this, and fyi its saturday 20/11/2010, 10:44 pm now :/ Hahahaha. Wnted to post this aftnoon, but in the end I went to catch a movie with my family

UNSTOPPABLE (Y)! It was awesomeeee. kinda like the taking of pelham 123 (same director mah, lol) but damn thrilling aaaaah. I like!

CHRIS PINE (WILL COLSON IN UNSTOPPABLE)
ISN'T HE ADORABLE? :D
Me & my sist are totally gaga over him now. 8)
Oh & I just realised he played the nicholas guy in the princess diaries. HAHA.
damn it he's hot :/

Kinda pekchek nowadays with some people. Haiz ohwell. I dont wanna spoil my holidays! :(

Ah, well. Ohkay, finally, Imma post this. time check: 11:00 pm.
Going to ziyi's house tmrw I think . hehehe. Shall post more next time! Gdnight world!

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed, so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road

2010-11-12T19:58:00.002+08:00

OK THIS IS NOT THE USUAL 'O'LEVELS ARE OVER!' POST THAT WOULD HAVE APPEARED ON MOST BLOGS TDY.

O'levels are almost over :D 4 more days!

Blogging tdy cos I dont think I'd be so slack again like tnight till aft bio on monday, & by then I'd have alot of exciting things planned. 8) whoohoooooo. sushi buffet+shopping with Joanne & Jane aft bio, and then the class chalet from 16th to 18th, msp gathering at ms maslinda's house, and maybe going to changi airport with pearlyn & jane (OHMAN, THE SLIDE \m/) (; and many many more this is only for the first 2 weeks hehe. I'm exciteeeeeeed and motivated to study for bio and msp just by typing all these out hehehe.

Okay lah, the papers for the past week have been okay, think I'm only gonna do badly for combined humanities hehe. Lost 7 marks from each paper \m/ further motivation to study for msp! hahaha. but luckily, venice came out. I only studied it & d&d HAHA.

having alot of fun nowadays alrdy, like going library & breakfasts with joanne jane & weijie :D oh & ytd a super lol thing happened when jane joanne & I were walking out from macs. Can you imagine you're texting someone & then he walks past you & you dont really know its him but he recognizes you but not say anything and after you all walk past each other he texts you "eh I just walk past you" LOLOL. I laughed like crazy and now I think I recognize you alrdy di! 8D hehe ps okay.

and tdy's msp lesson was hilarious too, although aiying & yuiwei didnt go :( but we managed to persuade friday to take photos with us at his motorcycle. LOL! yingkang is evillllll manz, he bully him and ask him to straddle his motorbike and take photo. HILARIOUS HAHA.

Talking to two very funneh people online now :D meeting them for study date tmrw yay. I hope I can really study so tht I wouldnt have to stay up on sunday night again -_- have been sleeping for 5 hours only nowadays. fml. but then again, I come home & sleep for like 2-3 hours straight. hehe. ah such is life.

okay, early night tnight so I can get work done tmrw hopefully :/ bet joanne will distract me though! tsk. hahaha. probably will see you all after the 18th, HAHA. shall change my blogskin/try tumblr when I get back & get bored, I'm tired of this blogskin hehe.

I HOPE IVAN BOK BRINGS HIS NEW CAMERA TO THE CHALET AND TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES AHAHA. Have money to buy new camera, still say he poor. me and joanne live in slums alrdy D:
and then ALRIGHT i'll try to fill this space with photos aft o's, i promise (;

AND ON ANOTHER NOTE, YOU GOTTA LISTEN TO FIREWORK BY KATY PERRYYYYYY IT IS SO AWESOME. much nicer than joanne and her falling stars or whatever. tsk.

okay lah gdnight world! 8) hope this long post lasts for the week!
ps, i typed this post at like 8pm but only posting now cos my stupid computer keeps lagging -_-"

kinda confused about what's going on with you now :O
y'know I really care about you as a friend and maybe even brother right.
i just wish you wouldnt suddenly change & not tell me the reason.
and whatever you said tht night, and your actions now, really scare me, like i'm the one indirectly giving you all this stress ._.
rly hope our friendship would go back to normal,
cos I'm afraid, we wouldnt have this much time to talk to each other like now, once 2011 starts.

okay but you prob'ly wont even read this & i'm wasting my time -_-
and its okay, i'll still wait for the text (:

This up and down feeling,

2010-11-03T18:42:00.002+08:00

Okay, I know I said I was going on hiatus till aft o's, but finally heavy papers are over! :D yay
me and weijie (and alot of other people?) acting like o's are over alrdy. Hahahaha.
Well papers so far have been quite alright, with the exception of chem I think I did up to my expectations for the rest. Expectedly bad hahaha!
Chem was disappointing 8(
but it's okay, hope can get my a1s for maths and bio! Bio was awesomexzxz. Loved the paper except for the stupid starch qns. I got tricked. Roar. Ohwellz.
imma waiting for jane to finish her dnt paper so we can go celerate(and of course, study ss too)
so, ALL THE BEST GIRL JY 8)
and ofcourse, all the best to the rest taking exams tmrw too!
Hahahaha ok, sleeping marathon now x.x

Aft o's gonna settle this feeling once & for all 8|
meanwhile I wish I could just put it away for now.

Sense of rationality

2010-10-20T19:58:00.001+08:00

Posting tdy cos it's 20 10 2010 8)
okay I broke my promise.
Aft o's, aft o's.
Bye world.

the process that matters. (:

2010-10-15T21:24:00.002+08:00

4 YEARS IN ZHONGHUA OFFICIALLY ENDED :O

Time really flies. Cliche, but true manz.

I still remember how I used to be the one playing for MY seniors for their graduation.
And tdy its their turn hahahaha (although there was no live band tdy -_- but well! thats digressing :D)
I was still telling joanne tht its my turn to purposely walk slowly so that they would have to repeat their march until... yeah 8)

and thats just one aspect!

In this 4 short years I got to know so many people, some of them I KNOW I'll remain friends with forever.
I got to know so many cliques, and although cliques were so called for a reason, I tried my best to mix them (yes I'm a selfish girl) to get the best of both worlds. I tried to get all my friends to be friends, so that we could hang out as a big group. And looking back, maybe it worked to some extent. Cos I never fail, to have an awesome group of people to msg/tease/attend lessons or activities tgt/eat/go out tgt now.

In this 4 short years, I had numerous regrets too. I have had done so many things I regret that, I cant count them on 2 hands anymore! D: But yet, each was a lesson learnt. seriously. And yet, each strengthened my friendship with aforementioned people.

In this 4 short years, I realised that students can also make good friends with teachers. I guess sometimes we may be even overstepping the boundaries LOL cos we just joke with them and tease them just like with our friends. still, they're awesome teachers (well MOST of them! :D) and yeah, I may fall asleep alot in lessons but I still appreciate them. mwhahaha. AND ESP THANKS MR EUGENE LEE WHOSE VIDEO ACTUALLY MADE ME TEAR RATHER THAN LAUGH LOL. And mrs ngiam, mr lionel ang, mrs ng kiat bee etc too. :D yay

I also guess I got to mention one big aspect of this 4 years that's also mixed up with my -ahem- regrets lol. YES MY CCA. Hahaha band is awesome for being:

undoubtedly the one thing that can make me most frustrated.
undeniably the one thing that can squeeze tears of anger from my eyes. seriously.
indeed the one thing that has caused me more headaches than heartache.
and yet, indisputably the one thing that has gave me some of the best moments in zhss.

lol Idk what to say about it seriously.

OK BUT SINCE IT BROUGHT ME AWESOME FRIENDS AND SOME AWESOME MEMORIES, I GOT TO SAY, thank you.

And yes, thanks to band, which brought me to the clarinet section, which, while being a huge source of aforementioned headache, is much love in the end. Seniors, ~~peers~~ SHEENA :D and juniors (L)
(I really still cant believe I ended up as SL of the section but yeah, I really love my juniors for helping me while I struggled in trying to do this difficult and forced job HAHAH)

Continue about band if/when I go to the band dinner aft os! :D

Okay there's really reaaaalllllly too many things to say about my memories in zhss so I shall stop here. LOL

But I just want to write something here that I realised, about how much I've changed since coming to zhss. :O I was really surprised when I started reading my archives recently. Cos every year, seemed to be a different person writing this blog LOL.

Sec 1, I was super hyper about everything and enthusiastic etc. AND I made some really huge regrets, cos I was too eager to jump into sec sch -,- but still, i didnt learn. that was sec 1 hahaha.
Sec 2, I was just super crazy about audition, and I played ALOT. LOL. Like everyday aft sch I'll just go play and play with Bhg/ pearlyn/ jane/ etc. LOL goshhhhhh no wonder my grades dropped. but yeah, I was still quite naive I guess. :l And yet, my every post sounded damn emo -,- wtf. I feel like killing my sec 2 self now lol. SO STUPID :O like just keep feeling depressed about everything. oh goshhh.
Sec 3, started to feel a bit more stressed, and blamed everything but myself for it. I hated my class (the class not the people!:O) hated my teachers hated my subjects hated everything laaaaa. Wow, so bitter in sec3 lol.
Sec 4, I guess, I finally kan kai, finally not emo (which was quite stupid and childish HAHA), finally know myself much more, finally accept the expectations of me, finally mug, finally grew up. (;

And yes, that sums up my 4 years in zhss :O

And yes, tdy's 15 oct '10. about one year ago I did something which I feel was quite stupid and dumb now, and I realised, how much pain I might've caused to the other party. I don't blame you anymore, and I guess I can't blame myself either HAHA. BUT still, I really have to tell you that, its been 2 years or so? and nope, it has never changed. which is quite useless cos I know YOU'VE changed and've prob'ly given up every tie to this sch (including me) but what can I say? I havent. :O Again, thanks for being the first and maybe only to convert me from a die-hard hater to be actually fond of something. Thanks for being the most amazingly patient person I know, and if not friendliest, the nicest. seriously. i know you may not actually wnt to remain friends but to still agree, thanks. you've been a big part of my life in zh, cannot doubt tht ok! but well. i cannot force anything. :O still, thank you.

Lastly, to these awesome people:

Ziyi, for 4 years of bestfriend-ship :D
Jane, for 4 years of much-needed slaps to reality
Pearlyn, for 4 years of listening and listening to my crap
Xinyee, for 4 years of being my dear and msp mates
Joanne, for being sucha good friend despite knowing me for just 2 years
Yuvin, for 4 years of going crazy with me
Krystal, for 4 years of going CRAZIER with me
Sharon, Kaiying, Jacquelyn, Rebecca, and the rest of the girls in 2e2 for sticking tgt for 4 years :O
Yu ting for keeping me awake during chinese by chatting 8)
Cindy for the memories we had (:
Ziyi, Xinyee, Huiqin, Yui Wei, Ai ying, jeremy, yingkang, darius for 4 years of awesome wonderful fabulous funny msp lessons. the 9 of us + breaktime always = epic :D
the entire of 2e2'08 for awesome memories and the friends I made in that 2 years
the entire of 4e2'10 for awesome times and the smartest and yet friendliest people I know HAHAHA
special mention to ivan bok who's making me laugh damn hard now while talking to you and joanne LOLOL LAH
Vikki loh who's annoyingly endearing, THANKS FOR 1 YEAR OF TABLE PARTNERS TSKTSK. I've gained so much knowledge of sarcasm thanks to you! thanks for keeping me awake too mwhaha.
WU WEIJIE thanks for complaining about anything and everything with me and making sick jokes and bear vs onion (da chong) :D AND OF COS for being ex-neighbours!
jinx stupid tarded although we yeah drifted apart u still talked to me when i was gng thru some bad times last year so yeaaaaah.
awesome friends I made in band esp shannen :D thanks for making it bearable
and last but not least, the clarinet section esp sheena for being the only other person in the section in my batch LOL, ziyi kaymond yongkhuang nancy maykyu kelly although you guys have alrdy graduated like 10 years ago, and my wonderful juniors ranice grace yujun sara marlene jiawei for doing so many awesome things for me :D AND sec1s and 2s too! lol.

THANK YOU(L)

I hope I didnt leave out anyone! :l as long as i talked to you in some way or other in zhss ILY :D

OHKAY off to cont talking to 2 super lol people who are making me laugh till i'm falling off my chair hahaha.

NOT MUGGING TNIGHT. \m/

ohmy. I'm no longer a zhonghua student x.x

I'M A GRADUAND 8)

(pics another time aft i kope from fb. )

when someone said count your blessings now, for they're long gone, I guess I just didn't know how.

2010-10-13T20:39:00.003+08:00

Okay since I'm online anyway cos I had to send mrs ng my english essays I shall post a super short one 8)

anyway I feel damn stupid cos AFTER LIKE 2 DAYS OF BEING ABSENT I FINALLY FORGOT TO BRING MY ENGLISH ESSAY ON THE DAY I WENT BACK. nice one lah D:

Okay I think going to school is really a waste of MY time now. Zzz. Either I'm sleeping or doing other stuff during class. haiz.
WO YOU BU YAO HUI QU XUE XIAO LE LAH.
seriously, i can study much more at home.

on a lighter note, today was quite hilarious with #1 everyone coming back and then the teachers who inititially didnt expect the "sicknesses" got pekchek to see us back while those who expected it got pekchek to see us back as well!
hahaha okay I doubt you understand what I'm trying to say... just that those teachers who expected absentees were like, "why the class so full today?!" and those who didnt were like, "why pon so many days alrdy today then come back?!"
and #2 joanne's autograph book caused alot of commotion hahaha! gosh andre is super bad looooooool on the mrt! hahaha shall not elaborate lah, later someone kill me :O

lastly, I just GOT to say this: I still dont see how it affects you all, except that sometimes, people are weirdly angry at others for doing things they want to do, but dont dare to.

sorry, i just see it as courage and confidence.
to walk back with your head held high takes both.

some people can laugh it off.
but sorry I just can't, guess you have to fault my pride.

Thanks for making me ~~pissed~~disappointed.
People I've known for 2 years, their words dont really hurt me.
People I've known for 2 years, their understanding of me can amaze me.
Yet, people I've known for 4 years,
THEY amaze me. Hah.

somehow, these week is supposed to bring us closer
but I dont know why, its making everything fall apart.
guess we just have different priorities.

well enough said, off to study mah bio 8)

and yeah, try to make up my mind about tmrw!

34 MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM

p/s THANKS ALOT JOANNE (; you dont know how much that means to me hehe

Baby you're the one thing on my mind that could change anytime.

2010-10-10T18:14:00.002+08:00

Blogging tdy cos it's 101010 8D
and I don't wanna wait for 10:10 tnight hahaha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHENG QUAN MAH CUTE DI

recently started reading through my archives and realised some stuff about myself I didn't know before hahaha.
More on grad day!
Which will be the last time I post till aft o's.

GOSH SCARYYYYY.

And lastly,
DOUBLE VISION BY 3OH!3 <3

here we go again,

2010-09-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

HECTIC 2 WEEKS DRAWING TO A CLOSE FINALLY :D

papers have been mostly quite shitty except emath and maybe chemistry :D the rest were like woaaaaaaaaaaaah. Got study like never study like that. oh wellz. ITS JUST PRELIM 2. LUCKILY. shall not allow the sch to demoralize me hahaha.

anyway, msp paper yst was both a happy & sad experience lol. sad cos obviously when everyone's out enjoying themselves at 9 am we have to study from like 9 to 2 and then take 3 papers from 2 to 6. OH and we went to the stupid musicroom 3 with the stupid aircon that can go up to a stupid 16 degrees celsius. FREEZE I TELL YOU. Its like condensing all my braincells, until everyone has no mood to cont writing compo anymore... but happy cos we kept talking random stuff and yk's epic lame joke while studying tgt lol! yes, i really love the msp class. we are awesome people :D 16 NOV DATE AT MS MASLINDA'S HOUSE :D

tdy was careers seminar & midautumn celebrations. Morning was like woaaaah 5 talks in a row. And only the vjc one was interesting. Now I'm tempted by both vjc and tjc. D: BUT VJC IS LIKE FOR SMART PEOPLE WHO CAN MUG IN 1 YEAR. So... Idk. D: Thn went to sp's maritime academy hahaha. the simulation is so cooooooool (: we kept trying to crash the ship hahaha! but only went to 1 faculty D: whereas me pearlyn & xinyee wnted to check out the chemical life sciences aaaaaah. spent the rest of the time in macs where we were treated to milo & apple pies LOLOL.

then aft tht went back for midautumn. watched abit of the concert (the co where joanne got so excited at winter sonata ._.) then went for dinner. at first we were afraid tht we wouldnt have lanterns. so mrs n91am advised us to pretend to be sec3s and then we ambushed their box of lanterns like doing something illegal LOL. but in the end it was sucha big box, take a few also wont be missed -.- then walked ard looking for teachers to take pics with & crap with hahaha. zomg the teachers are so epic LOL.

Mr C1-10n9: go home go home. what you all doing here?
Ms 0n9: ya go home and study!
us: WE JUST FINISHED STUDYING FOR PRELIMS!
Mr c1-10n9: go home and sleep. you all overage alrdy, past your bedtime and curfew alrdy

and then, mr red and his "i'm only 18" self-denial speech. tsktsk.

okay I'm so tired now my eyes are half-closed BUT MY HAIR HASNT DRIED. -.- Idk why I feel so exhausted aft msp, like I can sleep for 7 hours which is ALOT to me alrdy, and yet my eyes are so dry and sleepy and my head is like sloooow. Its like the 2 weeks of stress has been pent up and suddenly hit me only aft the very last paper. lol.

hope my family's gng out tmrw, but there's no good movies now, so ahwell. GOING LIBRARY ON SUN WITH JANE I HOPE. I really need some good books now.

SORRY UGLY POST W/O PICS. none with me I swear! go fb kope :D

did a super retarded/lame/stupid/idiotic/senseless/brainless/hopeless/plain old fashioned dumb thing. again.
sometimes Idk if I hate myself more or you D:
AM I BREAKING ANY RULES HERE?

Not for the moment.

2010-09-12T20:09:00.002+08:00

Ugh I really need a break.
But how when prelim 2 starts tmrw!
Tsk okay 5 min Internet slack time over.
Gotta get back to bio (yes I know tmr's geog and emaths)
hope this post entertains y'all for next 2 weeks! :D

Its really time to listen to my head for once.

2010-09-08T22:17:00.003+08:00

study dated with jane & joanne on monday at jane's house
and then tdy with jane & pearlyn at bishan library & aft tht at the ulu-est macs I've ever gone to which i'm not gonna mention much abt here cos I want to keep it tht way. TEEHEE. but relax people it was a long long walk there so you aren't missing out on much. really. except the relative peace :p

woke up super early SUPPOSEDLY to eat yakun but spent most of the morning queueing for the boxes in the library (PEARLYN'S IDEA, HER AND HER STUPID BOXES)
lol at 950 am a huge crowd was outside the library like they were going to some concert. then when it opened at 10 everyone really ran. like woah crazy okay lol. but got to eat yakun with jane anyway (quite late though -_-)
today was stupid cos I kept seeing people that looked like ... lol. at macs I was really cua tio'ed and then pearlyn slapped me like a thousand times (taking advantage tsk) while jane tried to unsuccessfully push my head into my book. crazy people :O

BUT ITS OKAY I LOVE YOU TWO TO THE MAX HEHE STUDY DATE AGAIN SOON IT WAS FUN.
seriously.
and I managed to study 2 chapters of bio! (k nothing much considering tht I have like 22 chapters but so what a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step etcetc)
and thanks pearlyn lol though you can be quite idiotic sometimes tsktsk. but i am too! :D

okay, i only took 5 mins for this post. SO THERE.

(I FOUND THE SONG THAT'S STUCK IN MY HEAD YAY. k so I can go study my bio now. really.)

You balanced the clouds out nicely for me.

2010-09-04T22:29:00.005+08:00

Today was quite a fail day for studying cos I feel so distracted 8(
had a really weird in a good way kind of dream last night/this morning lol. Then I woke up and felt sad. Zzzzzzz.
Well had a really good h2h chat with pearlyn via sms tdy :D lol talked about deep and lame stuff. I feel much better, I guess? Hahahaha

OH and while talking about shoes we started discussing these:

they're so pretty! I want! :( *hints*

And I WANT THE NEW IPOD TOUCH 4 TOO!
I regret buying my ver. 3 so early aaaaaah.
THE CAMERA

ah well.
Shall continue dreaming... In my geog textbook. (:

ohyar and I finished rereading eclipse and went back to new moon LOL
yeah I know people are gonna say it's overrated and all.
But I like Jacob black manz :)

Maybe it'll have to be a long-distance friendship.

2010-09-03T22:31:00.005+08:00

okay's been a loooooong time 8(

- didnt watch movie last week after all cos my sist wasnt feeling well, so went for dinner instead and my mum bought me a new water bottle :)

ISN'T IT PRETTAYE? 8)

- teachers' day celebrations was okaaaaaay :) the hiphop was awesome hahaha. joanne's favourite ah! and then looking for the teachers was fun too yay! BUT someone cheated feelings again. :( I am so frustrated aaaaaaaaah.

well, anyway, we gave them cookies :D

- study dates w/ joanne & jane on tues and w/ joanne on wed \m/ but got a bad experience w/ bishan library zzz. well at least I got to have pepperlunch on tues & pizzahut on wed (: BUT I AM BROKE NOW URGH

- advanced exams for prelim2 have come and gone; was okay except for english paper 2. Did halfway until my brain juices were completely exhausted and I felt so tired, really almost fell asleep D:
AS FOR SS I AM HAPPY THAT D&D CAME OUT. YAY :D
AND VIKKI THAT WEIRDO SANG DURING AMATHS TDY (WHILE CHECKING?):O FREAKED ME OUT OKAY. I THOUGHT I WAS HEARING VOICES IN MY HEAD AND THAT THE STRESS WAS FINALLY GETTING TO ME. PFFT.

- movie screening of aftershock as school trip tdy at marina gv! it was okay the expected emotional stuff. I LIKE THE -AHEM- TRUCK PART LOL. and when the dad went "very hot ah" to the girl's boyf to which he replied "er yeah, very hot" in her room. HAHA EPIC. okay lah but it was touching. after tht had dinner with jane. wasted some time deciding on what to eat and finally settled on ajisen ramen. then that idiot persuaded me to take bus home w/ her, claiming that it was only max 20 mins long. MY FOOT AH. IT TOOK LIKE HALF AN HOUR. Zzz.

Am super tired now as a result of waking up to study last night D: well at least it paid off! hehe. but got tuition at the unearthly hour of 10am tmrw so i think i should sleep soon hehe.

GONNA EAT MY ICECREAM FIRST 8D
told my mum it relieves stress. hehe.

prob'ly going on haitus soon cos I really have to go and be a nerd/hardcore mugger like yesterday. OLEVELS IN WHAT, LESS THAN 2 MONTHS TIME? :O and I'm still rereading and rereading eclipse. hahaha. I love jacob's quotes so much.

Well I feel that I should really let go. like maybe right now? hehe.
you're changing too much and too fast but i'm scared that its too late for me to change my mind.
sigh.

k gdnight world.

You'd think i'd be used to telling you goodbye by now.

2010-08-25T21:00:00.004+08:00

What I'm looking forward to:

-weekennnnnnnnds! <3
-movie on sat with family, maybe step up 3 or old dogs(?)
-msp break tmrw cos we always seem to come up with awesome and lame things to discuss/do.
LIKE COIN-SPINNING TOURNAMENT 8D

what i'm not looking forward to:

-prelims like next week :( HOWWWW. haven't started on anything. Got that aiyar-it's-just-prelims mindset still. Damn it.
-msp tmrw=reach home very very late=very very tired
-ALL THE PRELIM PAPERS ACCUMULATING
-seeing all the stressed faces and stressed atmosphere in sch everyday making me super worried too ugh

k my geog and physics are staring at me still.
Zzzzz GO AWAAAAY.

Deleted my post cos I felt it was quite stupid hahaha.
Need to stay back in sch one of these days alrdy lah. So many distractions at home.

You never tried letting go. You could, if you tried.

2010-08-20T22:17:00.002+08:00

Hari ini ialah hari jadi Sharon dan saya 8D
hehe, finally.

Well, it was quite a great ending to what was a hectic, if not boring week. English oral on tues which went okay cos I had a normalish topic (caring for the community) and then Chinese o's results out on wed? Congrats to those who got a1s and jy to those gna retake! (;
and to that singer sitting next to me and W bestfr, cheer up you two! Don't feel so disheartened by the results. All the best v! 8D see lah I'm so nice lol.

Today was quite normal I guess. Just got lucky in tht I could skip pe for ss, and ah hong didn't come so no Chinese hehehe.
Aft school ziyi xinyee and Jo tried to use the same trick on me as we
did for Jo -_- lol I was like okay... But anyway, thanks to everyone who shared for my presents! 8D myuk is really awesome hehe. And thanks for wishing me everyone <3 thanks also to my awesome family who gave me angbaos and a super awesome blackforest cake from my mum <3
shall post the pics tmrw and blog proper thanks then (;
anyway ziyi tried to do something extremely lame tdy... -_- which I wasn't really very amused. Tsk

sleepy now so gna sleep soon I guess (; I'm glad my bday's on a Friday hehe!

Still got some disappointments tdy, no matter how hard I tried to surpress them... But well shall not spoil my bday post with ugly rants (;
I think my mask is becoming super strong lol. Somehow I can lie until I almost believe it myself. But then, ohwell.
I think I'm gna watch salt tmrw with my family! Hoho.

K lah gdnight world.
Hope I can finally do the right thing now tht I'm 16 lol.
(:

The clouds I can handle. But I can’t fight with an eclipse.

2010-08-15T19:56:00.006+08:00

Quick update before hectic school week starts again. I know I've been neglecting my blog for some time, heh :/

Msp oral on thursday:

It was horrible to the max tsk. Most of us didnt understand the keywords in the qns/whole qns (ie. me D: ) except for huiqin. Even then the qns (An experience you would never forget) was weird please! Roar. They forgot we are malay SPECIALPROGRAMME ah. tsk.
Waiting time was quite fun cos we were like the biggest group in the room heh, even w/o jeremy yuiwei darius and yingkang. gossiped and teased the 2 malaysians until Puan friday (aiying) got pekchek with us. Hahaha.
But ohwell although the oral itself sucked, the whole experience in the tiongbahru languate centre was quite cool lah. Like even when we did silent reading we had to do it in a room, alone except for the timekeeper. LOL! After the oral went tiongbahru plaza for late lunch with ziyi xinyee yuiwei jeremy and yingkang. Treated 2 ahpeks to drinks cos they insisted since they waited for me (I was last D: ) Fine lor lol. Laughed until peng. Fuuuuuun lol (:

friday was tiring. Had to go for physics intervention programme cos the msp people couldnt go on thursday. But luckily 2 babes (xinyee and ziyi) accompanied me :D Xinyee was quite crazy hahaha.

And then yst went to catch movie with my family again :>

Quite okay lah, hahaha. But its part of a series I think -.- Sian.
Aft tht bought supper from whampoa market. the satay was awesomeeee 8D

And as a result of my slacking the entire saturday and most of friday night I had to chiong my homework tdy -.- In between rereading the twilight saga, haha. I still like eclipse best. Its got the best quotes (:
Haiz,and starting to really hate physics. Thankfully I still have 2 other sciences. Otherwise I'll really be screwed.
K off to study for english oral now. LAST ORAL ALRDY 8D

Before I end, overdue pics from joanne's bday (since I'm transferring pics from my phone):

hehe we tortured her bear and domo :D

cake from icing room, yes again.

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA CHEN YI XUAN 8D
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO WEILIANG TOO (TOMORROW)
then krystal and rebecca on tuesday and then friday yay.
nc16 here we come!

gonna be YOUR age soon.
I'll prove to you I'm not just your xue mei. :)

-crosses fingers that english wont be as disastrous as malay-

So many strings attached.

2010-08-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

I suddenly understood why you did what you did and said what you said.
Life is super hectic and crazy now and so many things are piling up.
I may be able to cope, just barely.
But I can't expect you to do the same.

Just wish you'd know that I can wait <3
as long as there is something worth waiting for

DAMN IT 19 MORE TOPICS TO GO FOR MSP

oh right, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SG!
you're oldddddddd 8D

and, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIN YUAN 8D

not by a long shot.

2010-08-06T23:34:00.006+08:00

taking a break from maths now 8D

ndp celebration in school today was quite good hahaha. first time i could watch it as an audience in like so many years alrdy lol. but i still feel cheated that they only played one song... -_- okay, nevermind. the drama skit during the concert was kinda long, :l was trying to entertain myself by poking ziyi and figuring out what mango watermelon peanut and banana stood for. LOL.

after tht rushed for chemistry test. and then jane said she dont have dnt alrdy so we went compass for lunch 8D pizza hut changed its student meal menu again (i think)! hehe. but i still miss the old baked rice and pasta :(

well, i guess i've cooled down so yeah. :)

still, i kinda wonder if all of us have gone through big changes when we left 2e2'08. somehow, somehow, we seem to be all so different now.
now idk who i should believe :O
fortunately i still have people who have stood by me throughout and i really mean through this 4 years :D

anyway, someone cheated me tdy! D8 but at least you replied! made me kai xin! hehe. although you didnt know it.

k ndp weekend is here <3 but i'm gonna use it to mug hard okay! lol.
lots of prelim papers waiting for me :(
but nevermind, gna give myself a break tmrw IF my parents are watching the last airbenders! :D otherwise... i dont want to watch old cow eat young grass -.-

nuff said, i shall go and sleep alrdy (:

gonna wait regardless of what it takes <3

Blurring lines.

2010-08-05T21:33:00.002+08:00

Took my chemistry textbook out but can't absorb anything.
I'm tireddddd, and pissed >|

Seriously. After these 2 years haven't you learnt anything about me?
I know it's not your fault right, it's all my fault. Yes I hate, absolutely hate, being alone. And that's my fault too right
but what gives you the right to expect the same of yourself from me. So what if you do that? It's your own damn choice and nobody forced you. But nobody's gonna force me.
Don't expect things from me, which aren't even important, and then think you're right to expect them.
Cos you don't know anything do you.
I admit I'm disappointed and sometimes even angry cos I'm always not in the same class and yes. Sometimes it really hurts like I feel kinda left out. Yet I don't say anything.
Sometimes you all want to do something I just go with the flow. Although inside I really want to go and do something else I can't expect you all to drop everything and do it with me.
But I'm never angry at any of you for that.
Right now, I'm just angry at you.
Grow up.
You've honestly got to be dense if you still can't read what I'm feeling.

Ndp tmrw hope our last parade and concert rock.
Kinda excited about something :>
k shall go study mah organic chem now.

You know you're screwing with my mind but not my heart.

2010-08-03T21:37:00.003+08:00

Debated with myself the whole day if I should go school tmr.

SHOULD I?

Had actually made up my mind to go and then joanne just had to remind me about ss morning lesson tmrw.
MOOD KILLEDZ MAN.
Anyway in my current state of health I really hate fans.

Did something wrong tdy and...well idk if I should've apologised. :/
I really think I changed alot this year, and not so much for the better I guess

OHWELL. Someone just disappointed me again! 8( why must I always take take take and not have a chance to give back? Tsk!
Everyone keeps telling me I'm setting myself up to disappoint myself and that I'm disillusioned.
Idk, maybe it's time I accept that too.
After all like we told Jo tdy, 旁观者清，当局者迷（？）

LOL anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNE (too many surnames to list cos she's been attached to so many)
hahahaha kidding 8D
hope you like your bear!

You got me a nonbeliever now.

2010-08-01T20:27:00.003+08:00

Thanks to ziyi who passed me her cold! :( feeling quite sick the whole day & reaaaaally don't want to go to sch. Haiz screw Chinese test.
Anyway, Kami pergi ke tiong bahru yst to look for msp oral venue. Thankfully we din take too long, thanks to ziyi's good mapreading skills and someone's (awesomeeee!) directions :D and we were really surprised by how big and nice tiongbahru plaza is! Hopefully the msp class cld go there for a late lunch aft our oral? My mum says alot of famous eateries are there 8D
hahaha I sound so excited for msp oral.

Anyway it's the 1st of august alrdy! Zomg so fast.
Orals ndp and birthdaysssss <3
gonna be an exciting month no doubt (:

nuff said, shall get back to mah geography.

Not gonna get caught up in all those wishing again
cos you know there's a reason why love is said to be a miracle
(:

Take that final step forward.

2010-07-25T20:43:00.002+08:00

Movie'ed again with my family last night :D

awesomeeeee much k! Hilarious and got those magic stuff hehe. Nicholas cage is damn cool despite being so old :O
aww I got my heart set on buying so many shows aft o's now hahaha.
Oh and the song from the soundtrack of the show- secrets by onereublic is damn awesome too okaaaay.

Science tuition again with yet another new tutor. Wahlau damn qian bian this one. But got no choice cos at least he can teach so well. Gotta endure for 3 and a half more months then it's over yay :D

Damn no feel for school tmr haiz. I live for Fridays and the weekends. Seriously.

Tsk made me wait for 4 hours for a damn text. But still.
Reread all the texts just now. Made me feel just plain stupid now.

Temporary insanity.

2010-07-20T18:55:00.006+08:00

Taking a break from msp and went to google some random pics hehe 8D
SPOILER ALERT.

JOSEPH GORDON-LEVITT/ARTHUR
idk why but I just like him in the show lol.

awesomest scene ok.

ohwell off to study for bio spa then. Don't really have any feel for it though lol.

ARTHUR YAY.

we can choose to make it easy,

2010-07-18T18:34:00.004+08:00

Went Kallang with family last night to catch a movie :D
NO WE DIDNT WATCH THE NDP LOL
But the mall was crowded yst thanks to it. Tsk.

Managed to get tix to watch:

Awesome movie manz :D But quite cheem. The last part I was like "huh?" but okay lah, I like the special effects and architecture hahah! So cool :) But seriously the plot's good too. Definitely gonna try and buy the dvd when it comes out. I like those movies that make you think hehe.
OH and my favourite actor's gotta be Joseph gordon-levitt (he plays Arthur, Leonardo DiCaprio's partner) :D HE IS DAMN COOL OK HEHE. He can fight while the corridor is spinning and there is no gravity. Wow :O

Got home super late cos we watched the 9pm movie till about 11? So reached home ard 12. Slept till 2pm tdy. Awesomeeeeeee. But hey I didnt manage to sleep in for the whole week till tdy okay.
Speaking of which physics ssp was quite funny with mrs n91am making alot of jokes and then playing korean songs for us hehe.

My photo tht I sent to put in yearbook very blur D: GOTTA GET THAT SCANNER UP AND WORKING SOON MANZ TSK.

Ohno spa next week.
Shall go study abit then watch my show. \m/

ohyar and the hydrological cycle in sg is getting screwed manz.
flood-ed near my house yst. oh wow lol.

[EDIT]
I suddenly realise that alot of people I love are slowly becoming more and more self-absorbed.
Or is it just me lol.
BUT WHATEVER I am really sick of trying to talk to someone who isnt really interested.
What is happening man tsk.

败犬女王 is making me get hooked onto Fish Leong's songs LOL 8D
[/EDIT]

we don't miss things till they're gone. swear.

2010-07-16T21:52:00.006+08:00

HECTIC WEEK :O

Spa skill 3'ed almost everyday. Came back from prelims and they immediately told us there's spa. Next week. Win alrdy lah. Ohwellz shall memorize all the approach and procedure and get my 4 points :D
Feel kinda lazy to blog about everything :/ hehe so just the highlights!

Our last rhd in zhss was kinda fun :D took lots of pics and we had a
class pic again yay! Performance during assembly was quite nice esp the teachers' one :D
OH AND MR RED WORE HIS INDIAN COSTUME VERY VERY FUNNY LOL. THEN HE CANNOT TAKE OUT HIS PEN AH.

uh ya then nothing much alrdy.
Keep laughing over stupid things with zy xy Jo (: BOKAHLEE HAHA
AND SOMEONE'S ADVENTURE IN CAMBODIA :B HEHE. IN CASE YOU HAVENT ALRDY DONE SO, GO TO FB AND SEARCH MR LIONEL ANG FANCLUB. GO GO JOIN :p

Anyway,
went to read my archives again.
So many things happened last year esp around that month or so.
happy sad and a mixture of both
I can remember the details so vividly still.
How far we've come since then. :O
You no longer owe me anything, I should know.
But I still can't let things go like that. I really miss the past and how much I'd come to depend on it.
So, dui bu qi okay?
For these 2 years.
Until now, I realised I cant keep to my own word.
I realised there's no point telling you cos I think you know me better than I do.
I realised how much time I'd wasted and how bad I was.
I realised that I can pinpoint the exact time you'll stop replying now.
I realised how much I missed the past and everything. Even if it was just a few days a week, maybe one or two times peng mian, so what?
Even if now we text more than last time, so what?
But well I guess I've learnt to be contented alrdy :D

Could've slept in tmrw but I have physics ssp at the ungodly hour of 8 in the morning! :( FML
And speaking of physics I'm damn paiseh now infront of mrs n91am hahaha. I was super high upon receiving my C6 because I really thought I'd fail. And then she suan'ed me infront of the class. Waaaaaaaaaah. *blush blush*

Hiax,
watch show or do maths?
Hehe
choices, choices.

P/s i was wrong for once. YAY :D
And I failed my combined humans. SCREW SS.
I don't believe its so easy laaaaaaaaa ._.

OH AND I GOT A MERIT FOR CCA APPRECIATION DAY. LAUGHOUTLOUD.
I was shocked.

Its called wishful thinking.

2010-07-11T17:18:00.003+08:00

Changed my blogskin back to old one cos I feel like!
Hehehe.
Took me damn long to adjust & everything.
So pretty right :D
K off to watch my 败犬女王 alrdy. I am addicted now hehe.
卢卡斯 (Lucas) IS THE BESTEST.
I wish he was my boyf.
HAHAHA.
EH, A GIRL CAN DREAM RIGHT.

OHYAR tdy had tuition with a new tutor.
I DONT LIKE HER.
She's really weird.
AND SHE DK HOW TO DO MOLE CONCEPT HAHAHAH >:)
Then I pretend pretend play along while she figure it out.
I am evil :)
Okay bye.

Tell me why this ended up so differently,

2010-07-09T22:47:00.003+08:00

OH NO MY 败犬女王 IS LAGGING! D:

Ohyay prelim 1 is over :D I'm so not listening to pessimistic people like ziyi hehe. I'm gonna forget there's prelim 2 and o's for at least a week or something.

Dont want to elaborate much on the papers but getting them back will be an ordeal I think (: Must prepare lighter in bag to burn the papers alrdy. LOL. Or those paper shredding things. Chem was like playing toto again. Tsk.

Went home to hit my bed for an hour aft chem, and then went out again to meet jane & weijie :D Bishan library'ed and then had the 3 hour long sushi buffet at sakae sushi. HAHA. Ate until damn full. And I think we pissed the waitress off by constantly checking with her which items included LOLOL. Thn ordered alot. Weijie damn scary okay. First person to say she will eat very little, then first person to take so many plates. Jane ate two plates of sashimi. HAHA CHAWANMUSHI YAY. Then skipped dinner cos I was still very full. I bet I'll be super hungry tmrw morning.

SO ANYWAY I'M OFF TO ENJOY MY WEEKEND WITH THE 7 BOOKS I BORROWED AND 败犬女王 :) My 卢卡斯 is zomgly awesome and cute teehee.
Aiyar but sian have tuition. :(
k and i really want to talk to you again.

I don't give up that easily (:

2010-07-08T19:54:00.005+08:00

MY HEAD HURTS.

Slept at 1am last night for bio, then slept 5hours wake up and go to school, after bio study msp for 5 hours straight with lunch in between, then sat for 3 hour long exam til 5.
不痛才怪（?) !
Msp exam in the hall tdy. Hahaha. 11 of us in that huge hall.
I need to borrow a Malay-Malay dictionary for o's D: I dontwant to waste money buying.

Will blog tmrw. When I'm more sane. Hehe.
GO AND STUDY PEOPLE NIGHT.

Gotta be something we can do,

2010-07-04T21:20:00.003+08:00

Studied only 3 chapters of bio the whole day.
Nice one lah.
Got no feel to keep memorising alrdy.
Shall go do some anath first! \m/
Talked about all sorts of things with pearlyn tdy hahaha.
It hit me that, there's so many friends around you yet sometimes you can feel damn alone lah.
Hehe not your faults not your faults people :)
All mine for not being able to make people understand me. Haha.
I know you all getting tired of same old stuff, yes even I'm getting tired of it but I've gotten everything screwed up and it's hard to end things like that, right?
Ohwellz. I just know pearlyn isn't telling me something. YOU BETTEr ADMIT IT YOU. Roar.
Wasted my weekend like that :) and my msp gonna be screwed cos I didn't study. Hahaha
it's scary accepting failure so easily :O
aunt going out again tnight so gonna make use of it to mug hard. :D
I wish I had an excuse to talk to you again.
I wish there was some way to erase our past.
Tsk.

We gonna keep on going til we stop believing

2010-07-03T23:34:00.008+08:00

Disclaimer: I'm not blogging just cos pearlyn told me to!
Hehe. Blogging cos heavy paper week over and cos I feel like it :)
so, IN YOUR FACE PEARLYN :)
hahaha.

Papers so far have been quite disastrous lol. Except for emath. The rest like study until like never study like that. Ss was damn screwed for me. :( feel so stupid haiz.
Physics was cmi also. Hahaha.
Okay shall not relieve bad memories! :D
so after our physics paper yst headed to compass point with Jane, and weijie and Joanne who decided to come along haha.
Reached there ard 9plus. Effing scary to be like the only students, or the only people, for that matter, in the mall so early. Hahaha. Then we realised that alot shops haven't opened yet and felt quite dumb. But luckily there's always yakun! :D
yeah, then library'ed and ajisen ramen for lunch. Talk for damn long about lots of random things hahaha. Then saw someone who looked like _____ in ya kun and I kept scaring weijie and Joanne. HAHA.

Had a 2hour nap yst to make up for my 3hours of sleep on Thurs night. Then at night cannot sleep read til like 1 plus am. Woke this morning at 12. Now still not asleep yet. Told you my biological clock is screwed :)

I still feel quite pissed off about my ss. Roaaaaaaar.
Still keep thinking about stupid stuff.
Haiz okay go study bio now.
Gdnight world :D

I don't really care

2010-06-15T22:14:00.003+08:00

Prawning with my family on sat was damn fun \m/
aiyar wnted to post some pics I took but forgot tht I'm using iPod to blog. Sad face.
Headed to jane's house tdy for our study date.
Finished up some emath and SOME physics.
Ahaha quite good alrdy I think.
Halfway through I suddenly went,
me: eh I miss fahrenheit!
You got their song?
Jane: have lah

hehehe. Luckily I was next to an ex-fei lun hai fan when I had that craving. If not sure very sian :(
Have the room to myself again tnight cos my aunt went out.
:( I don't really like.
Head hurting head hurting head hurting. Rah.
Think I'm coming down with something.
My head keeps hurting and I feel veryyyyy hot. Like hotter than normal people feel in this weather.
Ohno manz -prays hard-
But now only 1024 so cannot sleep yet.
Shall go read geog or something.
Aft all PRELIMS IN 2 WEEKS TIME.

Just now I saw something at jane's house
which made me very ~~fucked up~~ sian.
Wnted to rant initially but then
oh well
damn tired of these untrollable things alrdy.
It's my fault okay?
Tsk.
And no it has nothing to do with jane LOL

k lah tmr shall not slack off alrdy.
And so,
Gdnight! :D

We got nothing to lose,

2010-06-11T22:50:00.003+08:00

Stealing some Internet time now :D

just got home from school! Hehe.
Ziyi's house(to pick up her laptop which, unfortunately, we din use in the end D: ) > koi > srgoon central for lunch with xy & Jo > school. Spent alot of time helping to prepare the food in the home econs room before we went down :p
then ate, played catching and guessed riddles lol. blasted music all the way too heh. Funfunfun! 8D
I think me and Joanne damn high lol.
Too bad ziyi had to leave early, and too bad weijie couldn't stay very long too :( ohwellz but had alot of fun okay! Hehe.
4e2's awesome much! Will post pics but there's none with me now I swear! (except 1 unglam one I took with xy lol). Shall kope them from fb or smth next time! Hehz.

Oh & i think my sugar intake for this week is very high tskkkkk.
2 koi-s and soft drinks tdy! Ohnooooo. :(
but then again tdy's koi cafe was so not sweet. Wahlaueh what was I thinking getting 70% sugar tsktsk.

Having tuition tmrw so I better sleep soon hehe. Damn shag too anyway.

OHYAY INTENSIVE PGRAMME ZHONG YU JIE SHU LE! :D
2 weeks of siao on mugging starts tmrw tskkkkk.

Tdy was really bittersweet cos it was the last time I went home with weijie. Hiax I'll miss that crazy woman D;

K la gdnight! 8D

真的很怀念..

we're forcing ourselves into parallels I can't keep to, but that's my problem right

2010-06-10T21:08:00.005+08:00

OHYAY NO MORE SPA (skills 1 & 2)

Physics spa tdy was simply awesome. Felt so shuang doing it (for once) even though I found 7 values for a straight line. Lol. And mrs ngiam was really nice, which can't be said for our bio spa teacher, who we have gotten for 2 years alrdy. Rawr. I think she like to see us suffer. Grrr.
Anyway blogging now cos need to man counter. Bored with nobody to talk to :(
ohwellz, coming to the end of the 2weeks intensive pgramme alrdy :D but it also marks the day tht weijie's moving from hougang :( damn sad okay, we've been like neighbours for so long yet we only knew each other a year ago. Will miss going home with tht crazy girl! D:
& Bbq at school tmr for TGIF! Although it's not the
same as one in pasirris......... Ohwell it should still be quite fun, I hope! (: and we all know who to thank for the change in plans huh?
Headed to tpy tdy aft school with weijie Jane & ziyi. Koi'ed+mosburger'ed :D
as weijie says, we must eat aft sucha depressing amath quiz we had to do during the last period! Hehe.

Okai, mei you dong xi jiang le. Hope i'll enjoy myself (for prob the last time before o's this year) tmrw. Gdnight! :D

you're back to bluffing yourself, disillusioning yourself into thinking that you have something that never was.

2010-06-04T21:48:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZIYI! ♥

SELAMAT HARI JADI! ♥

生日快乐！♥

(Wah I really love using trilingualism on her hehe)
My beloved girl for 4 years! Ai si ni le :D have a happy birthday okay,hope you ~~like~~love our gifts. hehe. and hopefully looking at them (ahem esp my letter :p) will put a smile on your face. Cheer up about chem spa! I believe that you will still get your A with the help of your gay theory :D You wont let ms ong down! hehe. So yeah, jiayou & gembira,gembira lah!

Yay, our first week of intensiveprogramme has officially ended. But have got a mountain of homework esp from amaths. -imitates 110n31: "class, happy face or unhappy face?"- WHAT DO YOU THINK LEH. tsk.
Celebrated ziyi's bday aft school tdy. Got stressed out cos xinyee and ziyi teamed up and bluff us that she was gng home aldy. wahlaueh, win lor. then yuvin smash cake into people's faces again. ugh, double win.

ohwellz. Must not get tempted to stay longer online! Now waiting for my 败犬女王 to load anyway :D listened to ziyi's advice and decided to find it on xinmsn. HAHA. Oh & joanne, its called queen of no marriage, not defeated queen please. =="

Anyway, 这样就已经两年了 :O Suddenly feel a wave of nostalgia aaaah. Used to be so easy to bluff myself that I still have time, still have time. But now all of its used up, in fact, its pretty late alrdy. And all I have left is useless memories and disillusions lol. but nope, still no regrets. maybe except beating myself up over the wrong time. Haiz, michelle, haiz.

Okay bu yao zai duo xiang le. gdnight all! tgif! :D

OH AND SHOULD I STILL BUY BBT TMRW? BUT I DONT WANT GET DIABETES AAAAAH NOOOOOO :( Had cupwalker with joanne jane & weijie tdy alrdy, maybe gng koi next week lol. BBT YES NO?

maybe we'll never know how little it takes to make us happy (:

2010-05-30T21:37:00.004+08:00

O S I M :(
the long weekend was fun :D
okay friday was pretty unfufilling, academically speaking, but still had some fun. heh.
yst went to expo to check out the book fair and food fair. the book fair sucked :l only got, what, 6 bookcases of english books? and all of them are crime/thriller genre.
me: wahlau, i read all the blurbs read till very ni alrdy
my aunt: hahaha i know what you mean

food expo was much better hehe. kope samples and bought some cheapo food. then there was this booth giving out free packets of beehoon! :O so being the cheapskate sgeans we were we went to take some. then my aunt very funny.

guy: lai lai, mian fei de! -presses box of beehoon into her hands-
her: huh? -stare at him blankly then look at box-
guy: mian fei de, mian fei de. bu yao huan qian

hahaha. ohman i like the coffee samples! :D
Chinese-y day tmrw.
3+ hours of hcl tmrw for us, and chinese o's papers for the express chinese people. all the best everyone! :D
attempted to study chemistry today. left 1 chapter out of the 4 i planned to mug ohnooooo. yi jing mei you shi jian le.
came online supposedly to print some pics but xian zai mei you yin wei you ren hai mei you send wo. Hmph. :(
speaking of photos right, that day i went to my outdated friendster to look see and i realised how long my hair was in the past.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
i went, "WAH IS THAT REALLY MY HAIR OR FAKE ONE?"
zzzzz. oh i regret chopping it off for the sake of rebonding :(
ohwellz.
mummy asking me to go drink green bean soup le.
so,
i shall end here.
gdnight!

i suddenly realise got so many people, that i dont miss till too late.

Yeah I'm in the I-don't-know-what-I'm-feeling-now mood

2010-05-27T23:57:00.005+08:00

last day of school was... normal-ish. hahahaha.
phototaking like 3 times for me :O early in the morning, went for band photo in that black, absorbing and radiating uniform.
at 8am. my. shirt. was. already. soaked. with. perspiration. tsk.
then class one and then our informal one for class of the term (Y) hehehe. after the last one everyone dont bother changing out of class tees alrdy.
chem spa was sian. i kept rubbing my eyes i swear idk why i was so sleepy during spa.
and i saw ziyi doing the same thing out of the corner of my eye! heheeeeeez.

msp was funny to the max hahaha.
aiying: I teach you all how to see if someone is gay or lesbian.
darius: eh say leh, say leh...
aiying: okay if you are lesbian, *proceeds to show us the "signs" which i shall keep a secret hehehehe!*
darius: *starts checking for the signs on himself"
aiying: What you doing, this is for lesbians only! You mean you girl meh!

(after aiying shows us the one for gays)
me: eh, yingkang totally doesn't have the sign *sian look*
xinyee: Maybe he's bi. LOL

me: ziyi so you going pee anot?
ziyi: um see friday first!
xinyee&me: YOU GOING ASK FRIDAY WANT PEE WITH YOU AH

lol etcetc. i love our crazy class hehehe.

okay 12:11 now.
aunt just went out to meet -ahem-, so i dont think i can fall asleep so fast. :(
shall start on work now.
i feel guilty for wasting so much time just now. BUT I FINISHED THE BOOK SUNDAYS AT TIFFANY'S ALREADY & IT IS AWESOMEXZFJZKXZ.
hahaha this morning, vikki snatched my book and goes "oh, this book. hey amanda! you read alrdy right?"
amanda: OHYEAH THIS BOOK. Ya it is really really nice! Really!
LOL
going out tmrw so i hope i dont oversleep, hehe.
gdnight!

Its not too late,

2010-05-26T22:44:00.003+08:00

Sending stuff to joanne online now,
so shall come here awhile hehe.
Ohno its 10 alrdy and I havent done anything useful (except for my bio homework I guess)
DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
I realise how few pictures we have.
We really have to take more ok! Everybody! :D
Ohyay I'm done.
But still need to see if that xiao jie needs anything else.
I want to watch defeated queen. D:
So many things I want/need to do, so little time haiz.
I like heredity :D Genetic diagrams is so awesomexzqlaldnfkskjnb fun :D
Pe today was awesome. We played badminton and I finally jie tuo(?) napfa ahaha! Botak wanted to make us go to the gym but everyone dao him and cont to play. :D Aiyar but that noob loser took his revenge by not telling us when it was recess. Tsktsk childish
Ming tian supposed to be last day of term 2.
But no feel this year.
Haiz damn cynical hahaha.
Phototaking tmrw too. Fun/not fun? Sigh.
On the bright side, there's probably lesson-missing hehehe! On the dark side, there's msp. :(
Life is good. :D
Goodbye.

You don't feel yourself hurting til it stops.

2010-05-22T00:14:00.004+08:00

1215 am now :O
Hmm, sort of waiting for my aunt to come home & finishing up homework at the same time now. hehe.
random Ohyay its friday! /random
I love this week so much (2 days off and no pe okaaaaaay! :D), but it'll be perfect if thursday had been a holiday too. Ohwellllllllll.
Prelims in 5 weeks time exactly D: I better go and study le. Wasting lots of time watching defeated queen nowadays. ahahaha. ruan jin tian! :D
And spending lots of money on subway every friday. Sigh.
Oh and I realise everytime I mention vikki's name in my blog she'll tag me.
I told you she's scary :O

Anyway,
congrats to Ziyi and Vikki for best in msp & english respectively :D!
And the rest of the 4E2ians who got it.
And the rest of the prizewinners.
Ahahaha.

MEIOSISMITOSISPROPHASEANAPHASEMETAPHASETELEPHASE
MY EYELIDS ARE CLOSING ON MY SCLERA/RETINA/LENS

You give back what you give away,

2010-05-19T20:04:00.002+08:00

- Happy belated birthday to Yuvin and Shannen! :D
yuvin; you better hug our gifts to sleep at night hehe
shannen; miss you loaaaaaads! If have chance to meetup will give you belated present heh!
- Got cheese in my hair last week thanks to yuvin -.-
- steamboat at home last sat was awesome much. Swear I'll beg mum to do it again soon
- pool > audition (after so long ok!) > thought of class cheer and made banners all at Zee's condo yst. I'm in love with billiard now heh
- sports carnival at nyp > good lunch at gecko > karaoke with zee Jo xy beryln huien sijiun today. Haha
fun singing all the old songs in a weird way
- whaaaaat why no points for originality for class cheer :(((
- defeated queen is so exciting now but I gotta control lehhhhhh sian D: LOL JOANNE RUAN QIN TIAN (sp?) NOT HANDSOME HAHA
- egg tarts is love :D (hints to Vikki if you still read my blog hehe)
- got to get back to my msp now D:
- but I just want to complain about the horrible Chinese ssps lined up for us. Wahlaueh D:
- prelims in about a month's time. Can die ahhhhhh. No confidence for comb. humans
- okey byebye
- why don't you return me the luck :<
- feel like giving up my blog gah
- screw it lah I feel all those old lousy feelings rushing back aaaaah

this aching heart ain't broken yet, :)

2010-05-09T21:31:00.004+08:00

One last post for the weekend. :)

Time's flying past, seriously.
Was looking at my student organiser this morning & was in shock.
"2 more weeks to june hols only?! O:"
damn it I'm out of time I have to stop procrastinatinggggg.

So yeah. Attempting to (finally) do my last msp essay now but alrdy no interest. Jialat D:
And I still have to study/prepare for english oral tmrw! its prelims ohno!
"Oral got what to study meh?"
I'm really shocked to realise how much proper english I've forgotten, in terms of spoken english. :( I am speaking like a typical Sgean nowadays. Tsk tsk.

Ohwellz zai jian le I guess (: May be blogging less and lesser.

I wonder,
如果有机会回到以前，我会不会跟你做朋友？可能如果当时没有认识你，相信你，事情就会有不同的结束。
依你来想，如果真的有回到以前这样的办法，我不会又去犯一样的错误。
但是，你错了。我会再回去，再关心，再爱。
是你夺走了我的幸福吗？

Haiz some things never change.
And my mind's one of them. (:

don't get carried away now,

2010-05-07T22:11:00.005+08:00

I JUST REALISED I CAN USE BLOGGER W/ MY IPOD
W/O DL-ING ANY APP
*suaku*
kept wondering why I couldn't press tht blogging space. TSK AM I NOOB OR WHAT

okay shall keep it short cos it's rly hard to type.
Normal-ish week which wasn't as hectic as I expected \m/

pe was awesomexxxxxz cos this other teacher took the napfa failures which meant I didn't have to see botak and his (lack of) hair :D
weijie and I had an awesome much time teasing the teacher after failing our jumps (again hehe). gossiped with her and yuqi \m/

and oh ofcourse this is must-mention-able news.
Mr Lionel Ang (full name cos we're praising him) gave us chocolates yst!
Somemore not those ~~cheapo~~ kind the sch gave us for the fashion runway thing. It was ferrero rocher O.O
so, 6 May 2010. We must remember this day. Maybe name it chocolates day or smth :D hehe
oh and the best part is he gave them to us aft we did his incredibly braincell-killing pop quiz
"okay class you all wait here. I go and get your hmwk"
LOLOL ohwell keeping fingers crossed for music during lessons soon! 8D

anyway msp yst was sleep-inducing esp with the unbearable heat :(
but break was fun as usual. :D I wish we can have a msp outing hehehe

tdy passed rather quickly.
Weather was still very horrible. Like living in a suana. Tsk tsk
but ss and physics was fun in a way I guess :D
kenan wrote Venice=veh nice during word splash. LOLOL
and 没有雨的我 damnnnn random and high tdy -_-
swear I'll do smth to Vikki if she goes "you bake?" to me again 8(
ZZZ

lunched and gossip fest with yuvin Krystal and Jane aft sch.
Quite nice having a chance to catch up w/ them esp yuvin and kryss but heard smth quite sad so yeah
I think I really do live a verrrry sheltered life :/ must be grateful! Lol

and ofcourse,

HAPPY 16TH BDAY WEIJIE!

Tired tired shall sleep soon (SWEAR)
just now thought of alot of things to say
but I forgot what alrdy lol.
Maybe just have alot of stuff on my mind nowadays :O
cca shitz, pe shitz, studying, and etc.
Still got a huge part of my mind getting taken up by it which is quite...frustrating. haiyo.
YI JING GUO QU LE, ZAI YE BU HUI HUI LAI.
Damnit. Rawr :/
Really should learn to listen to my head. hehe

Ohwell,
SLEEP.
SELAMAT MALAM/ WAN AN!

ps. I'm addicted to 98.7 now as much as joanne's addicted to 91.3 fm hehe. MUTTONSTOMIDNIGHT FTW.
ohkay imma go dl songs right now :)

let's leave it there, with the truth still hanging.

2010-04-30T21:47:00.004+08:00

imma back!
with nothing much 8D hehe.
oh, except that we just finished our MIDYEARS
which comprised of just english & chinese 8) hahaha
i think its our prelim 1 advanced exam though.
screwed it up quite badly, esp my english. Time wtf :( chinese compo was better but my zhonghetiankong win. I didnt even read the passage. like choosing toto numbers like that. feel shun then just write O.O

anyway,
i still feel very pekchek this week
yes because of my beloved cca (again!)
as my beloved lao shi bu yao chu lai jian wo yi ji gei wo wo de fen shu
hai you botak head.

hiax. screw the whole cca dept. i am PISSED x(

oh and have been spending alot of money on food lately.
hope i wont become broke. hehe.
ate out almost everyday this week with zy xy jo. :D
monday was the funniest.
during chem, xy suddenly went "i feel like eating subway leh..."
and me and jo got so excited we said we MUST eat it that day.
so since after school we had no ssp, we dragged zy with us and went to satisfy our cravings hehe.
yeps so $7 or $8 plus flew away like that.
BUT HAO WAN LEH. (:
anyway, thanks to the 3 of you all for like pei-ing me to eat (i know i'm the one who always suggests we go and eat hehe :x) and consoling me on wed. luvs! :D
OH and I did an awesomely good deed today! :D
I treated ~~a poor starving girl~~ xinyee to a piece of mian bao.
HAHA. okay i'm just kidding. but i really treated her because she looked so longingly at it (Idk why but she loves the "shiny-looking bread" at the western stall opp. school)
and she got very excited after that.
hiax. just a piece of bread.
from this we can all infer that it takes very little to make xinyee happy. (:

ohwell,
i shall spend my labour day weekend on comb. humans \m/!

and yay i think i have (science) tuition on sunday! :D

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xinyee; no I watched 2D. hehe. luckily I did! wahlaueh subtitles only o.o
vikki; Ohno I've been caught! :l
joanne; eh, damnit I DO!
ziyi; hehe ohyaaaar poor bunnies :( next time just call her deprived-childhood :D

to the rest; i really dont have the time ~~nor patience~~ to reply your tags hehe. sorry! but i really appreciate them and love them so you know what to do! :D *hints*

是不是自卑?

2010-04-25T21:15:00.004+08:00

Ni men hao! :D

Haven't been blogging for a reeeeeally long time alrdy, I know. I don't really have the time or patience to nowadays :l hehe. As usual, lots of things have been happening but right now I'm too frustrated with the irritating-as-hell cca and too tired to relate anything so yeah.

In this 4 years right, 98% of the time I'm feeling depressed/angry/just plain pekchek, it'll be all its fault. And the other 2% is related to it in terms of people.

I am just feeling unhappy because I listened to my heart and not my head during sec 2 and did not grab the chance offered to quit. :(

Wo zhen de hen hou hui.

Even now, aft I've stepped down alrdy, I'm caught up in all this nonsense and everything. I gotta fight for still my points. I gotta go and look for her although I tell myself I dont ever want to see her ugly face again.

Aft 4 years, can't you just give me my damn points? Thn we never have to see each other again, everyone happy, yay.

But apparently not.

Wo xian zai yao wen wo zi ji, zhi de ma? Was everything worth it?

I can still remember jane asking me this qns and my response, hahaha. But ohwell, I still dont know -.-

On the bright side,
There were other things that happened recently which let me have fun :D

& I'm quite proud of myself cos I've got only 1 or 2 Msp essays left! :D
K it might not sound like much to be proud of but it IS an achievement, considering that I had accumulated 6 last week.

Lang. papers next week for midyears! Then sports carnival, june holidays, SPAs 2 & 3, Prelims 1 & 2, graduation ceremony. And finally, O's.

Haiyo I better stop summarizing the year like this. Its gonna only scare me. D:!

No science tuition in the morning today makes me blardy sian. :( My tutor is sucha cheerful and funny guy hehe. He makes me laugh on Sunday mornings so I like! But today dont have cos he need to study for his uni exams. So I sian. :(

Ok I got to stop typing out my random thoughts. I'm thinking like maybe I should close down this blog soon. Hehe. Or maybe not.
Maybe I'll change the url or switch to some other blog host.

I'm tired of living everydays. I wanna live one days. Then I can go, "one day, I did...."," one day, I saw..." instead of "everyday I wake up go to school and study...".

But that's life. Tsk.

if this is what i call home, why does it feel so alone

2010-04-16T21:53:00.004+08:00

(typing this a second time cos my laptop auto shutdown for dk what reason and the entire post disappeared. thanks ah -.- )

i really can't help but wonder where the old all-of-you have gone to. where are the people who celebrated my bday with me and surprised me with a belated albeit awesome present? where are the people whom i could msn/sms/chat to about almost anything with and whom i could trust? where are the people whom actually made it something i could look forward to? right now i cant wrap my mind ard the fact tht those people are the same ones who sour all my happy memories. sometimes i really wnt to go back, but the thought of stepping into that sad sad place stops me, dead. i miss alot of people, but now we're just strangers. i guess i cant blame you guys for treating me like a figurehead; i treat myself as one (: but really, you guys shldnt even bother asking me what i think if you value my opinion so little. dont break my heart leh.

tsk. tell me, why does everything change year aft year?

& i feel so depressed just thinking about whatever you said. so why can't you talk to me first? ._.

2.4 km sucked today, as usual. i failed by like, 1 min? dk why i felt so disappointed, maybe cos i was quite high & excited before that & i really wnted to pass this year so i dont have to retest. gahz. what's the use of long legs if you cant run fast/jump far! :( pekchek much.

right, & mon's gonna be another fail thanks to sbj. awesome much (: i've quite given up on sbj but i really really wnt to pass 2.3 for once. :( aww. so yeah i'm going to push myself to train hehe! any patient person who can pace themselves with me want to go jogging? -gives vikki's smile- i dontwnt bullet-train people like joanne okay! tsk.

ohwellz, shall just concentrate on pissing botak d off (: speaking of vikki, being surrounded by 17, 18 and 19 (vikki ziyi & melissa respectively) is quite hilarious and we're like randomly talking about stuff sometimes which is quite fun hehe. vikki's scary though! and ziyi keeps going off on that high-pitched laugh. o.o

had dinner at ajisen ramen with joanne & yuvin aft the test tdy. i just realised its my second time, the first being with jane to celebrate our stepping down from cca, 8) i like the ramen there, and i usually dont like ramen ok! but i dont like the drinks cos they taste very authentic. yes i know im weird but i really dont like authentic-tasting lemon/green tea cos the aftertaste is just... weird. had our usual gossip fest til yuvin had to leave for tuition, thn me & joanne talked abt our fave topic again, ahem.

the rest of the week was quite sian. tests all the way, and i think i'm gonna do badly/did badly this time cos i dont really bother studying til i give up my sleep. hehe. must.sleep.early! so once its 12 am my body seems to be instinctively tired and i have to sleep. so... i flunked my comb. humans and gonna be failing physics too lol. i couldnt even remember what ohm's law was exactly. well done to me :o

ohyeah, yst msp was quite funny. the class was quite small cos xinyee went for eldds halfway & yongxiang and yongen dk disappear til where. so during break, the whole class went down which was a first cos usually will have a few staying upstair (i seriously dk why, i hate the boring atmosphere there :<) and we randomly talk cock for quite long til it was like 5min past? hehe we're always late anw. thn aiying started to use her sjab-president(i keep forgetting whats the highest rank called! :l) power on us and yuiwei kept scaring us! rawr. we kept laughing and i think the girls esp were quite feng. then the guys were like "..." hehehe. oh but sian we owe friday yet another essay. zzz!

watched this last week.

quite awesomeeee ofcourse. (: i like greek mythology!

this is the hot guy who plays perseus. sam worthington. hehe. i think he's cute only but my sist, is absolutely gaga over him -,-

ohwell i shall stop here as my eyes are blearily staring at the screen now and i'll type gibberishkfma likedgkfl thatfjs soonxdhf. i'll just end off with something random:

Michelle \m/ says:
im gonna join choir in jc!

- uʎ1ɹɐǝd / ????; I have to admit, says:
WHY CHOIR?!

Michelle \m/ says:
choir! to improve lung capability :)
joanne call me train for soprano hahaha

- uʎ1ɹɐǝd / ????; I have to admit, says:
LOL!!!
I WILL FAINT
IF U SOPRANO

YES I SHALL JOIN CHOIR IN JC SO THERE! (:

btw THE SALTWATER ROOM ftw!
gdnight everyone!

当我们同在一起,

2010-04-02T22:05:00.004+08:00

HEHLOH finally updating again cos its a good friday so i feel good hehe. :D

NO I ACTUALLY I DONT. But nevermind I shall still update!

Okaaaaaaaaay lots and lots of things have been happening shall just blog about the highlights.

MOTIVATIONAL CAMP

Hehehe ofcourse it was pretty awesomeeeee much! Seminar room group ftw! Got gary, trina and andrea as our trainers and they ftw :D Shall not elaborate much cos I think everyone should have the first hand experience themselves but it was awesome allright! 1st day was hilarious thanks to gary and andrea. During gary's session we really laughed nonstop. Like, from 9am all the way to 1pm. Laughed until crazy laaaaa lol. Stomach and jaw pain aft tht. Andrea also hehehe. She made andy dance then we started to laugh again! Still got alot of other funny jokes and stuff, but too many to type out here. Anyway, it was super fun. (: And the 2nd day was really, -borrows the trainers' fave word- powerful. Hahahaha. 3rd day everyone abit tired liao, but still pretty okay.

Thn had parent-teacher meeting. I hate my mentor. She used up like, 80% of her time with my parents to talk about my ss. CRAZY. WHEN I GOT LIKE, AN A FOR IT, AND I GOT C FOR MY PHYS/CHEM. And she totally ignored them. TSK TALK ABOUT BEING BIASED. She just wants to use the opportunity to talk about her national marking skills tsk.

Aft tht, ate with my parents :D My mum was so hilarious hehehe she kept complaining but k shall not mention her complaints here! And she say the food gave her indigestion! :O Thn they went home and I went to the hall to find xy jo zy for the finale. Beginning was quite sian cos leroy, the trainer taking the finale, was only talking to our parents, and most of whatever he said, we heard before. So all the students started to entertain ourselves. Hahahaha. Played truth or dare with ivan, xavier jo xy zy. :D So funny and we were trying to talk, laugh everything in whispers, but the trainers keep coming over to shush us. Got one of them very funny, he gave us this very idiot look, and he took the crane jo made, and put it on ivan's lap in a very qin mi way. HAHAHA.
But okay, aft tht some students went up to speak, and it was really touching, too bad not enough time, so even though jo and xy (and later zy) wnted to go up, they didnt have the chance to. :( lol & hey dont accuse me of being callous allright, I only didnt wnt to go up cos my parents weren't thr! Besides I tell them I love them everyday alrdy so yeah :D

Okaaaaaay so all in all the camp was really memorable :) And I kinda really enjoyed the 3rd day cos I was talking to someone throughout, tsk, you're really great to talk to okaaaaaaaaay :>

hmm, k then the days just passed lol. Ohyeah, and we celebrated Mr An9's bday on 23 March! :D

Ahem, J was pretty excited for tht day hehehe. She and X even made a card thn everyone signed. Thn got 1 hr of his lesson aft tht, so we decided to pick a random time in the middle, 1pm, and suddenly sing bday song. And of course J was to lead us or whatever. BUT THT GIRL IS A CHICKEN. SHE KEPT CHICKENING OUT -,- So at 1pm, everyone was like waiting for her but she kept shaking her head. Thn i think weijie went "J!" , then yuqi, then karen, then the whole class. Hahahaha! Thn Mr An9 was like, *turn around* "what?" then everyone laughed. But J still dont dare to start -,- So Yongxiang helped her by raising his hand, then J keep shaking her head frantically, so when Mr An9 said, "yes yongxiang?" he went "oh nothing I understand alrdy" Hahahahaha! Thn everyone laughed again. Finally J went "Mr An9 can we sing a song?" then everyone sang and he got paiseh. Awww. :D

Cant really remember much aft tht. Oh, co, gz and cldds performed on tues, and apparently next week choir and eldds(?) is gonna perform too. Tsk, was telling zl about how great our cca is. Everyone else is like, having their last performace before stepping down, and what are we doing to step down? Go there do hmwk. -.- Yeah, I guess its like progress from going there to teach sec1s. Now we just go there to do hmwk. So I guess the bandstore is like more... stimulating? than our own homes, or even our classrooms. WOW AWESOMEEEEEE.

2 MORE PRACTICES TO GO (I think) YAY I CANT WAIT.

Haiz still sick now so shall try and sleep earlier (After finishing my biojournal)! I feel so guilty for sleeping til 1pm today, hehe. But people sick ok :( Had fever last sat night, sian. BUT SO DID SOMEONE AND ALOT OF OTHER PEOPLE TOO :O lol.
OH and cos I was sick so I didnt go pe on wed! Hehehe. Shuang cos I didnt have to run 2.4, but I really hate botak. He killz myz lifez manz. Wnted to do up my geog hmwk with sze chi, BUT HE JUST HAD TO MAKE US DO STUPID STUFF LIKE TIME THE STUDENTS AND MAKE SURE THEY DONT CHEAT. wth. Result? I kept pressing the stopwatch wrongly then made him pekchek hehehehe. BUT I HAD TO DO MY GEOG WB SECRETLY DURING GEOG INSTEAD. Wahlau -.-

Anyway I realise I actually dont have alot of homework, its just my procrastination. Gah. BUT STILL, no motivation to do them up. Haiyo lol. Esp my commonwealth essay! *slashes at air violently*

ohwellz gotta get myself motivated soooon! Cts coming up :( Sad sad sad.
Gdnight people!

HEHE I THINK MY FAMILY IS GOING TO WATCH CLASH OF THE TITANS TMRW. :D

Got so many things to say, but I swallow them all back,

2010-03-23T21:02:00.003+08:00

I REALLY HATE THE COMMONWEALTH ESSAY.

Switched on my laptop to try and do it but... yeah. Suddenly wondered if I should blog alittle to let people know I'm still alive. Hehe.

Ohkay now tht I'm done I shall go back to it. -,- Zzz

Not sure when I'll blog again, so I'll owe you guys the post on motivational camp, mr ang's mini bday celebration from us and etc.
I always wonder why people say enjoy your holidays only so I'll be the first and say, ENJOY YOUR SCHOOLDAYS HEHEHE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR ANG! OLD ALRDY, BU YAO ZAI HUAN XIANG 8D LOL MAY YOU FIND A GIRLF SOON LOLOL.