I know we made up on the terms that I should never have to care about you again, and that its gonna be a one-sided care on your side. And yes, I later told you its impossible, I'm not some heartless bitch that can turn off my feelings, friendship and all just like that. When I care, its wholeheartedly, its for as long as we're friends. But yes, because you told me I'm not obliged to care, I can't just fucking blow up at you over it anymore. But still, it really pisses me off and hurts me. Have you ever considered that you're treating me how she treats/treated you? You told me all about the people who hurt you/you dont like, for nearly one year. And all I did was listen, I was always on your side. Because of whatever you told me, I must confess, I grew to dislike her alot. For hurting you. And anyone else who did. Protective much? :/ but you should know, seeing how I reacted when another of our friends got verbally attacked. But I kept quiet, 'cos who am I to care anymore? And then now, when you've made up with all of them and fallen back for her and decided to ignore however she'd hurt you last time, you just go back to having fun with them and ignoring me. Yes, we're just friends. I don't expect anything more. But as friends, don't I even deserve that respect? When you're out with us, you spend all your time texting them and antisocialising. When you're out with them, you take forever and ever just to reply a simple text I sent 'cos I was worried. You ask me not to allow you to take up too much space in my life, but do we, in yours...?
I was already mentally prepared that for the next 2 weeks we're gonna be strangers til they come back. But seriously, fuck you still.
And I'm not gonna tell you any of this even if I could, because despite whatever you think of me, I do treasure our friendship too much to let something like that ruin it
And even then, I can't tell you of this because I'm not supposed to care. Sigh. But I must've missed the life lesson on turning off feelings overnight, because I still do. I love you like a friend, like how I love them. And the least you could do, is to pretend you care, even when she's back in your life. Yeah yeah but we're just friends, who am I to ask of so much?